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“According to Le-way”

The roar of a Lion is like the life of a sinner

A fair judgement for everyone

It was a long time ago but some of you may remember. It was the fall of 1992 and Ozzy was in the midst of his No More Tears Tour. I bought two tickets but my companion copped out at the last minute. I was not about to miss my first opportunity to see Ozzy live so I went by myself! The months and years that lead up to the concert consisted of a lot of drug abuse, especially LSD and marijuana! On this particular night all I had was a bag of weed and enough money to buy some drinks once I arrived. My prior experience with LSD and my maturity level contributed to the events of the evening. During the concert I screamed out several phrases that I somehow hoped would fuck with my fellow concert goers. The words “I’m here!” and “Blue Ball” had to do with a couple of LSD trips I had recently taken. I was quite a distance from the stage so it took me off guard when Ozzy appeared to notice, look in my direction, and even put his arm out as if he was saluting Hitler. I thought nothing more of it till the next day…

The next morning I went about drinking beer and smoking weed as usual. I decided to put in the No More Tears CD in tribute of the concert I had just attended when it happened. There is no way I could have known it at the time but I would never be the same! I played it over and over again in a state of bewilderment that grew more and more enticing each time I heard what was on it. It was me! It was my name! My full name was on an Ozzy Osbourne song! I couldn’t believe it! I have since come to accept it.

The following months developed into full blown schizophrenia. There seemed to be nothing I could do to get the refrigerator to shut up or find the listening devices and cameras the radio station must have put in my room. It was like the Earth itself was desperately trying to tell me something. The days and weeks turned into months and eventually years that I would have to spend like this. There are no words to describe what I went through or any way to truly exaggerate it (other than to say it was impossible).

I found it hard to accept that reality wasn’t what it was supposed to be and that my life up to this point had been a mere illusion (based on a series of lies and a lifetime of deception). A secret race of demon people were able to read my mind, control my thoughts, supply many (if not all) of my emotions and, in doing so, determine much of my behavior. It wasn’t so much that I was crazy as it made me mad. I couldn’t deal with the fact that everyone had kept this a secret from me (my whole life) and were now using their psychic powers against me. It made me so mad, in fact, that I came close to walking into McDonalds or going into work and killing a bunch of people on a number of occasions. I felt like I didn’t have a choice. They (the demon people) had me backed into a corner and I wasn’t going to let them get away with it. Fortunately, I didn’t have a gun or else I probably would have done what anyone else (in their right mind) would have done in my situation (which is to kill as many of them [the demon people] as possible).

There is part of this story that I should take the time to tell you about. At this point in my life I could no longer justify calling myself a Christian. I became convinced that there’s a lot of “right” talk in the Bible that just serves to draw attention away from what really matters. A Christian is someone who believes you have to be a Christian to go to Heaven. So far as I’m concerned this is a technicality which is something I just plain know isn‘t fair. It’s like having to know the password (or secret knock) in order to get into Heaven or be forgiven. As a consequence I decided that Christianity didn‘t do the God of my understanding justice. I wanted to believe in a perfect God and, to me, that meant He had to be fair. It’s not that I had a problem with Christian morals and values (although I don‘t think homosexuality is as bad as it suggests). I had a problem with having to believe in Jesus’ name specifically. It shouldn’t matter what you call or do not call God. God knows who His true followers are! He is the God of everyone or He is the God of no one. Our beliefs do not determine what is or what isn’t. Surely, God is as reasonable as we are! In the words of Ozzy Osbourne, “No sympathizing God is insanity!”

As I see it the worlds religions are just a bunch of different ways to worship the same God. Simply put: to believe in a perfect God is to believe in God (which is what most religions have in common to begin with and all that really matters). Le-way (what I call my religion) attempts to glorify God in the best way possible by describing Him as fair and reasonable to all creatures (great and small). It allows people like myself to have a relationship with God (who otherwise would find it difficult) without having to change who they are or what they like to do. Does anyone really deserve to go to hell forever or do some of us just deserve to stay longer than others? According to Le-way, forever should be based on forever and not a human lifetime. Everyone should get exactly what they deserve (good or bad) which is what makes Le-way what it is and God worth believing in. What’s fair is fair but I’ll talk more about that later.

One day last fall I was getting drunk in the woods not too far from my parents house where I was staying when something unusual happened. I saw what appeared to be a dark figure resembling a knight in shining (although completely black) armor materialize in front of me. The creature, whatever it was, stood before me without saying a word for what seemed like forever. Then without any warning reached for the sword at it’s side and struck me down with a single, massive blow to the head. The next thing I knew I was in the spirit and standing before the Lord. God did not say a word to me but instructed a four headed beast to show me what is to come.

I was surprised to hear the beast speak in such an innocent tone that I was not frightened. The beast explained to me in great detail what I am supposed to share with the rest of the world. The way to go to Heaven is to surrender the knowledge of good and evil but this can be accomplished in ways that do not even require that we believe in God. The important thing is that you put God (or what’s perfect) in charge of your life. I was correct to say that it doesn’t matter what you call or do not call God. God knows who His true followers are! People who surrender the knowledge of good and evil will become at one with God and serve Him in a manner similar to how are arms and legs do us. They will become like manifestations of Brahma or extensions of Gods will. This is what it means to achieve Nirvana or go to Heaven. It is to become at one with God.

The beast went on to explain that God has prepared a place for the rest of us too. Each head of the beast took turns speaking as he described it as a kind of purgatory that will fulfill Gods wishes. He showed it to me and what I saw amazed me!

He referred to this place as Utopia and exclaimed that it‘s where bad things won‘t happen to good people. The better you live your life, the better your life will be. He called this Perfect On-going Justice which he said is a lot like Karma but without having to go through the cycle of rebirth hoping to eventually get it right. It will ensure that everyone gets what they deserve by manipulating the spiritual environment that surrounds them.

Actual Free-will, or the absence of any demonic and/or psychic influences will ensure that people are the ones responsible for their actions and deserve the consequences they reap (Forward Momentum [see Forward Momentum] makes it possible by empowering individuals to achieve their best). People will get to be psychic about themselves (to the extent Perfect On-going Justice permits) but not each other. This will resolve the problem with the demon people once and for all.

The best part is that God has given everyone a Permanent 2^nd Chance (to surrender the knowledge of good and evil and join those already in Heaven [or paradise] who have essentially achieved Nirvana and become at one with God). Forever will be based on forever because that‘s the way it should be. It makes no sense to condemn a man to hell for who he’s been if it’s not who he‘ll become. Forever is too long a sentence for anyone, even God, to defend.

Some of you will accept my message while others may not. Don’t get me wrong. No one is right about God, not even me. It’s not that I’m right. It’s that God’s not wrong. What matters is that we believe in something that is perfect and infallible. If we can believe in this, it will believe in us. We don‘t have to die to ourselves to experience Gods love (or grace). He loves us for who we are and wants to provide the environmental factors to bring about the best in each of us. What sense does it make to live the life of a sinner when you know full well that you have choices and will get exactly what you deserve? Surrendering the knowledge of good and evil may not be for you but that doesn’t mean you have to experience a place called hell. Everyone should get what they deserve (so far as what is reasonable and makes sense) and that includes a Permanent 2^nd Chance. According to Le-way there will be liberty and justice for all!

“The Crack in the Liberty Bell”

May America bring us a miracle…

A paradigm shift that’s one of God‘s most wonderful gifts,

A promise in the form of justice,

And the end of times in a series of rhymes!

The truth is not a guessing game,

And no one knows Gods name

It doesn’t matter who is right

If no one’s willing to stand up and fight

To defend the truth for what it is

And hope God considers them one of His!

When all is said and done

Does it really matter what we call Gods Son

Or just that our lives were fun?

Gary Oesterle