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Sorry , I really didn't mean to "vanish" without answering your question, and I had not really vanished, people always find me when they want me or need me I have noticed.

I came into the world with rose coloured corneas amidst an aroma of heady roses and honeysuckle, this answers your question about sunshine.   I think I can safely melt away again. 

Why do you block me out then?  Have I offended you?  I can't even rightly remember who you are, except that you are the one with the beautiful pictures and meltingly sad words, with a name that is not this one.  I should have paid more attention.  But, altho I may find it, I fear you would have blocked that name as well, for some strange reason.  Is it that you wish to speak but no one to comment; just to let your feelings out?  If so, I will shut up my feelings inside of me forever, if I may but get a glimpse inside one more time.

...it's always a pleasure to meet another who has 'done the work'...nice to meet you, Bonnie...

Thank you, and the pleasure is all mine.  What is your name, please?

Harmony....my name is Harmony

I love it!  And it is unique and unforgettable...so harmony it is... 

 

Would you like to tell me a bit about yourself, such as your age, and so on...whatever you find interesting to tell....just say if you don't want to...otherwise, I will just learn some about you in your blogs....

 

But you seem young, since you have a professor...but many girls go back later in life....as I did...I graduated with a two year diploma in medical office technology in 2003.

Bonnie, If you have worked little to none in the past 10 years then just tell the employers you were a homemaker and stay at home mom.  That should be sufficient enough!  Good luck!  Fear is what holds me back too. I really have to push myself. ((((((((((((((((Bonnie))))))))))))))))

Thank you dear.  I just come from such a strict church background that it makes you feel guilty if you tell any kind of a lie, and my husband expects me to put down all i did and all that....but I did lie a bit on one and told the truth on the other, but did not put any phone numbers.  It is across the country and if they wish to call, they can look up the numbers for themselves.  I am so sick of the whole business.  I think it is the church background that has really screwed me up in so many ways.  I always felt suffocated.  It is only now, after I have "rebelled" as far as the church is concerned, or made up my own mind about some things, that I am at last  coming to grips with what I want, because it is the right thing for me...and not because I am forced.

 

Thank you for your concern and hugs.  I will keep you informed, dear Peachy!

Sounds like you just about have it figured out. Good for you! It is very liberating to be able to rebell. Glad you are doing what is right for you! Hugs, Peachy

Hey Bonnie,

Have you started your online job yet? I'm ready to hear all about it. Hope things are going well for you. I'm tired and brain dead from this new job of mine. I am liking what I do, but there is so mucht to do and such a short time to do it in. Hope to hear from you soon. Have a beautiful weekend. Hugs, Peachy

Getting into a new job is like that; one is not used to the rigorous routine and it takes a while for your body, and your senses to get used to it.  I am glad you like it tho; I wish you all the best in it.

 

And guess what? I keep threatening to get to it and I have not...I know thise is just an excuse, but I really have been doing an overhaul of the apartment, and I promise to get to it, and tell you about it when I do.  I had to apply for jobs the other day, and it was the most scary thing I have done in ages, as I have not had a good work history and hate to have to put it down.   People do not know that all that is in the past and was because of my Bipolar State.  They only know when they get bad references, what they seek to know, so it is like someone coming out of jail, and  even after serving their time, they are still doomed to keep living it over forever in the minds and actions of the people. 

 

The people wanted my work history for the past ten years!  I almost had a nvervous breakdown, so I do hope I can make enough money online to stay at home.  All he is asking is that I make two hundred a week, to help with my own meds and a few groceries....and he says I can quit when he no longer has to give help to the kids every month. 

 

So that is where I stand; I have not forgotten.  I just have to push myself.  I guess fear holds me back....but I am now giving my word that I am going to get with it on Monday if I have not done so sooner.

 

Thanks for asking about me; I am happy that you are concerned, and I continue to wish you the best with both of your jobs...is the onilne one making money for you?

Hey girl,

Haven't heard from you in forever. Just thought I would drop you a line to tell you that I love you and wish you a very happy, healthy, joyess New Year. Whatever you do wherever you go keep in touch. Just remember we are not just friends...but sisters...

Take care of your self and know that there is no place like home when you need someone to chat to...

Have a good one, talk later.

Ousus Darlene

I am sorry, as usual.  I started to reply to your email and did not finish, and then never got up the fortitude to get back to it.  It seems that all I do is read on here anymore altho I wish more than anything to be able to creatively write again.

 

But let me answer one of the questions I know you asked in the email.  Yes, we are going to Utah at the end of the month of Jan, into a two bedroomed apartment, since our house is not yet sold.  The kids will keep living in our house for the meantime, and altho we have money for the downpayment on a house up there, we do not have enought for the running expenses of two houses on a month to month basis, and the kids can definitely do their side of it either, so we have to pay for this and the apartment.

 

Just pray that I get some kind of good job that I can handle and that will help Lawrence at least with my own meds and needs, as well as the food.  That will already take a big burden off of him.  We are living in Brigham city, which is a matter of a very few mins away from his job, so the gas we use will mainly be spent on going to church thirty mins away.

 

I wanted to go and visit with Barbara and Marcus, but I have been sick with coughing and sneezing and the whole nine yards for over a week now, and altho I have now got antibiotics, it has not yet kicked in and I am still miserable.  I have also eaten so much over the holidays and my sugar has gone so high that I have a splitting headache all the time.  Tomorrow is the start of the New year and I have no more excuses.  I am going to try my best to get back on and stay back on my diet.  I want to get the weight off and keep it off as well, as it will make me feel so much better as well as being healthy.

 

I thank you once again that you have always been here for me.  I know it is I who am the negligent one and who owes you so much.  You were there when I needed you most and I will not forget that easily.  I hope you and Janie have the best year ever; who knows but that it may usher in the coming of the Lord? 

 

I love and appreciate you

Your sissie

Bonniegirl.