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It seems like it was yesterday. Does it feel like it was yesterday or does it feel like a different lifetime?

I almost feel guilty that James and I are still together and happy. You'd never have let things get so bad with shitfuck or let anything happen to jeopardize the relationship, yet you're the one who isn't married. Duh duh duh life isn't fair, blah blah I know I know, but that doesn't mean we have to like it. I think about you a lot when I get mad at James, and I try and put things into perspective: which is worse, having him do this stupid-ass shit, or being alone somewhere wishing he was there to do his stupid-ass shit? At least we'd be together when he does his stupid-ass shit. Did I ever tell you that's why I got the tattoo on my chest?

Both.  It depends on the particular moment, and what I'm thinking about.  I mean, I can close my eyes and see his face like it was just yesterday that I looked at it, but if I think about how long it's been since I actually have seen it, it feels like a different lifetime.

Don't you dare feel guilty for being happy.  It was awhile ago that I came to the conclusion that just because things are meant to be, doesn't mean they will be.

There. Are. No. Words.

I really need your help with something. It's about my last post. (I edited it, btw.) I need to ask you if I did the right thing about something. I know you know about enabling, and when to keep quiet and when to blab. If I did something wrong, I need to make it right. I'll tell you more if we can talk a bit about this privately. It's something only you can understand.

If you mean the karaoke post, based on what you wrote there, you ABSOLUTELY did the right thing in making the phone call.  Is that what you meant?  Or is there more details that you think might change my opinion?

I'm actually heading out to work in about half an hour, so if you get this before then, feel free to send an email.  Otherwise, I'll check when I get home from work, but I barely got any sleep last night and I'm exhausted.  You'll get a reply, but it may be short.

That was what I meant, yes, in part. The phone call was the major thing. The other thing is..this other thing. I'll wait until we can really talk, because there's other stuff along with this that I want to talk about....as well as clarify. Just carve out a little slot for me when you can! I'll gladly wait for you.

will do... tomorrow

Son. Ofabitch. Look at these colors! Have MERCY!



This next one made me think of you.

*comes*

Love them both.  That 'hawk is fucking fantastic!!

By the way, when I got my hair cut she didn't do much to my bangs, except in keeping with the uneven look I asked for, she cut one chunk short.  I decided I didn't like the rest long, so I whacked them all to match the one chunk - currently just a little longer than THIS.  Now I keep wanting to cut them shorter and shorter.  I don't think I'm going to be happy until I'm bald!

I know you'll love this as much as I do. I kept forgetting to send this link to you. Because I am a shitass. 

Fucking.  Love.  It.

I looked at it for about five seconds before work today and don't really have the energy to right now, but just the fact that they have a section for white/silver means it has my approval.  I always wanted to do gray/silver when I was in high school, but I could never find it at the time.  I can't wait to look through this more.