Yuck @ MindSay

using the girl's bathroom at school.

I guess there are a few reasons, but I want to start by saying it is NOT because I am secretly a boy (eddiec, I know you've had a bad dream about this lately, and I just wanted to let you know it isn't THAT).

The first reason is, it's okay before and after school, when there aren't kids, but when school is in session... I don't wanna pee with a 2nd grader next to me (damn grown-up bathrooms being so damn far away!).  You know?  That's weird.  As a grown-up, it's weird for me, and also, I don't EVER want to be accused of doing ANYTHING not-appropriate. 

The second reason is...and it's not just this school, but apparently all schools... kids no longer know how to flush.  Parents aren't teaching this skill. Everyday, without fail, if I got into the multi-stalled bathroom, I will get the privilege of seeing the remnants of someone else's bathroom time.  9 times outta 10 just yellow, but... not delicious either way.

Which brings me to my next 'weirds me out' part:  A LOT of the time, there's pee in the toilet, but no toilet PAPER.  In a toilet designed exclusively for girls.   Are they not even doing that part?  shudders

Now that I've found the 'adults only' bathroom that has a heater... this will be a non-issue because why go ANYwhere else?, but....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew!

On why we do not keep similar-looking bottles next to each other.

On one of the horizontal surfaces in my room, I have a clear waterbottle, isopropyl, and my body spray. Not necessarily in that order. This is also where I have a few meds.

Over on my nightstand, I have my glasses. I usually don't like to toss in my contacts until after my shower, because I've had enough experiences with What Happens When Shampoo Gets Trapped Behind a Lens. Goes under both, "Not Fun," and "Inadvisable." So, for the peaceful mornings I inhabit, I get around my room just dandy based on colors and the sorts of shadows that are cast. I'm nearsighted. Lines mean next-to-nothing. Contrast means everything.

Thanks to CareBear (another Camp staff member), I no longer will swallow pills without water. Even if they're chewable - gotta have water afterward. It's just conditioned.

Fortunately, isopropyl has a distinctly different scent than water - I realized my mistake before it occurred.

the holidays make me feel even more fat... and not just the food part.  People give me clothing that is too large and it hurts.  I mean honestly do I look that big to you?  I hope not.  I feel so disgusting inside and out.  I have been thinking lately about my odd habits.  I used to (and I still do often) discount my unusual behavior as normal. 
Examples: 

    *I'm just picky
    *I don't purge every day (and then I did so it became...)
    *I don't purge more than once a day (but then I did...)
    *I don't purge everything I eat
    *I'm not really purging just um... rinsing my stomach
    *I'm not starving myself!  I just can't eat too much because it makes me want to purge!
The stomach rinsing is probably the oddest thing right?  Basically that is when I drink a lot of water and then vomit and repeat the process till I get only water followed by bile and of course streaks of blood from my throat.  Disgusting no?  It is... satisfying though.   I can't say it exactly feels good but there is an awesome sense of relief involved. 

I really don't want to lose my hair.  I'm not anywhere near a weight that would cause that to happen... but I haven't stopped this shit despite health complications more serious than hair loss so I don't know.  Am I going to stop?  Well so far I'm just taking vitamins and supplements.  To be honest though one of the pills is supposed to speed my metabolism and another is a stimulant to give me energy.  Should I just sleep more and eat better?  Yes.  Will I?  No probably not. 

Sometimes, being a vegetarian is bad for the belly.

*Urp*

Yeesh, talk about your super supreme suck-tastic days. :(

*pops a couple Advil*

ETA: Okay, a few good things to contrast:

1. Turning the heat off for the night because it's in the low-'60s. At night. In February. In Pennsylvania.

2. Ron Hextall being inducted into the Flyers Hall of Fame. Congrats Hexie! Man this takes me back... Hextall was the Flyers' goalie during my middle school/early high school years, when my three closest girlfriends and I were OBSESSED with the Flyers and hockey in general. Besides Lindros and LeClair, Hexie was one of my favorite players. Great times.

3. Fuzzy kitties.


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