Why is it that I am, but am not involved in a couple different relationships right now . . . I mean with steve, well thats obvious, but then im kind of a pawn in 2 other relationships that went askew . . . I'm trying my best to understand and sympathize with all because they're all the same situation that I went through . . . I've learned . . . as amazing as this sounds and as unbelieveable as it may be, i am starting to move on . . . it still hurts a hell of a lot, and i still cry all the time, but ive realized its not the end of the world . . . well for the time being anyways . . . i havent cut myself for 2 weeks . . . still have the scars but even they're fading . . . i never wish this feeling upon anyone . . . it is the worst feeling in the world and shouldn't even be able to be felt . . . well . . . now im just rambling, and i have a bunch of homework i should be doing . . . so im gunna head out . . . maybe more tomorrow . . .

G'night

I've been following u for as long as that blog has existed.

The CIA has launched a task force to assess the impact of the exposure of thousands of U.S. diplomatic cables and military files by WikiLeaks. 

Officially, the panel is called the WikiLeaks Task Force. But at CIA headquarters, it's mainly known by its all-too-apt acronym: W.T.F.

The irreverence is perhaps understandable for an agency that has been relatively unscathed by WikiLeaks. Only a handful of CIA files have surfaced on the WikiLeaks Web site, and records from other agencies posted online reveal remarkably little about CIA employees or operations.

Even so, CIA officials said the agency is conducting an extensive inventory of the classified information that is routinely distributed on a dozen or more networks that connect agency employees around the world.

And the task force is focused on the immediate impact of the recently released files. One issue is whether the agency's ability to recruit informants could be damaged by declining confidence in the U.S. government's ability to keep secrets.

"The director asked the task force to examine whether the latest release of WikiLeaks documents might affect the agency's foreign relationships or operations," CIA spokesman George Little said. The panel is being led by the CIA's Counterintelligence Center but has more than two dozen members from departments across the agency.

To some agency veterans, WikiLeaks has vindicated the CIA's long-standing aversion to sharing secrets with other government agencies, a posture criticized after it was identified as contributing to the nation's failure to prevent the attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.

Even while moving to share more information, the agency "has not capitulated to this business of making everything available to outsiders," said a former high-ranking CIA official who recently retired. "They don't even make everything available to insiders. And by and large the system has worked."

As recently as two years ago, the agency rejected a request to make more of its intelligence reports available on the SIPRNET, the classified network used by the Pentagon to pass information around the world.

"We simply said we weren't going to do it," another former CIA official said. "The consensus was there were simply too many people potentially who had access."

The former officials spoke on condition of anonymity because they weren't authorized to discuss agency security measures.

Among those people with access to SIPRNET was a low-level U.S. Army intelligence analyst, Bradley E. Manning, who has been charged with disclosing classified information and is suspected of using a simple thumb drive to steal the files that were sent to WikiLeaks.

The CIA has had its own computer scandals. Security clearances for former CIA director John Deutch were suspended in the late 1990s after he was accused of keeping classified information on his computer at home.

Officials said the agency also has had difficulty keeping track of laptops sent to overseas stations, as well as sensitive information shared with thousands of contractors.

The agency employs software measures to minimize the chance of a WikiLeaks-like leak. Agency systems send warnings to administrators whenever a large amount of data is downloaded. And most of the CIA's computers are not equipped to allow the use of a removable drive.

Asked what might happen if he had inserted a thumb drive into the machine at his desk, the former senior CIA official quipped: "There would probably be a little trap door under my chair."

Even so, CIA security experts have fretted for years about the implications of moving secret information from pieces of paper to digital files that can be distributed online.

"It's just a huge vulnerability," the former high-ranking CIA officer said. "Nobody could carry out enough paper to do what WikiLeaks has done."

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2010/12/21/AR2010122105498.html

EVEN BUSTER REPS HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD<3


And look, this shirt doesn't have to be slutty:


Tall shoes<3


lol Kristin wanted a new facebook picture haha


after coming home from lunch at Zim Zari<333


motherfucking badasses


kisses<3

profile pic:


Okay, this was at the show Thursday night . . . I picked up Homeboy and I drove to Ybor, and we had DeVito meet us there . . . so from L-R, these next four pictures go Homeboy, DeVito, and Me:

Take One:


Take two because I hadn't realized the flash was off lmfao


Take three because I'm short and cut DeVito off haha oops


Take four because HB is a douche wtf lol


So the Ritz sometimes has really shitty lighting for pictures at shows and if you're not a the right angle and you don't fuck around with your camera settings, all your pictures suck. So here's my sucky pictures from the AP Tour . . .

Bring Me the Horizon:








August Burns Red <333:












And then I camwhored after the show when I got home:


flashy flash

First I would like to say that MY HEART SILLY BAND IS MISSING AND I AM FREAKING OUT. Lance gave it to me MONTHS ago and I have never taken it off my left wrist. I have no idea where it went. It's like my fucking security blanket and I am stressing stressing stressing. I took the three off from my other wrist so we can all mourn this loss together :(

Secondly I would like to say that the funniest thing about my camwhoring posts is probably the fact that you guys could have scavenger hunts with all the random shit you see in my room haha

so two Fridays ago I woke up in an amazing mood (have not been in a mood this good since, unfortunately, but I blame the cold weather and seasonal depression) and an amazing mood obviously equals SEXIN' IT UP

(and grr faces)


remember these shoes?!  <333




And I know you guys had seen my Halloween outfit already but on the actual day/night of Halloween I was at work so I modified my outfit a bit and wore it there :


yeah by "modified a bit" I meant I cut up an old 'ria shirt and pinned the logo to my cuter, more form fitting shirt ;)

anchors on the back of my flatssssss






And then this was after Election Day ;)


and this is to show how I still coordinate even when I forced to wear my Mamma Mia shirts


And then this was FREE WEEZY DAY


And then the world went cold and FML




I feel like I look like my room has defeated me in this picture.



HEY GUISE MY NAILS MY NAILS


alkfjhdkjafksj fugh where the fuck is this heart band I am not fucking kidding omg omg omg omg omg omg

it had to have come off in my sleep I guess, unless I deliriously flushed it down the toilet or something asl;kfja;lksfjalk;sfja;ksldjf;alksfj;kasjfd;lkafj;lksajfakl;sfja;lksfj;kfjf  I CAN'T FIND IT I KEEP LOOKING  :( :( :(