Where Did You Go @ MindSay 
I realize I've been very much not here lately, and I haven't had anything profound to say. But you know, I notice my recent visitors list, and I know that plenty of you are coming to read. I try to only post when I have something to say that is worth reading, or will get some kind of feedback from the people. Lately my few entries have been that, in my opinion.
So I fail to see why hardly anybody is saying anything.
I understand not having anything to say, but Jesus, people, nobody even laughed at the random quotes. I mean, come the fuck on. I live for this shit, all right?
I feel there's no point in me posting anything if nobody has anything to say. Cuz I'm not using this as a diary-thing. I like my audience. I don't hold any grudges against anybody, but if I don't have an audience, then I may as well be talking to myself. I do that plenty enough in real life, and it just seems kinda redundant to do it online as well.
So yeah. If you're not interested in what I have to say, don't come. I'll be dissappointed, but I'm no more obligated to read/comment on yours than you are to read/comment on mine. I can't force you to respond to my ramblings any more than I can force you to read them. So if you're not interested, you are free to go on your merry little way.
Let me make something very clear: I don't feel like you should have to comment to every God damn thing I post on here. It's just lately in my scattered postings, I've noticed plenty of people that come to read after I've posted something, but then they leave and don't comment, though they continue to come back. I'm not talking about random visitors, I'm talking about people I've had in my network for a long fricking time -- people I considered some of my "loyal fans", if you will. They were always the ones to respond to my stuff, and now they're just reading and leaving. And that's kinda aggravating, considering how bad I've felt about not posting anything for you guys in the last few months.
Forgive me if I sound bitchy. Quite frankly, I feel bitchy. So it makes sense if I sound as such.
I'm not turning into one of those people who whines for people to comment on their stuff. I just want my damn audience back, otherwise I'll just go on not posting as before. I'll take my five die-hard fans and just leave the rest.
I reiterate: I'm not mad at you, whoever "you" happens to be. I'm frustrated at the lack of feedback in general.
I'm going back to sleep.
TheFallenAngel
This time of the night/morning always make me lonely... I really should do stuff to keep myself busy instead of thinking. The house is always soo quiet even if I have music blasting its easy to feel all alone. I like my alone time but sometimes you dont want to be alone. I do need to pack more.
The other night I was out with iverness63 we were going to Beloit to the SuperWalmart since it was the only store really open. On our way there two strange things happened but at lot of little smaller interesting stuff too. I will let you know the most prominent ones. I was sorta lost in the thought looking out at the trains when this smell filled the car but it was mostly on my side of the car. I leaned into my boyfriend Josh to see the smell was from some candy he was eating and it wasnt. You see the smell was of those cigars that have the scent of cherry in them.... the kind my grandpa smoked. It was a smell that I always loved even though I hate the smell of smoke. It was soo strong!! Pretty strange huh! Mustve been granpa saying hi because thats usually what I smell whenever he "visited" me before.
The second one was much more strange.... and I wasnt the only one who saw it. We got into Beloit and there were alot of houses around but still not quite as condensed as parts of Beloit are. I was watching the road because animals were out all night and the leaves blowing in the wind easily trick the mind. :P Thats when I saw the strangest thing... at first it was faint but dark enough to make out... I thought it was an animal until I saw exactly what it was. They were feet!! The feet started walking across the road in a long stride... only dark shoes could be seen. I was like "LOOK DO YOU SEE THEM!!" Josh almost stopped the car cause he thought I was pointing out an animal... then he saw them as they dissapeared as they got across the road. We were soo close to even "hitting" them as we drove on. So strange... I wanted to make sure I was imagining it! Whats even more odd is that this is the second time Ive seen "someone" crossing a road. Here I thought it would be a once in a lifetime thing. *scratches head*
There sure has been alot of activity. Tonight even there have been those "zippies" and shiny ones that show up in the house. Recently, I think either today or last night a little girl was humming. Its never really a dull moment when they want to show up.
Im crazy... or not. You decide and so I leave you with a song....
Jem- Missing You
I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Don't think I ever believed that
this day would come
Now all I'm feeling
is lost and numb
And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I would try
But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
I'll always be thankful
for the time we had
We were blessed
I should celebrate
but I feel too sad
All the wonderful memories
just make me fall apart
And it feels like somebody's
stabbed me in my heart
And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I wouldn't cry
But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side
Walking, holding hands
Talking, making plans
Touching my heart my soul
I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Tell me it's not happening
Say it's not as it seems
Tell me that I'm gonna wake up
It's just a bad dream
Please tell me that it's fiction
Tell me it's just a lie
Whatever you choose to tell me
Please say he didn't die
And I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side
Ooh well I, miss you
want you by my side
Back here by my side
Here by my side