Want @ MindSay

Is there anyone out there?

You can probably see I'm really struggling with words now... I just can't explain. This is about when I was at my dad's lying in bed and I thought about my old friends, etc how I miss a certain one and just cried my eyes out. I tried to rub the tears away and I wanted to hurt myself, and just make evrything go away but all I could do was stay paralysed in bed like I was about to explode...My entire body froze and i was tense and couldnt move with tears just gliding....

 

Feeling You Let Go

 

With writing as my last resort

To you, be this, my last report

status: damaged

heart: broken

mind: removed

 

I lie in bed

my head explodes

paralysed, frozen inside out

force keeps me, like a statue

binded by stone

I think of you and my heart

stops.

It can't beat

You've stopped it.

Heavy breathing

scares me

Who will hear?

No one, I hope

My wrist burns

my memories imply

"give in to him"

 

I am but stuck

like an icicle

holding on, barely grasping

falls to stab me

I stab me

I want to bleed for you

 

I melt in tears

I am a puddle on the floor

And you step on me

 

Tears splattered everywhere

rub them

make them go away

make me go away

I'm not here!

I'm not real!

You're not real!

none of this is real!

 

I live in a fake world

with a fake mind

and a fake heart

 

so let's pretend

you're still here

I'm here

We're here

And we never let go

 

Until I return to reality

nothing I can do

but watch you leave

and feel you letting go...

The average Walmart shopper usually go into the store and make the necessary purchases without noticing any of the natural surroundings of that store.  A natural surrounding can be that high school cheerleading squad doing a fundraiser gig with their Krispy Kreme Donuts, a tantrum filled 3 year old who is set on trying out his new Taekwondo techniques on his frustrated mother, or the forever faithful Walmart Greeter who is set on giving you that shopping cart even if means running over your heals with it.  As of now I would like to concentrate on the latter, I consider myself to be a slightly above average individual and maybe that is why on my trips to Walmart I always notice that Walmart Greeter more so than the average hurried shopper.  I have a great job; although the politics of it is currently giving me the urge to run for my life and apply for that Walmart Greeter position that everyone tends to shun.  I do not know how the future is going to visit me but in the mean time I will consider my options and if and when I decide to become a Walmart Greeter----- please notice me.

 

 

You know why I love you?
Well let me explain,
For love you I do
Just all the same.

You are kind and unique,
Your wit light on it's feet.
Generous and true
You see all things thru.

Your eyes are like tinders
Aflame like sunrise.
Your mouth filled with sweetness,
But soft with love's cries.

I love you this way,
You make my heart glad.
There's naught I would change;
I'll never be sad.

I fill with wonder
Hearing now my name
Flow soft off your lips,
Pondering love's game.

You fill my desire.
You are my adored.
I couldn't feel higher,
Swing! Hit! and love's scored!

Sweet is the sight
Of her room
Window opened by candlelight
How would you know
Cold winter on the shore
Chills the dress she wore
It's on the floor
Still it feels so warm today

And that's why I'm wondering why
You had to tell me
What's going on in your head
What's wrong
Come around to another time when you
Don't have to run

And when she said she wants somebody else
I hope you know that's she doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and makes a sound
You'll never hear her the way that I do
And when she says she wants someone to love
I hope you know that she doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and lets you down
I hope you know that she doesn't mean to

Swing into flight
Over hills.
Over her hills, it's twilight
I guess that's right now
While we're here
Tell me why it's so funny
That you're so funny
When you're mad
Always so mad. So mad

And that's why I'm wondering why
You had to tell me
What's going on in your head
What's wrong
Come around to another time when you
Don't have to run


Well, I don't know we're going to
and I don't know what means to me
and you don't know what means to you

And she says she wants somebody else
I hope you know
She doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and
makes a sound
You'll never hear her the way that I do
And when she says she wants someone to love
I hope you know
She doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and lets you down I hope you know that she...

No
Over now, over now...