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Sunday Stuffz
Despite having no major events happen today that would normally have upset me, the mood from last week carried on over. I felt okay yesterday because I had company - but today I had no distractions, other than my PS2.
I took it along again with me and spent most of the day playing Guitar Hero II and Parappa The Rapper 2. Some of the levels are going to be ridicuously hard to get COOL ranking.
I went over to Costcutters with grandad to buy horseradish sauce and instant mashed potatoes. I said to nana I'd have gone by myself, but grandad was insistent that he came too.
There was a mob of baby chavs outside, setting up "penny for the guy" dolls. It's fucking October!
"Penny for Halloween" would make more sense, but even so - they're just dirty scrounging fuckers.
There was more polony sausage for tea today. Nana hasn't got any for a while. It was so yum. :)
And she'd made fairy cakes and lemon sponge cake - boy was it fucking nectar. :D
Oooh, and she's gotten an e-mail from Play.com - apparently Abigail II: The Revenge has been shipped and I should be getting it pretty soon. Excited like. :D
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Park Malarkey
I did something silly today.
I turned off both my phone and clock radio and put them on snooze - only to have them totally NOT work at all.
So I wake up and notice the clock says half 8.
I thought it was wrong at first, then I realised I'd missed the college bus.
So dad took me to college instead.
I wore my shorts again.
Even though they look ridiculous on me - I like them.
They're comfortable, they keep my legs cool and the pockets are MASSIVE.
I can fit my phone, my iPod, my keys, my money, my ID card and a shitload of pens in there - and STILL have space for more shit.
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I talked over yesterday with Dianne.
I really went into depth about some of it.
She didn't seem surprised when I told her that Shelly and I are now an item.
I did feel a lot lighter after I left the counselling room.
I'd gotten a lot of things out.
I put on my "going-down-the-stairs" song - Broken Glass, by King Diamond - followed the purpose of the song and went and sat on the ground floor.
Shelly was waiting there, so I sat with her until her A block lesson.
Ashleigh appeared - followed by Kayley and Lewis.
Kayley had a Snickers - which caused a moment of mass hilarity. Ash was sat there with the "I-am-SO-not-fucking-amused" face, while the rest of us just pissed.
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Shelly came down early from her A block lesson.
I was sat on the bendy benches - having been forcably removed from MY TABLE by the spacker crew.
Those bastards - the least they could fucking do is ASK if they could sit there - or at least their CARERS could. I was there FIRST.
Just because I'm sat alone, that's no reason to come and SURROUND me.
I was fucking writing a TDW script as well - having to cut my ideas short and move away from the fuckers.
Shelly and I went up to the art rooms - wanting to borrow a camera for our "individual project".
Paul was sat at a computer with Ash. We were then told that the college cameras had been stolen - so the project was cancelled.
We waited outside beside the lift for Ash to finish.
I played "Little Becky" (this random prank phone call that David sent to me via bluetooth) - and she pissed at it.
(I later sent her it by bluetooth when we were in the park.)
We'd been told that Photography was cancelled - so we were in no rush when we went into town.
I got an epic sandwich and some shite from B&M.
We ate on the green benches. We were sat there for AGES - another mint weather day.
When we walked back to college, we walked past the Dinky Dougnuts van.
They make candy floss, and the air on that street TASTED LIKE SUGAR.
Shelly and I were getting hyper from breathing the air. :)
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After we'd got back to college - we were sat on the benches by the town entrance.
We'd only been sat there about 20 minutes before we decided we wanted to go and sit outside.
I didn't fancy the idea of sitting around on the concrete paths around college - so I suggested we go back into town and sit on the grass in Victoria Park.
We sat on the grassy verge infront of the Mima art gallery.
That's the only part of the park that has shade. So we sat there for a while - and when we started to get chilly, we simply budged along into the sunlight.
Ash got out of her wheelchair and sat on the grass with us. I used her chair as an effective backrest.
That's when I wasn't laid on the grass, that is.
I asked Shelly to take some photos of us - we ended up taking quite a lot.
Her phone camera comes in very handy. :)
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Mine and Ash's shoes. :)
Ash and myself. :)
Ash is proper like: "PWHOAR, COME ON THEN."
It's rare we take a photo with Ash in the middle - it's usually me.
Lmao, the sunlight is proper strong.
This one's my current PC background.
All photos of Ash and Shelly are in that exact pose - Ash is the one closer to the lens.
Their expressions are always almost identical to that too.
They look sweet. :)
A random and accidental photo that Shelly took of the Bottle of Notes and the buildings behind it.
Lmao, you'd never think that was Middlesbrough.
This is one of my favourite photos of Shelly and I. :D
Lmao, it's the EMO ANGLE.
A big shitload of PALE ARM. :)
Lmao, we all look so windswept.
This is a mint photo of us - one where I look semi-decent.
Ash had to go and make it funky by being overly CHEESY.
Rofl, Ash's body looks so floppy. She looks like a puppet. :)
ROFL, THESE BE MY HOES.
Lmao, how satisfied do I look.
A kiss on each side. Ahhh. *Melts in lust*
THREESOME! :D
Shelly looks so bloody drunk.
Ash and I are rather chilled. :)
This one could run as one of the best photos of the three of us. :D
Cue our RANDOM PHOTO:
Shelly wanted to take a photo of Ash's butterfly - so I suggested she pull the "RWAR-I-HAS-A-HARDCORE-CHEST-TATTOO" face.
So she did. :)
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Shelly and Ash went back to college around the time Ash's taxi and Shelly's dad were due.
I made my way to the bus station.
Once home, I tidied up my room a bit.
It's been an absolute BOMB SITE for days.
Shelly sent me those photos.
We had a big ramble on together about which were the best.
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Mam, dad and I all ventured off to Hemmo.
We needed to see if Ash's wheelchair would fit in the boot of mam's car.
I didn't think it would - but with some clever wheel arranging - it fitted.
It looks proper strange. :)
All seems set for Saturday.
Mwah. :)
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Dixie currently feels:
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Blog #101
Warm Enough For Ice-Cream
I went into college early on the college bus.
I could have gotten a lift from dad - but I couldn't be arsed.
I was planning on doing some sketchbook work in the LRC (which I didn't do a single bit of...) - and I was wanting to meet up with Shelly, who was also coming in early.
I sat around in the LRC for a while, writing random shite on a piece of paper and listening to my iPod.
Shelly came up at around 9:30.
She sat with me, cuddled close to me, up until my Media Studies lesson.
She was sad when I had to leave.
I soon came back though - I was allowed to work in the LRC on my Media Studies revision booklet.
In effect, I didn't do any of that either.
Adam came up and sat with us too.
He was reading out my English coursework in a funny voice.
Then he covered half of the page with my style model and read out the half sentences.
"I SEEMED TO GAP." - we were pissing for ages.
Sarah is proper stressed, but she's pleased with me.
Only like 10 of the 40-od people who do Media Studies have finished their coursework completley.
Lewis, Ash and I did TRAILERS and we're finished!
I don't see why people didn't finish - the coursework was a pile of piss.
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We left Adam to his English coursework. Shelly and I walked into town.
It was really warm, so I took my jacket off. Apparently I'm naked without it - or so Shelly says.
I do feel a lot less comfortable if I'm not wearing it. It is my favourite piece of clothing, after all.
We bought drinks and crisps from B&M, I got a sandwich from Greedy Joe's and Shelly got a sausage roll from Greggs.
We sat in the shade on the green benches.
They're too cold to sit on in winter, but when it's getting warmer - they can be quite cooling upon one's buttocks.
We spent proper ages in town - over an hour.
We walked back to college to meet Ash before their A block lesson.
Ash was sat by herself on one of the blue square tables.
She was facing away from us, so I went up behind her, wrapped my arms around her neck and shoulders and chirped: "Aaassshleeeeigh!!!"
(I sound proper piss when I say that.)
Ash was surprised to see me - she was PROPER smiling.
I've never seen Ash smile so much when she's only talking to me.
...It was really strange. She actually seemed REALLY happy to see me.
We had a random conversation about freezing things.
Ashleigh is obsessed with freezers, so it seems.
We also discussed Mentos and Diet Coke.
We've planned to make a video of us experimenting with them one Saturday in the near future.
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Ash and Shelly went to A block - I gave them big hugs before I left.
I went upstairs and handed the printed copies of my English coursework to Mary.
I'm quite relieved now - all I have left to do is my sketchbook. I have until Friday to do that.
I walked to the bus station and got the bus back home.
I'd been thinking about wearing shorts tomorrow - it was THAT sticky and uncomfortably warm on the bus.
When I got in, I changed my clothes for a thin shirt and boxer shorts.
I got the remainder of the Coca-Cola and vegged out on Resident Evil 4 for about 3 hours.
I've been playing the shooting range.
I KICK ARSE.
I only have the back row of bottletops to collect now. I'm getting shitloads of money for it too.
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When mam came home - she came upstairs and asked if I wanted to come out for an ice-cream with her and David.
It sounded proper fake - like one of those cheesy sitcoms/cartoons where they use it as a ploy.
So I got dressed, turned off my precious Ashley-hunting and went downstairs.
We ended up going for a walk at Great Ayton.
There's a sweet shop there that sells ice-cream they make themselves.
We all got 99' cones and went for a walk through this random countryside trail.
There was fuck all at the end of it - and it ended pretty quickly, so we weren't walking for long.
When we were walking - she asked me if Ashleigh would want to come out with her and dad on Saturday.
This raised many-a-complications.
I wanted to spend a day with Ashleigh - but didn't want to leave Shelly out.
I'd also wanted to go to Ash's bungalow this Saturday coming.
So she put me in a deep trance of thought for quite a while.
After another little drive - we went to Saltburn.
I wanted a hotdog, but nowhere was open that sold them.
So I got a can of POLISH COKE instead.
Mam and David got fish and chips and we went for a walk on the pier.
People were writing messages in the sand.
I wanted to, too... :(
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Then of course - on the way back - mam dragged us both to ASDA.
FINALLY, WE HAVE FOOD IN THE HOUSE.
I helped to bring it in - but I couldn't be arsed helping to unpack it all.
After I'd gone in the shower - I was on the phone to Shelly for a few hours.
I told her about what my mam had suggested for the weekend. I don't think she was very happy.
I can understand why she'd feel left-out and jealous though.
I feel really shitty about it - and it's not like I chose Ash over her - because I didn't HAVE a choice.
I haven't even asked Ash yet - I'm not sure of what she'll say...
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At around 12, I started getting pains in my belly.
I ended up with a slight tummyache - and after spending a while in the bathroom, I laid in bed, groaning every few seconds to shelly about how much my belly hurt me. :(
She comforted me and made me feel a little better.
So I decided today was TOO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL to be pent up inside doing homework. So I safety danced with my new onie and leashed up the pup for a walk. Plugged into my I pod on shuffle cuz I'm feeling random today, and the first fifteen mintues was a blissful mix of the perfect animal collective songs for the moment each moment each step. Twas wonderful! I couldn't help but boogie a little as I walked, pup felt the same way too.
We share different perspectives on the day today, my pup and I. He's a total winter dog and loves the cold weather, just straight up freaks out and won't stop running. I saw him today struttin his stuff in the last of the snow banks and as he scooped up a pile of snow to quench his thirst I saw a twinge of sadness as he dodged puddles that used to be snow piles. OH WELL CUZ ITS FREAKING SUNNY AND MELTING AND BLISSFULLY TURNING GREEN OUTSIDE!!!!
The beta band and some sublime and slightly stoopid allowed me to loose myself in the walk and I blinked and it had been two hours, I looked up and around and was surprised by the ground we'd covered. Lost in thought =) It was a much needed adventure. Saw some crumpled up money along the side walk by a bus stop, eh.. tempted but kept on walking, money.. who needs it =p Showed some little kids though that I passed along the way, so they can arrive home with a sugar high from the money they found haha... poor moms.
I'm really on a natural high today and it's splendid to feel like myself again, I'm really pumped about this job oppertunity that kind of fell into my lap lastnight, not going to say too much about it yet as to not get my hopes up.. but it would be a way to festival hop all summer and get .... PAID! -squeals-
alright alright i must stop, time for more outside. Going to cristen my new poi that I got for christmas =D
love!
Sometimes I think "It would be cute to have someone's hand to hold while I'm walking," but then I think about how holding someone's hand would probably slow me down.
I realized that this is probably a good analogy for how I view myself in relationships in general. Someone's always trapping me/ slowing me down.
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