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I didn't even want to see Shelly and Ashleigh today.
I told Shelly this last night, but she half-persuaded me to see them. She said if I was depressed and lonely, I'd only get worse. I did say to her that sometimes I lapse further even when I'm with people I like.

Although for the majority of the day, I've been wearing my mask - I've felt shit inside.
Shelly came at fucking nine in the morning - waking me and my mother up in the process. She laid in bed with me while I tried to wake up properly. She did try it on with me - but I was far from in the mood.
A few hours later she did persuade me, but I didn't enjoy it. It made me feel worse. I shouldn't ever let her when I feel that fucking shit.

Mam went off to ASDA, after she'd asked me to make her a list - but THIS was after she'd had a big fuck off go at me for barely anything. All I did was say that dad was a knob - which he fucking is, and she even agrees with me 99.99% of the fucking time - but nooo, the 0.01% of the time she doesn't agree with me was today - and she decided to have a rant at me about fucking nothing.
At the time, I was holding one of my zebra grip pens - the same ones I've used to cut myself in exams and when I punched Ash - by snapping off the metal clip, exposing the sharp join to the plastic - so on my way back upstairs, I did two vertical slices down my left arm.
I managed to keep my tears back - Shelly held me in her arms while I tried to calm down. I did write the list, but I didn't want to face the cunt again so I sent her down with it.

Ash came at half 12 and we played Guitar Hero 5.
Mam was gone for fucking hours, so we got to play on the drums without being ranted at. I managed to get a few diamond ranks on the challenges. Expert + is ever so fun.
Then we swapped to GH: Greatest Hits - Ash wanted to go on drums, so Shelly stayed on guitar and I went on vocals. We each picked two songs - Shelly picked Electric Eye and Bark At The Moon, Ash picked Heart-Shaped Box and Beast And The Harlot and I picked Caught In A Mosh and Play With Me - and only one of those six songs is of a moderate difficulty - the other five are all well high in the setlist.
I do know the majority of the songs on GH:GH though - and the ones I don't know, I could take a good guess at.

When mam came back, we expected her to have a rant at Ash - but instead, she came bearing the top hat that Mally had said he'd lend me for Spieluhr and a MUSIC BOX. :D
Well, it's a jewellery box, but it does have a winding key and a spinning figure inside. Well... It DID have - but it's broken off. The tripod inside does still spin - so using a piece of putty rubber, I've fixed the little cat off my old charm necklace to it - and it makes a pretty cool replacement.
The box made me feel all nostalgic though - I remembered playing with it when I was little. :/

Ash of course, just HAD to try on the top hat:



Shelly and I ate some hot dogs - Ash declined them, as she was set to be having a big meal when she went home.
We must've spent like an hour deciding on what we were going to do. Seriously, we ought to plan Saturdays in fucking advance, we must waste at least 1/6 of the day pondering what we're going to fucking do.
I showed Ash one of my ideas for an RCP video - via the screening of Sally's First Movie - a badly animated video I made when I was like 15. I was ever so surprised when both Ash and Shelly were amused by it.
Following this, I let them have the run of my condemned files on Mr. Maxtor - I let them watch some random videos of me at this tender age. Sigh. Shelly said I was cute. I fucking wasn't, I was the biggest cunt ever at 15.
I'm not a cunt now, I'm just a twat. I seem to have improved.

Eventually - we decided on Evil Dead: A Fistful Of Boomstick.
It was so cool - Shelly and I were cuddled up under my duvet and Ash was sat on the end of the bed. I'm glad they both don't mind watching me play games, for I am one of these people who enjoys being watched. Ash and I were in fits at the orgasmic secretary - the one who sounds proper pleasured every time she exclaims the character's name.

"OH ASH... SAY SOMETHING HEROIC!"

I've now finished off the second level and I've saved it around halfway through the third one.
Shelly fell asleep on me at one point - and I could only put up with her snoring for 10 minutes before we made her wake up.
Of course, I also felt obliged to show them both some hilarious FMV movies from Leisure Suit Larry. Shelly was more amused than Ash - but I think they were both generally disturbed by the Harriet X Twiggy scene. :)

Ash sodded off at seven, so Shelly and I got some time alone again.
Shelly loves me - she's done that what she said she hates doing - and I fucking love it. I can't wait till after Christmas, then I'll join her in doing it also.
For tea, I made us chicken fingers and spaghetti. I had a random craving for them so I put them on mam's shopping list. I ate my spaghetti cold with three slices of bread, Shelly's was warm and she had two slices.

At 9:20, I went downstairs with Shelly and watched I'm A Celebrity with mam and dad. Today's episode was fucking hilarious like. I didn't realise watching someone force down fish eyeballs and bork several times could be so damn funny. Mam took her home afterwards.

I wanted to fucking do our RCP introductory video today as well. They both fucking knew I did - but NOOOO...

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I had a rethink about The Overseer costume. I've had a brainwave.
Who else wears a top hat and a suit jacket? Instead of wearing sunglasses, why not wear corpse paint like King Diamond? :)



I actually do think it would look pretty mint. Shelly agreed with me when she rang me.
Why she fucking rang me, I don't know - has she not spent enough time with me today, Christ's sake. Can I not have a fucking moment of peace.

With that being said, it wasn't just Shelly being annoying - we had Adam, ranting ten to the dozen about Matty - and we all know I don't give two flying fucks about him - so I danced around the point, only answering the comments I wanted to. Adam didn't bother me that much though - he didn't fucking upset me like Lewis did.
Problem with him is though, he doesn't fucking realise when he's actually upsetting me. I NEVER want to fucking discuss university, UCAS or anything fucking related - so when he's on a fucking rant about it, I'm obviously not going to be happy about it.
Then the fucking arsehole has the nerve to tell me to grow up and he doesn't understand my problems. Well who the fuck cares? I don't want him to fucking understand - did I tell him to? Did I say I wanted him to? He doesn't fucking NEED TO. And when I'm answering someone with ONE WORD ANSWERS, that clearly fucking means I don't want to talk about whatever they're discussing.
And from fucking university to then talking about the bastard film sequence - WHICH HE KNOWS I don't want to assemble or even THINK about - so that got me even more upset.

I'm fucking lapsed out to fuck at the moment - I have been for the past few days, since around fucking Thursday. There's only one thing that can lift me from it, and it's not going to happen - so I'm soon to abandon all hopes of ever getting out of this one easily.

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I tried to blot out the haunting thoughts of what occured yesterday with lots of Pepsi, crisps and video games with no rest breaks. I finished off Canis Canem Edit last night - thus I went to sleep at about 4AM.
I did get the 100.00% completion though, so it's another game mastery marked on my Backloggery.

Today I was mainly playing Guitar Hero 5 and Guitar Hero: Greatest Hits. I was attemtping some of the dodgy challenges on GH5 and doing a few new songs that I've recently learnt on the vocals quickplay.
Naturally though, I couldn't blot out everything I was thinking.

Mam took me into the Coral shop she manages today to take some photos for my Addictions Photography project. I'd dabbled a little in the idea of video games addiction, but gambling addiction seemed just as promising.

Naturally, I was nervous about taking photos of strangers - the aspect of having to actually speak to them, but seeing as how they're all regulars to the shop, mam knows most of them by name - so she was there to do some of the asking for me. Which I was grateful for.

Here's a few that I got:

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As my drunken blog did state, today we took a trip to Ash's BUNGASLOW. :D
It's like a one-storey house that moves at 2 miles per hour. :)

Oh, I have to make that a tradition. Every time I come back from somewhere drunk, I need to try and document it. It's so funny reading them over and decoding them when you're sober again.

Tracey was reading them - which I didn't mind - but she was reading them out loud. Most of the time it was funny - just when she read lines like "I like pussy so that makes me a lesbian" - I was just like OMGSHUTUPREALLY. :/

Ash and I didn't think that Shelly would actually end up coming, because it did get to around half 1 and there was still no sign of her - even after attempting to ring her mobile - but she did end up coming, and with her, bearing a bag of cakes and stuff left over from last night's party.

We spent the majority of the day in Ash's room, mooching through my planned script ideas I'd brought along on my memory stick. I was even wearing my newly-transferred RCP logo T-shirt. :)

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My Halloween costume came in the post today. I just had to take it along with me to see what they all thought. Naturally, it lead to everyone trying on the mask and the headpiece. :)
It's an evil jester - a half-black, half black-and-white-chequered suit with a silly jester's hat, skull trims and a skull mask. It's sooooo epic. :D

And thankfully, due to the price of it - we're not going to just use it for Halloween - we're planning on using it for some of our future music videos. It ought to work well.

We told Tracey of our problem with obtaining a dress for Ash - in effect, I told her last night when I was drunk - and she's agreed to make one for us. A pink and white gingham one, by the sounds of things. :)
I just can't imagine Ash in a dress. Imagine it with pink and white striped socks too - oh my word. :)

We're proper making her paranoid, we're not telling her what we keep talking in code about. :)
Then Tracey put her hair in plaits - oh it was SOOOO cute. :D
Ash didn't seem amused about it like - but she's SO having her hair like that for the Spieluhr video. It would go so well.

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We played a combination of Guitar Hero 5, Guitar Hero: Greatest Hits and Guitar Hero: World Tour.
Alternation on vocals - we even got Ash to do a few - as a penalty for losing a pro-face-off against Shelly, of course. Ash's skill has really decreased lately...

We played my custom Saria's Song, and we got this really weird screenshot.
I was playing on Expert bass and I don't think I missed any, but look at the score. It says 128%!



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And a photo of me with two jelly shoes up my nose.
I made the "my nose is running" joke, naturally...



And a creepy yet oddly cute photo of Ash with some wacky red-eye. :D

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Today is my daddy's birthday. I wrote him a card and bought him an indie-rock compilation CD. It has bands like: The Fratellis, Kaiser Chiefs and Klaxons - bands that I know he likes to listen to when he's driving.
 
I've gotten sick of getting to the bus stop stupidly early and having to stand about - so I've set my alarm for 15 minutes later. It only takes me 5-10 minutes to get ready, if that, because I usually have everything laid out ready for me needing it the next day. My plan has worked, and today I was only stood about waiting for 5 minutes or so. It gives me a margin so I'm not waiting forever, and I have a low risk of missing it entirely. Mmmmyes, I am a logical and resourceful downright genius. :P
 
Media Studies today was a "coursework research" lesson.
In effect, for the entire thing I was just mooching around on Wikipedia for inspiration. I know WHAT I'm going to do, I just need a band to do it about. An essay either about a music video and how the conventions are used, or a big analysis of their song lyrics. My production will be a music video, if I do it well enough. If I end up fucking it up, I have a print option as a back-up plan.
 
Only problem is finding a damned band.
I want it to be one I like - Rammstein, King Diamond, Metallica, Silverstein - I'm going down that route. I just need them to have released an album in the last 3-5 years (and Rammstein is just starting to push that with 2005's Rosenrot, if next year 2010 counts) - whereas the music video looks like it can be made to a song of any year, it just needs to be 5 minutes or less, it can't be over.
That rules out Precious Jerusalem. Not that I'd know what the hell to do for the video like. :)
 
Metallica's lyrics are a bit dark... Rammstein's are really complex or about really obscure subjects... Silverstein's are all emo and suicidal... King Diamond is just downright fucked up... This looks like it shall be rather difficult...
 
(I seem to be saying "downright" a downright lot in this blog. :P)
 
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English was reasonable. It opened oddly - Angela sort of suggested I sit with Jack, and he's a fucking arse - so I just shook my head and said NO. It caused a weird reaction. :)
As a starter piece, Angela had us drawing GINGERBREAD MEN HOLDING BALLOONS.
Then we proceeded to write key words IN the balloons. I felt sad so I made my gingerbread man sad too. I drew him an icing sad face with a tear on his cheek.
It was an okay lesson, it just made me sad because we were thinking back to our childhood, the games we played and such. 5-6 were sad years for me. 5-15 as a whole were pretty wank, to be honest.
 
I met up with Shelly during the lunch break and I ate a bag of Mexican chilli McCoys and a big Aero bar. I felt really shitty so I was sat at the table tearing the Aero wrapper into tiny pieces. The caretaker gave me a weird look, but I assured him I'd dispose of it when I was finished.
Shelly could see I was sad, so she tried to cuddle me, but it didn't make me feel much better. We were discussing people and events that depress me, so it was obvious she couldn't.
I was proper thirsty too, because I'd forgotten my bottle of water.
 
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Photography pissed me right off.
First off we had Shelly suddenly getting in a pissy mood herself - but this was likely due to Paul being a right arsehole. Michelle said he's looking for any excuse to kick Shelly off the course. He was a twat to her last year as well, but he's even worse now. Apparently she distracts me - no, if anything, I distract myself. And I distract her more than she distracts me.
 
The whole lesson was a "peer marking" session. Seriously fucking shit. We all had our icons work up on the walls (mine was on the whiteboard because I hadn't printed it) and we had to basically wander around the classroom with sheets of paper, writing comments, constructive criticism and giving them marks out of 10.
 
I was quite reserved when I marked Michelle's - because I quite like her. But I don't know the others in the group, and they're sort of twats to me. Oh, and they're strangers - I'm very rude to strangers I've noticed.
So my critique of theirs was a bit more harsh. Roxy's was okay, pretty close to Michelle's - but I was really harsh with Johnny's. He deserved it though, the prick. He gave me 4/10.
 
AT LEAST YOU COULD TELL WHAT MY FUCKING IMAGES WERE OF!
 
I MAY HAVE USED THE SAME OBJECT TWICE, BUT AT LEAST MY ARRANGEMENT WASN'T WANK! EVERYONE EVEN TOLD YOU IT WAS WANK.
 
AT LEAST I VARIED IN COLOUR! IT WASN'T ALL BLACK AND BROWN.
 
Capital letters rant over. :)
 
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When I got home, I played Guitar Hero: World Tour.
I was mainly getting scores for the new free DLC I'd never played. No wonder they give these songs away for free - they're ALL shit!
The only two decent free ones are Grave Of Opportunity and Electro Rock.
 
Then I attempted to give Guitar Hero 5 another try.
OH, THERE'S HOPE FOR IT NOW. :)
 
Yes, the career has merged so it's one for all of the instruments, instead of 4 separate ones... BUT.
There's a new feature - instrument challenges!
 
Each song has a different one, so one would be drums while another is bass, vocals, guitar or whole band.
They're things like 'hit 200 snare beats' for drums, 'whammy sustains for 1 minute' for guitar and the best one that I proper OWNED: 'hit 300 notes using only UP STRUMS' for bass.
I did it on Expert too. :P
 
I'm going through the career mainly on Expert bass, getting the scores, then switching to the other instruments for the challenges. There's even gigs where you can choose your own song - including DLC.
So I chose Jessie's Girl on Expert lead and scored 100%. I had to hit as many chords as I could, but there wasn't enough in the actual song to get the diamond rank. I'll have to try it again with something more complex.
 
I also like the fact that 100% FC gets you SIX STARS.
100%s are optional, but they earn you more stars and they're ever so sexy. You also can't tell what instrument and level you've done the song on - so you could have gone through the entire thing on Beginner and nobody would know.
But I'm making it fun for myself with Expert bass. It is really easy though, compared to Greatest Hits.  
 
Yes, the quickplay is a bit wank - it only shows one score instead of 5 for all the separate levels. The interface is still a bit shitty - and you can't give custom characters fucking beards!
I've been wondering for ages now why Ashley Darwin and Dudley Boone look so fucked - it's because they have BALD FACES.
I have my four custom characters set up as the band on-screen. They look so sexy together. I don't think I've ever seen it before. :)

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Summer Accomplishments:

- Completed Resident Evil: Code Veronica X (GC)

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I wouldn't say that today had finally put an end to this week's depression lapse - I still don't feel as neutral as I normally do, I still feel quite shitty at the moment - but today's been better than previous days this week.

I woke up at 10 - cleaned my room, took a shower and waited for Ash to arrive.
I'd wanted to go to her's today, but dad started work too early, so she ended up coming here instead.

As soon as I'd turned on Final Fantasy VII - Ash came.
It's not the first time that's happened either. Same with Adam.
If you ever want someone to arrive faster - play FF7. :)

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We kicked off the day with sausage rolls, Pepsi Max, chocolate doughnuts and Guitar Hero. :)
We played the quickplay and band career of GH: Metallica - until I noticed Ash was doing her 'muhhhrrr' face. But it wasn't actually through lack of interest in Guitar Hero - it was specifically loss of interest in Metallica. :D

Ash actually agrees with me - GH:M is the game with the worst setlist. It has like FOUR good songs in it.
So when I suggested we play Greatest Hits instead, Ash couldn't press eject on the Wii fast enough. :)

I was really testing my throat though, trying to do Expert vocals whilst eating Doritos inbetween songs. They're quite dry, so they made my throat all crackly. It was a good thing I had a pint of water beside me.
I got a bit hyper during Barracuda and Hit Me With Your Best Shot: over-emphasising on the "OOOOH BARRACUDA...!" and changing lyrics to "HIT ME WITH YOUR BEST PAAAAAT!" :)

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Then Ash and I had some fun with the Doritos.
Ash was laid on her back and I was tickling her face with my hair.
Then I started waving Doritos infront of her face - pulling them away when she went to eat them.

Then she turned round and said: "Oh FINE, BALANCE THEM ON MY NOSE."
So I did this:



And in mid-overbalance:




Ash ended up with orange salty dust all over her face - so I told her to close her eyes while I wiped it away from her, just to make sure she didn't get salt in her eyes.
This made me realise how much Ash trusts me - even when I was touching around her eyes with my fingertips, she didn't grimace, flinch or shake - she kept quite still. Just proves that she wasn't nervous or scared. :)

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We had hotdogs outside in the garden. :)
We had some amusement with the "ready-sliced" buns from ASDA.
In effect, they were sliced at RANDOM ANGLES, nowhere NEAR in the centre - diagonally, up the sides, all over the place.

Ready sliced!
We still ended up slicing them ourselves. :(

Then we had creme caramels. :)
That was amusing - the bench in the garden is on a slant, and you could tell, as the pudding was sliding sideways on the plate.

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As my Summer Accomplishments says - I completed Resident Evil: Code Veronica X today. :)
On request from Ash, of course.

I suffered a lot of stupid deaths by poisonous Hunters - and blundering into boss fights with only a handgun...
Ash had to encourage me a lot of the time to stop me from breaking and turning off the Wii in frustration.
She'd pat my head and give me words of encouragement. :)

It was hilarious when Claire got squashed by the falling concrete block trap.
Ash shit herself - jumped a foot in the air. :)
She always jumps when she KNOWS something will happen.

I was around 10 minutes away from the boss fight when Ash's dad came.
She was sad - I could see the disappointment in her eyes.
I did complete it after she'd gone - but if she wants to see the boss, I'm more than happy to re-load the file before the fight and show her. :)

VERY VERY EASY.
I went into the battle with a magnum, explosive arrows, flame rounds, acid rounds and grenade rounds.
I only actually used 10 explosive arrows - I completed the game without even touching the magnum!