Veganism @ MindSay

All morning, I've been walking around tidying up and looking in the fridge and cupboards at what we'll be stuffing our faced with later on. When my mom got home from her early morning last minute shopping, she had flowers and festive candles and candle holders and we finally got a dinning room table last night (haven't had one for two years. Last year's meal was eaten on the living room floor.). I keep thinking about our Thanksgiving and how it's special. Our Thanksgiving being celebrated in our little apartment with all these girls. My mom, my mom's girl friend who is staying with us right now, my little sister, me, my big sister, my niece and then... there is her daddy. It is so strange having some man around nowadays. At holidays and celebrations. You have to understand, there has never been a man in my life. He's not really IN MY LIFE either (he's hardly older than I am) but just having testosterone thrown into the mix just feels strange. Hmm...

Anyway, I'm pretty sure I've decided to take a wee "break," if you will, from being vegan. Just a few months. I have been thinking about this for a long time and I talked to my mom about it. She said she thought it would be alright and I told her I had reservations because it doesn't seem like a very true thing to do, hypocritical. She said to me, "Why are you vegan? It is your choice to be vegan, it is your choice to not me, not anyone else's. It makes my life easier, but you do what you really want. A little time not being vegan won't hurt." Made sense. She's never given me advice like that, and she did a good job on hitting on the fact that I shouldn't let my fear of how others will view me, as not a "real vegan" when I was and will be again stop me from doing what I want. Granted, I'm not going to go crazy, but by saying I'm taking a "break" I mean I'm not going to not eat something that I'd really like to because it has animal products in it. I've actually gotten used to and like a lot of food without cheese now. Strangely enough, it has more flavour and I can appreciate it more. I can't imagine eating ice cream again... the thought kind of grosses me out, but that might change when it's staring me in the face. ;). We'll just see. I'll have to take it slow, but this will only be for a few months, 4 at most, but I don't expect it to even go that long. Probably 3. Of course, I'm still a vegetarian. I've always been a vegetarian and will always be a vegetarian. Veganism is another thing. So yeah... my mom is happy that I made the final decision right before Thanksgiving because now she can make her meal with real butter and milk and stuff.

Only think I'm worried about is my skin. My skin has been really clear and doing well since I've been vegan, and it took quite a few months for it to totally get to that point, for my system to be totally clear of all the shit. But now it's like, I'm reintroducing it so it might go crazy. Who knows. I hope not. eh.

Enjoy your day everyone.
-Liv-

Arguement with parents took place like 10 seconds ago.
Veganism shit.
It's 11:30PM.

I'm going on hiatus from here.
They're blocking everything again.

I'm starving for a very long time this time.

Take care
xoxoxox

Don't donate anything to the Red Cross / Salvation Army.
They fund animal testing (but help humans, WTF?!) and have some quite anti-gay policies.

Ugh.
The weather.
Is.
Sizzling.
But.
Sort.
Of.
Breezy.

Listening: Atreyu

Geez, I can act like such a biotch when it's hot. Seriously, it all depends on the weather lol Talk about mood swings! When I'm hot and tired and sweaty, don't even bother saying hi!

YESTERDAY
On the bus, one of my really cool friends, Danielle, started screaming out that I was vegan. I don't know, don't ask. She kept saying it over and over again. And then this chic offered my a lollie. Like, randomly. That was so weird.
Anyway, so then when we got seats and stuff she said she was gonna go vegan for a week. Fabulous!
Then this chic behind us, asked about the whole concept of veganism, what you eat, etc. She said she wanted to try it too! Dude, that is so awesome. She's not even in our year, I think she's a 12th-grader.

I asked her what she usually eats and she relies on milk and meat so much, I found it quite shocking! I told her to just try vegetarianism and she was like "I can see it now, I come home and mom's making chicken!" Lol. I hope she holds up, at least for a day.
It felt so good, you know? Even though people don't get that it's about animal rights (because they don't give me the chance to tell them), they still are very curious about food. And when you mention clothes, they become really intrigued.

So, today.... On the bus, my good friend Dan came and sat opposite to me and she started telling everyone around us I was vegan. Then this stupid girl (9th-grader) asks what vegan is. And if I was vegetarian. I felt like strangling her. For a few reasons.
A) She sat on my leg before, when the bus was full and she didn't even like ask or anything, geez!
B) She is STUPID. Mentally blonde (no offense to blondes, I'm using that stereotypically).
C) Vegetarian is NOT vegan OMG GGGRRR!!
D) She sat next to again without asking. I felt like killing her. It was the only shady seat left and I didn't want to sit next to anyone else because it's so hot and the seats are leather and everybody is sweaty and smelly!
E) She is still very stupid -_-;;
F) My friend Cynthia and I have always hated her because she is unbelievably arrogant and a bit TOO preppy. Also the fact that she rocks at sports and we don't like being beaten by somebody younger than us lol. Naturally.

So... Dan is expecting me to explain. I say "Look it up in the dictionary." and move seats to sit in the sun ugghhhhh ggggrgrrrrr I still want to kill her for that. So selfish and arrogant!!!! She thinks everybody loves her. Geez, she's so annoying.

Wow, I'm bitching about somebody.
I feel like such a cow.
No. I mean... Cows rock, right? :)

Anyhooz... Dan couldn't even explain geez she said "Not eat meat." Omg, Dan, you know more than that!! And suddenly I felt like I had turned down the most perfect invitation ever to educate someone on animal rights, the whole concept, etc. And because she was stupid, she wouldn't be able to answer back like most people (but of course, I'm prepared with answers). When Danielle was getting off the bus, the girl called after her and asked, "Tell me what vegan is!" and Dan just said "No."

Thinking about me: IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT!!!!!! I could've told her, but her stop was next anyway. And plus, I had already turned her down. And for somebody who's had experience on a debating team - I know when the chance is gone and (usually) know when to shut up and sit down.

Being vegan is more than just a personal thing. Every vegan is being an ambassador. Yeah, we're animal rights preachers or (what do you call those ummm dammit!). People are curious, especially if they've never heard of it before. You make "friends" or "enemies", wherever you go. You buy some like dairy-free thing and people look at you funny, in a sort of asking way, you know?

It never gets boring. Being vegan is fun, I'll admit. I love how people are interested and that they'll actually challenge themselves. The only person I've ever challenged was my sister and that was to go vegetarian, only. She said she'd do it (but she doesn't know much about the whole animal cruelty thing, touchy subject - she's 12) but my parents won't let her.

Speaking of my parents, they keep hitting me with mean remarks. The "extremist" and "unnecessary reading, stop it, you're going too far"ones I cop almost every half hour.

It seriously makes me cry. My parents are so... Not understanding, appreciating or tolerant. And you'll know what I mean in my next blog, that's it for now.


Could it all be teenage angst?
I don't think so.
Then again... We all know I'm stubborn :)

So...

 

A while ago I let an insect out into the yard instead of killing it.

Mom said to kill it because it was harmful, it chewed through clothing.

I told her they had their own ecosystem to balance it all out and just let it go.

 

A few days later, she said she was thinking about what I'd done and thought I was being extreme.

She thought I would reach the point where I would "worship and pray" a cow. Bring it home and obey it.

 

I am so sorry.

 

I explained to her like 1 week later that I was still upset and expected an apology.

She just got angry. Again.

 

I can't wait to finish high school.

I'm thinking of moving to Canada. Toronto. Regina, maybe.

 

Mindsay is still blocked. This sucks. I have to do something about it.

 

 

VEGGIE LOVE! <3

-T