Ups And Downs @ MindSay

When the world stands high

No heels needed

To kick me in the back

As it sieges and attacks

I wish You'd come so I could fly

When all the broken bones

Sharded fragments

Can't put themselves together

Lie rotting in the weather

I wish You'd make my heart a stone

When others point and laugh

Loud and long

And make me feel so small

Too weak to stand up tall

I wish You'd swing and smack

When roller coaster riders

Screaming massses

Ride the ups and downs

With smiles without frowns

I wish You'd show me kinder

 

'Cause I am only human

Flesh and blood

That wants to run

Away forever

To a place

Without malice without pain

And never

Ever

Return again.

 

 

Crush

 

....just wait till Friday, because that usually makes things better. :D

I love Fridays. Why? Because the I have an 8am drawing and perspective class that is my four hour respite from the rest of the week. Yesterday was definitely the polar opposite of Thursday. I spent Thursday night in a sour mood, but started to finish my project anyways. I was sorta worried that I might fuck it up and then have to turn it in all crappy. But Friday morning, I turn in my contour line drawing and my colored pencil drawing and not even 20 minutes later he hands them back and says "Excellent Work, I'd like to use this one in the gallery, if that's okay with you." I got an A on both drawings.. :D Nothing's a quicker mood picker-upper than Bounty, erm I meant good news.

I will post the photos as soon as my camera battery is finished charging. Which is another thing I found yesterday, so I can finally start taking some photos again.  Ah, I feel better. Sometimes life just likes to smack me around, then pick me up and say sorry, like those irresistible sour patch kids.

Tschuess!

It has been a good week so far. I've been having my ups and downs but that is to be.

On Monday I went to the outskirts of Chicago with my sis & my mom. Our destination: Ikea.

We practically spent all day there. Being there gave me many ideas for the house where before I was stumped. It's good to get another perspective for inspiration. So now is the fun part of saving up money to make the dream a reality.

I'm hoping to spend another day with my sis Nomad before she has to head back to work. :) It's been fun.

Now I must get back to cleaning. I'm VERY excited about this weekend.

I am sitting in my english class--

 

And I'm BACKKK!

 

I know, I betrayed you ALL for livejournal. Check them out anyway, yes? http://littlexfuckup.livejournal.com

 

It's prettyyy sexxy.

 

Anyway. Nothing has really been happening lately. Things kinda work like a rollercoaster. Ups and downs, but the ups are anticipating and the downs make your stomach churn uncofortably, and are generally more intense than the ups.

 

 

This font is hella big

 

Kinda cutting still, kinda not.

 

Kinda eating, kinda not.

 

Feelings are all over the place.

 

And guys are confusing.

 

Hell, welcome to adolescence. [[:

 

Anyway, more later. that's all for noww loves.

 

Talk soon!

stefanie

you are so pretty when you smile...
you don't need to frown
for your life has just begun
you don't know what it is to love
to hate, to hurt
smile now my angel
life is waiting for you
you mean so much
to so many different people
put your words of hate and hurt away
it'll be okay
you'll be okay
you will turn out just fine
just remember to smile
and think about the better times
when things were easier, happier
because life is full of ups and downs
and those ups outweigh those downs




okay so i started that a few days ago when i was feeling down... people would always be like "you have the prettiest smile" and i just used that in this one that i just made up about my cousin... she's a really great kid... i love her to death... i don't know what i'd do if i found out she was doing anything to harm herself... especially since i can't see her every week anymore or go for walks with her... i miss her...