Unrealistic @ MindSay

"I can't be that perfect guy, and it's unrealistic for **** to expect me to be, especially if she's going to where those tank-tops at the basketball games."

^{Well. Isn't that nice.  Really, it's just so fucking lovely that you've realized that it's unrealistic because I never asked you to be perfect and I never expected you to be.}

 So while we're on the subject of expectations, you better not expect me to cover myself up at the Goddamned Basketball games because I wont. Hell, I'll walk around like a whore if I want too. I'll walk around naked if I want too. Is it my fault you can't keep your hormones in check? No. Do I ask you to? Not at all. So don't fucking blame me for your own puberty issues.

In other news, Mindsay kicks ass.

Expectations

Yesterday was a thought provoking day for me.  I again feel like I disappoint my family.  Its sad I try and not let it bother me but the more and more I try the more I fail and it bothers me.  I know for a fact I'll never live up to the expectations of this world.  I know that the only expectations I have to live up to are those of Gods.  Which I continually try to do.  It hurts though when it seems like you fail. 

I often doubt myself, mostly because I dont think I can live up to others (mans) expectation.  Yesterday a friend told me two things which were food for thought.  One:  If I'm doubting myself that means I'm doubting God and what He is capable of...do I really want to doubt God and His awesome power?

Also, I've been struggling with change.  I want so much for change however I'm terrified of it.  I often thought if I left where I am then I would naturally have to make the commitment of change.  However that wise friend of mine said  "sure you will be geographically in a different place but then you will find you're routine and go back and do the same thing time and time again.  The only change that will happen is if you make it happen and decide thats what you are going to do, but moving to another place isnt going to make that change."

So, my challenge for you people are only live up to the expectations of Gods because mans expectations are false. Also, make the change happen dont just think a different place will do it. 

**Correction in spelling, thank you!**

Here we go again, I have been sitting and thinking about what I do at work, I work 10 hours a day, 5 days a week, not a huge amount of hours in comparison to other professions (game programming comes to mind) but within Drafting, it is fairly long hours. But do the clients care, no, do I get any recognition for my effort, no, do they just keep heaping me with work, yep.

What sucks is that they descide that I can just carry a greater and greater load. I feel as though I am nearing the breaking point, I haven't had a break in weeks (even to the point of skipping a pair of public holidays).

<Mutter> <Grumble> <Rant> I hate clients </Mutter> </Grumble> </Rant>.