ok well im pretty bored so im just writing here and yes im going to publish this on my blog.... well i guess your reading this and your probably bored too.... dont leave!! ill come up with something exciting to say....... hmmmmm....... ummmmmm..... dont leave.... lets see.... OH I KNOW!!! im going to tell a story! hows does that sound??? well i dont care if you dont want to hear it! your going to listen to me untill im done!!!  here it is.... i was gonna tell a real story but i cant think of any so im going to make one up..

 

once opon a time there was a girl who decided to go to the park. her mom said no she cant go because bad men will want to melest her, so the girl killed her mom. The girls name was Crystal.  Crystal decided to hide her moms body after she went to the park.  When Crystal went to the park she brought her friend Pedro just incase someone wanted to melest her.  they went to the park and while they were there the got lost and separated from eachother. Then Pedro got bit by a rattle snake. (the park was in a desert in Africa.) When Crystal found Pedro he was dead. She didnt cry instead she decided to have some fun with the body. Crystal decided to carry the body and put it on top of a giant tree, (yes there was a tree in the desert.) then she dropped it off to see if it would bounce. it did! it bounced so high it came back up to the top of the tree and knocked Crystal off then she fell and died, but she didnt bounce. After all this happened Crystals arm got ripped off and flew all the way to Japan. It hit the prime minister of Japan and he thought it was a threat from the U.S.  The prime minister decided to launch a few nukes at the U.S. in response. The nukes killed everyone and then the whole Earth got into a nuclear war and everyone died. Then the world blew up. Then the universe imploded from all the energy! =].... =[....??

 

THE END.

 

i know you liked it.

communication... a two-way street... a double-edged sword... etc... expression is half the battle... comprehension is the other half...  good luck with that shit y'all...

sometimes i feel like i know everything...  everything, that is, that doesn't require any specialization or expertise whatsoever...  everything to do with people...  life even...  people and life are full of surprises however, as any half-apt observer will note...  the future is way out of my league, obviously, though probabilities are doable...  like, for example, the fact that the above statement will lead most who read this to a number of dubious assumptions...  take note of the words though, people, i pick and choose them carefully (ie: "sometimes")...  anyhow, moving right along...  there's this thing about people that's been chafing my brain recently (and by recently, i mean for several years now)...

people-- everyone i know in one way or another-- disappoint the hell out of me.  have i griped of this already?  if so, it is worthy of another...  there is not a single member of my family, a single friend past or present, or even a potential idol of mine (Neil, Fyodor, etc) who has not disappointed me massively and consistently (inconsistency, from a moral standpoint, disappoints me a great deal, for one...)...  i couldn't find a fucking idol to save my life (not in the ranks of humans at least)...  i've tried, i guess, i've felt the roots of human-invoked awe and reverence, but NOTHING is eternal...  i can't even find an acceptable role model out there...  not that i feel i need one, fiction serves me well enough, but the children, the little poofters, surely they need someone, something to look up to, don't they?  (maybe not...)  the best i can do is piece together some imaginary virtuous person out of the bits of virtue that all of us have...  my buddy Dwch is wholly, innately honest...  my compadre Asshat is selfless...  my friend Hertzbag is earnest...  blah blah blah capiche?  take any group of people, put their good bits together, and you have yourself something decent...  take any one person, observe and analyze that person, and you will come to observe a dwch...  is the embodiment of virtue, the human of virtue, a myth?  it appears to be so...  fuckin douche-bags, all of us...  i don't expect perfection, just consistent common courtesy and common sense...  show me that in human form and i'll eat a fucking hat....

it IS easier to love those you don't really know all that well, or see with a great deal of frequency...  I've never met someone who doesn't eventually make me nauseous, in one regard or another, just as i've never met someone who doesn't evoke some reverence and love in one way or another (ahhh, go the foggy minds, so he isn't just cold and bitter--  he bleeds!  he loves!  of course i fucking do...  all anger comes from love, and nauseousness doesn't equate to hate (though it can come close))...  sometimes i think love is just nature's way  of keeping us interested , fueling our will to live and our drive to kill, conquer, and consume (oooh, that's like, so gloomy...  suck a dick)...  every crime is a love crime...  love is the ultimate excuse, the ultimate justification for being stupid dwches (pronounced "douches" btw-- don't ask)...  think about it.

 we are tribal beasts, but ideally we live in huge fucking tribes so we don't all have to see each other every time the sun's a blazing...  the spaces between us bring us closer together, i'd say...  there's one for those Hallmark cocksuckers...  someone asked me awhile back if i'd rather live by the ocean or in the mountains...  i said the mountains cause there're fewer fucking people there...  do people remind me of my own shortcomings?  sure, sure...   but they also feel compelled to frequently remind me of their own...  i don't have time for that...  doting on such things would be like soo super gloomy... 

humanity needs some fucking standards...  a code of conduct of sorts...  all this pleading ignorance is driving me nuts...  ignorance of common sense is no defense...  how is virtue taught/learned?  we each teach it to ourselves, with careful consideration, with knowing thyself so as to know each other...  with humble, sincere, reflection, and with a little lack of regard/reverence for the self...  and fuck time...  if it takes you eighty years to learn one worthy thing, take eighty fucking years...  our emphasis on timeliness arose out of selfishness...  we each want to do it all, live it all, feel it all, breathe it all...  and we want it NOW...  we each want more than each other, or at least as much as we can chew...  but the all is everywhere, in everything...  ah fuck, i went and got hungry, and doubt and grumpiness always grip me when i'm hungry...  but doubt is fucking good, people, indulge in it some more, please...  i doubt whether or not anyone will read this...  i doubt whether or not anyone will "get" where i'm coming from...  i doubt that any of this is in any way novel to anyone...  i doubt if there is any point at all in writing such things, i just know that doing it makes me less angry at the end of the day...  anger is a gift?  ha-ha

ps:  i've recently concluded that nature as we know/knew it is a total write-off...  i will write of that and other fabulous and fantastical things later, assuming i can once again bring myself to stomach my own tripe...                 

omg last night i had a dream and it was really crazy but sad anyways it was like mine and irene's graduration ok and we decided to invite amber,so we did and like she was in torrance and only had one day here so we thought she would have come and then when it was the finally day of our gradaration we hoped she camed but she didn't we were really sad cause like we were counting on her to come see but we understanded that it was her last day in torrance so we can understand and then when me and irene was walking home we saw her with paul lol we burtsed out of tears then ran to my house good thing she didn't see us then i don't know what happened cause i woke up hahahaha god i hope that doesn't ever happen

Okay so here's probably my last post until this Saturday... (schools back in session tomorrow) (poor me)

A quizzie stolen from ghostface !

 

SEVEN LASTS:

7. last beverage: Water

6. last phone call: To Natalie. Then she didn't pick up. She's my crazy bitch.
5. last instant message: To mysticpizzaguy a loooong time ago (hehe)
4. last cd played: Panic! At The Disco
3. last BUBBLE bath: LONG time ago. I can't even remember, it was that long ago.
2. last time you cried: When my stepdad yelled at me. He was scary mad...  
1. last snack: Chocolate butter cream frosting... (i only had two spoonfuls...) :P

SEVEN HAVE YOUS.
7. have you ever dated someone twice: No.  
6. have you ever been cheated on?: Not exactly.
5. have you ever kissed someone & regretted it?: I'm still waiting on my first kiss *blushes*
4. have you ever fallen in love?: That's for me to know and you... not to know. :P :D 
3. have you ever lost someone special?: Not yet.
2. have you ever been depressed: Yes.
1. have you ever been drunk and threw up? I'm not 21... lol.

SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Went to school: No
2. Went to work: I don't have work yet.
3. Went to Wal-Mart: Hellz no. I haven't been there in YEARS.
4. Gassed up your vehicle: Umm. no.
5. Got drunk: On New Years Eve maybe...
6. Slept: Fer SURE.

list FOUR people you can tell anything to --
1. randomrhythmman 
2. TheFatCouple 
3. My daddy
4. My papa
(not in order) (I swear!)

list THREE favorite colors.
1. Green
2. Black
3. Blue

List TWO things you want to do before you die -
1. Hopefully see my grandchildren
2. Go Bungee Jumping

this month have you...

Made a new friend - Umm. Online I have.
Fallen out of love - Nope. I'm verrrrry happy at the mo.
Laughed until you cried - Lol! Yeah.
met someone who changed your life? Not yet.
Found out who your true friends were? Yeah

1. Bush? Oh gawd.

2. Gay Marriage? Yes!

3. Lowering the drinking age? Hmm. Lol. Kidding.

4. Straight. Gay. Bi?: What? me? straight.

5. Who is the best hugger[s] that you know? TheFatCouple (my mommy) , ForeverKnight MsDania ...My dad...my papa... other people...

6. Do you believe in love at first sight? Umm. No. That only applies to celebs. :P

7. Is there something you want to tell someone? Umm. Not that I can think of.

8. What brand of shirt are you wearing? GAP cami, and Old Navy small sweater... 

9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?: *giggle* yes...

10. How many people on your top friends do you know n real life?: Two. possibly more...

11. How many kids do you want to have? I'm thinking one or two.

12. Do you have any pets? One. My baby Kit Kat.

13. Do you wanna change your name?: Nah. My name means "beautiful flower" in Kiswahili 

14. What did you do for your last birthday? Hmm. I took two of my friends to lunch and to see "She's The Man" 

15. What time did you wake up today? 11:00

16. What were you doing at midnight last night? Umm. Watching TV or taking a shower. Can't remember which.

17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do? Bungee Jumping.  

18. Last time you saw your father? Around the fourth of July. He left for California then. *sniff* :(

19. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Where I live...(copying Daisy) and... my blonde-ness

20.Which hand do you like better? Umm. I'm a righty. So my right? 

21.What are you listening to right now? My sister whispering everything I'm typing to herself. (She's in first grade...) (:P)

2. Have you ever talked to Tom?: Seriously who the fuck is that?

23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes. And I got a free polar bear plush. 

24. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? Umm. Maybe. :P 

25. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A shirt from my mom. It wasn't a very good idea though, because everytime I moved around the part that covered up the see through part came down. So basically everyone saw my bra in public. 

26. Who's getting on your nerves now? My sister keeps on asking me to find the Hillary Duff CD.

27. Most visited webpage? Mindsay, Gmail, and Mugglenet.:)

29. Coke or Pepsi? I'd say Coke.

30. Do you have a crush? On my man!

31. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? Nope. :P 

32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world today? Um. DUH.

34. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends? Yes. Its very friend-y.

 

Until Next Time, My Mindsay Friends!

I'll miss you guys! *^_^*

My last post was a bit... depressing and private. On a more happy note, we have about... 844 days, 1 hour and about 44 mins until our next president takes office. I hope it's Evan Bayh. GO HOOSIERS!!! WOO HOO!!!

 

Good night all!!