Uefa @ MindSay

In terms of soccer, quite a frustrating week. Arsenal fell to their fourth consecutive draw, and guess what? Manchester United is sitting at the top of the table! What's worse is Arsenal is going to play Liverpool three times in a row for the two leg rounds of the Champions League and a Premiere League match. If Arsenal beats Manchester United, their going to most likely play Chelsea, and if Arsenal beat Chelsea, we might have a chance of playing Manchester United if they beat Barcelona :S Looks like the UEFA Champions League is going to be a one way ticket to the final by stepping on the dead bodies of fellow English clubs.

PSV drew, I still can't believe it. Farfan the man scored in the second half, and just when we thought PSV would withstand the pressure to win again, Roda JC scored an equaliser on the 92nd minute. So disappointing, because although Roda JC pulled everyone up for the corner kick (yes, that includes the goalkeeper as well), it was the defence's fault of not being able to clear the ball quick enough out of the box that costed PSV two points. PSV now only have a 4 point lead, and we're playing Ajax on the 20th O_o

Recently I've re-ignited my interested in lucid dreaming, and for a few occasions, I did realise I was dreaming in my dream. Failed in all the occasions to control my dreams as I did before (well actually I only managed to do that once, but it was a short lived lucid dream as the dream world crumbled under light of reality). It be cool if I can start to control my dreams soon, cause then I'd be able to extend my "working hours" while I sleep, since in my dreams, I, am the owner of my 4 dimensional world, being able to alter every single part of the dream, and have the ability to control time.

Went to the orphanage yesterday, was a fun trip as usual. Its great to know that the kids know know me, cause I get random whacks and smiles from the kids at the place. Yue Yue is still as jolly and chubby. We crashed the Korean restaurant after the trip, and I got my Vitamin B drinks :D It was also fun in another way, cause MC was with us as well. One interesting thing I saw during our trip was MC without her glasses. Last time me and MC were at the orphanage together, her glasses were off for a brief moment of time when a kid took it off, but she quickly re-gained possession, so I didn't get to see a clearer view. This time, it was kids instead of a kid, so she was kind of fighting for the glasses while having fun, and its probably the first time I saw her properly without glasses.

Its always weird to see people who wear glasses all the time to take their glasses off, cause in your memory you only treasure the image of them wearing the glasses. I guess I was a little bit shocked when I saw her without glasses, but nevertheless, she looked beautiful to me even without the glasses.

I think I'm out of gas and motivation to continue writing this entry :/ One thing I have to add, is that the last time when I was enlightened by Ms N during Regen, she mentioned that God wanted me to look up things related to "me" in the Bible so I could fully understand what God wants to tell me. Ms N showed me the passages where the name "Stephen" appears, and apparently, in the Acts, Stephen was a holy man who was filled with the Holy Spirit, but he ended up getting stoned by criticising those who condemned him for blaspheming with stories of the Bible, even though he didn't commit the act of blaspheming. It kind of gives me the creeps, cause is God telling me that I would have to sacrifice myself for something "big"?

I don't really fear death, but I'm not quite sure if I'm able to digest what I learned and actually become ready for what's coming up for me. Maybe that's why we are humans, cause we aren't actually afraid of the process of death and what comes up after we die, but it is the ties and bonds with the modern world that cause us to fear death, as we lose "everything" and cause people around us to suffer and cry.