Typing @ MindSay

A little more than a week ago, I blogged about reading an old manuscript of mine and finding a couple of tweaks that needed smoothing before I was ready to present it to anyone. 

Well, I'm at that place now where I can spend some time on it.  I've even (wonder of wonders) already tinkered with the back cover copy and discussed cover art with Reneé.  (Go ahead and looked surprised...I am!)  This is, all in all, promising, no?

No.

Well, that much is promising, yes.  All right.  What I found that was distressing was this:

I am going to have to retype the entire manuscript.  The backup disc got corrupted somehow and isn't "speaking" to my current computer. 

55,000 words.  I think I'll take it easy on myself and just do a chapter a day.  If my wrists hold out, anyway...

Going back through a lot of my poetry and I am finding out some things. I am not as good a poet as I once thought I was. Or maybe, I wasn't when I was sixteen. Some of the poetry is rather grotesque in form and fluidity. I am typing them up to put into a book later on. The problem is, if I cut as many poems as I think I should, there may not be much of a book left to publish. *sigh* I hate being my own critic.

AHHHH! omfg omfg omfg. im so excited. and this song makes it better. in fact. im going to repeat it lol.

severe lack of sleep.
my dads mad at me for hitting his truck. id be pissed at me too. my mom wants to make things better between us. probably wont happen. but it will for a week or so until my dad gets over the truck thing.

my lip piercing is back to NORMAL. no more swelling. which makes me happy. considering this  is the first time of seven that it turned out the way i wanted to.

im talking to kids from columbia. i love my school. and i love chicago. and i love that im moving the hell out of here in like...a month.

in the beginning of august im taking a train to detroit and then to toledo to see nick. he found a german shepard puppy on his deck this morning. he said medusa wanted to kill it at first butnow its okay. im pretty sure hes going to keep it.

i needed to start journaling again.
nick wants me to go to counseling. but its not for me. and im happy. for the first time in a looong time. no more retarted teenage bullshit. time for college :D.

sunday.
im
getting
fucking
trashed <3

adios strangers

Mreow, I've been biting my front paws and that's pretty much it. By the way, I purr heavy. That should be enough for the next 6 mo.

Tonight's blood sugar level was better then this morning's.  167  still high but lots lower then what it was.

 

Every once in a while I will get an email from my Uncle W.  My dad's brother.  He is a freaking hoot.  Out of my dad's family I will have to say that he is my favorite aunty or uncle.  The man took off from his family for 4-6 years right out of highschool and joined the Navy.  To get away from my Grandpa.  I have said in a previous post that Granddad was a hard ass and did the norm of beating the kids.  Well you would figure that with my Uncle being the 1st born son out of the family he would be named after Granddad.  He isn't.  And after watching his lil brother, my dad, grow up with the Jr name.  He is glad!  And he made peace way before Grandpa passed away with his dad.

 

Anyway he was married once.  Divorced with no kids.  Then his second marriage he married my Auntie A.  Auntie A already had 5 kids from a previous marriage.  And the ex was no where to be seen around the girls.  The boys would go between their house and their dad's house.  And eventually stayed at my Uncle's home.  Auntie A is also about 12 years older then Uncle W.  Uncle managed to talk Auntie A into having 1 more kid......at least one to be his blood alone.  Cousin R popped out.  Four years older then my sister.  It is funny you put us 3 girls together and not just by the faces but by our ASSES you can tell we are related.  I don't get my sexy ass just from my mom's side.  Even though they do produce some round asses.  My dad's side is all about handing us girl's the curves.  Our Cousin' N may be the shortest out of us all but she has the titties and ass right along with us! 

 

We heard stories growing up being the youngest out of the family on how Uncle W chased down R's older sisters across pastures in trucks.  They broke curfew and thought they would pull fast ones on daddy and mamma.  See all of my Aunties kids grew up with Uncle W as their daddy and we all grew up with them as our cousin's.  Every single one of those 5 kids; 2 boys and 3 girls calls Uncle their Daddy.  Auntie and the kids are orginally from Eastern OK and Western Arkansa..........so you know they can be odd balls.  Then you add into it a True Nebraskan Redneck who is considered just odd by his own family.......they are one funny family that we all love to be around!

 

Uncle W types like he talks.  He had childhood Eplipsy and now he has the begin's of Palsy.  So sometimes it is very hard to understand what the hell he is talking about..  You add that into our parental family's really bad habit of jumping subjects left and right and then our trait of talkign backwards in time and saying sentences backwards.......we are really hard to understand.  Unless your around us for a while.  The southern cousin's pick up the northern rezed otu accent when home and around us and us nebraskan cousin's pick up the slight southern accent when around them.  Poor Randy has no clue how to interact with that side of the family.

 

My mom's side is pretty cut and dried.  Sports, Hunting, Raunchy Ass Jokes, Booze lots of kids and Stronge Women.

My dad's side you never know which way things are going to turn.  Could be sports, not a lot of hunting, raunchy ass jokes, booze, stronge women, asshole men, lots of kids and lots of family fighting with drama and lies thrown in.

 

It took Randy 6 times reading my uncle's email tonight and he still couldn't understand what he was saying.  I broke it down for him.  He tried emailing but our email server was down.  He also wanted to know how to proncounce our last name and he still isn't sure if he likes it; so I will always be a R surname to him!  He bought a stubborn bull a few months past that immeditally got into the neighbor's pasture and he has to go get it.  But he would like to go to an Auction (sale is his word) and isn't sure if he will be able to if he has to fight the bull.  How is everything our way.

 

Every once in a while Uncle shows up unannoucned.  He does it to my folks and my auntie up in the city all the time.  And with my cousin R and her family living 4 hours from us I told Randy don't be suprised if some day Uncle and Auntie don't show up for a fast visit.  Or invite us to R's place to see them. 

 

Randy keeps going he will find a state that I don't have family in........I told him good luck.  Then he said fine we will move to the UK.........I said good luck.......we have family over there that we just made contact with a few years back.  He said fine we will go to Switzerland.  I reminded him that my parental granny's family is fromthere and that we have family still there.  He finally said fuck that we will move to China then just to get away from your family:))  I said okay I can go visit my cousin K:D  Randy threw up his hands in disgust and said he should have never a woman with such a large family on both sides!