Twisted @ MindSay

From THIS GREAT SITE on Narcissism:

Recognising Narcissism - Observing them at work

Behaviours and attitudes of the narcissist
See if you recognise any of the following:

* When he is good, he is wonderful. When he is bad he is a waking nightmare.

* He is always right and everyone else is always wrong.

* He will not accept criticism of any sort.

* His public image and how he is perceived is extremely important to him. Far more important than genuine interactions and relationships.

* He can get angry in an instant - often for things he has imagined or for no apparent or reasonably valid cause.

* When he is angry for something that he has imagined or misunderstood, you can try to prove the facts to him, drag in a hundred witnesses - he will still not change his mind.

* He twists facts to suit himself and sometimes "rewrites history" to match what he wants to believe.

* He has a natural tendency to believe the worst about people.

* He is an extremist and fickle. He can be absolutely loyal to someone, sing their praises and defend them to the death - then at the slightest disappointment, turn on them completely and in an instant.
* His conversation is often about criticising someone else or running someone else down. When he does this, it is with an air of authority, as if he really knows what is going on inside that person - better even than they do. He knows exactly what their "problem" is, as well as the solutions.

* When not engaged in criticism and gossip, his conversation revolves around himself: his thoughts, his life, his feelings, his attitudes, his woes, his ailments, his achievements, his cleverness. Me, I and My.

* He will ask you how you are, then carry on speaking before you can answer, or cut you short and speak over you.

* If you speak loud enough and he is forced to listen (or because someone else who doesn't know the real him is around), you can see that he is not listening at all. He is distracted, possibly looking around and shuffling, or nodding his head too vigorously to speed you up. Perhaps he has simply gone glassy-eyed. You get the distinct feeling that he just wants you to shut up so that he can speak again.

* When he responds to something you have said, it is often either just a kind of grunt -- or it seems over the top.

* On the few occassions that he does praise you or acknowledge something you have done, it will normally be condescending, grudging, sarcastic or as a back-handed compliment.

* What he says and what he does seem like two opposite worlds.

* When he is with outsiders he is such a charming, friendly man. People tend to like him and admire him and you are amazed at how rational he is with them.

* He is very possibly a pillar of society and looked up to by those who deal with him but are not close. He may be in a position of leadership.

* He goes on at length and with quite some passion about things that he himself does. For example, loudly complaining about men who abusing or cheating on their wives and speaking about what harsh punishments they should be subjected to - then going home and abusing & cheating on his own wife.

* He knows how to do everything better. He could do that job better, run the organization better, run the country better…..

* He knows the answer to all of the worlds biggest problems... if only someone would listen to him/ finance him/ whatever.

* He is a victim of everyone and everything: those in authority over him, his family, his circumstances, his health, his past. He is a victim and a martyr, period. What other people accept as part of life, he takes as a personal affront, if not attack.

so Stacy found me n added me on facebook. i thought she hated me n i really dun hate her so i added her. i told her i thought she did hate me n she said no n that apparently on the 18th she saw my ex w/ his new bf n said she thought that was interesting. i told her that i feel bad for the guy n hope he has the strength to break the silence n i know its harder for gay men to do that, n unless she found his gutted corpse in the gutter or someone else is pressing charges on him, i told her not to tell me about him. i dun need that. just knowing that he's dating someone new is freaking me out cuz i KNOW he hasn't changed a god damned bit. i remember after he broke up he told me about how he made out w/ some fucking guy on my pourch while my family was campin n he told me about how he started grabbin his dick n stuff but the guy told him no n told him that several times. i mean, wtf? how can u fuckin think that's ok? if n e thing he's just gonna be more careful about keeping it quiet.

 

also, Teresa's dumb ass tried to add me as a friend on facebook again. third time. i'm sending her this message:

"on several occasions u'd act like u were my friend n then turn around n talk shit about me to Alex or some1 else. why would i want some1 like that as a friend? why would u do that to one of ur friends?"

hopefully she'll just ignore it rather than start shit. n e way, i gotta get out of here. i need to print out my paper, turn it in, buy a scantron for my midterm that i haven't n probably won't be studying for which ensures a bomb, n buy some food before my 11:00am class...which I could not go to n study instead, but we'll see. i still have crap to do when i get home, too. add buy new tortillas n a new filter for my, um, water filter to that list of stuff.

 

n just incase n e emo pussies read this, i'm not ignoring u, i just haven't looked @ n e of the replies in my inbox.

Living in a dream

Always sleeping

Never awake

Everything not what it seems to be

Small voices echo

Inside my head

As if they want out

Soul twisted

There I lay in the shadow alone

As i die by myself

Alone and twisted

I just watched Strangeland with Dee Snyder in it the other night and it reminded me of this video

Just a little something to disturb you....LOL...

 

Pink Elephant Riding a Bicycle

 

I'm really warning you...this isn't for the faint of heart....

 

But just in case your curiosity get's the best of you....do remember I warned you first..LOL...:D