Truth Be Told @ MindSay

Tell someone something you've never told anyone before. Of course, tell me as well so I know what you've done. I told my best friend I was mindblowingMINT, and she was like "cool!" It really helped me feel free.

Yesterday, after having talked to a friend who can be my "id" perspective when I'm way too much "superego," I decided that I was going to tell my boss the truth about my job.  I was going to sit her down and tell her that even though I said it was about money, it really isn't completely about money, and I'm just not happy being there.  So I did.  I told her that the truth is I will be leaving, and I told her that I didn't think it was professional for her to talk to me about Donna, especially about what Donna does wrong, and that I am supposed to replace her, because that isn't fair to me, or to Donna.  I told her that I'd stay until after the Las Vegas trip, and then two more weeks (exactly what I was going to do anyway), and she said, "Well, if the only reason you're staying is because you think we can't handle it, then don't."

So I said, "Uhh.. Okay, then I guess this is my two weeks'."  She responded with, "Well, I don't really want you working here if you don't want to work here, so I'll try and shift around the schedule so you can leave earlier."

So I said, "Uhh.. Okay?"  She told me that if I wasn't having fun there, I would present a "bad image" to the customers.

My plan of getting the truth off my chest turned into not having a job much sooner than I thought.  Which is partially good, because it makes me realize how much she wasn't looking out for me, and partially bad, because I kind of have no income now.  But I've applied for two jobs, and I'll be applying for a couple more today.

If you see any jobs for the Thurston County area, or need something done over the internet and would like to pay me for it, (hah) go ahead and let me know.

Here is a book recomendation from me that doesn't have to do with serial killers or criminal behavior (my usual reads) I highly recommend: Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong by James W. Loewen ISBN number 0-684-81886-8.

It may seem to many to be anti-American, but really it's just the truth...and isn't THAT what America is REALLY about? It is amazing how much we are lied to, and what we believe in order to prove to ourselves that we are the greatest country of all. Couldn't we still have a great country and tell the truth? Wouldn't that be better? Or are our sins as a country too horrible to forgive?

TG

Right now I hate you Mom. Why can't you see?

That all of your bad actions are really hurting me.

You've put me here to suffer, and so shall I do.

Now, all I need to be complete is to see you suffer, too.

I'll take up my old ways and put blood back on the knife,

And this time no one will be here to save my pitiful life.

I hope you learn your lesson and be there for my brother.

Because without his older sister, he'll need his only mother.

I wish you could see how much you've hurt me with all the lies you've told,

And I'm not saying this to be mean or to even be cold.

Hopefully you straighten up your act and learn to fly right,

cuz if you don't, I won't be the only thing you'll lose tonight.

Truth be told these things needed to be said,

Maybe now you'll drop the pipe and keep a clear head.

 

 

Written By Me...

For the feelings I feel towards my mother right now