Truth @ MindSay

wow.

that's all i can really say.
last night was more eye-opening and unbelievable to really be able to explain.

you don't mess with the tarot cards.

i never really thought they would work much, but wow.
um, seriously.
we did a 13 card read and every single card was 100% accurate....
no joke.

just, wow.

and the rest of the night was amazing too.
she and i finally got to talk about what's been going on and how both of us feel about it and music and lyrics and feelings and thoughts and it was  a m a z i n g.  seriously, i am still breathless over it.

thank you, my darling, for showing me a part of myself i never really knew existed.  thank you for letting me vent everything and for being so willing to listen.  thank you for reading my cards and letting me draw upon my own conclusions about them and thank you for understanding so well the cards i said were you.

i will never forget last night and the honesty that took place.  thank you....  :)

Here's what I think: There are some things that I know are true, and they are true. There are some things that I think are true, but I am mistaken, and they are false.

I think the same is true for you, reader. Although maybe the things we know that are true are different, and the things we mistakenly believe are true are also different. And the things we agree on? Who knows.

So here's the problem: How do we know which of the things we believe to be true, are true, and which are not? Now that's a thinker. Some people might be better at recognising truth and falsity when they come across it than others, but no one is perfect at it. Or at least, none of us regular, non-divine, ordinary humans are.

But that's not the real twist. Here's the twist: Is what I just wrote in this blog true, or not true? Right now, I certainly believe it to be true.

Do you get it? I'm eating my own tail!

You have my respect.

 

 

I am sorry that I have not been around.  We just got the computer up after moving.  The house is a mess but we are slowly making progress.  So much has happened and there is so much I want to write about but right now I am so afraid I will be judged or not believed.  My therapist told me today she has doubts about my story.  I know I just confused everyone.  All I can say is I am in the process of prosecuting someone.

From THIS GREAT SITE on Narcissism:

Recognising Narcissism - Observing them at work

Behaviours and attitudes of the narcissist
See if you recognise any of the following:

* When he is good, he is wonderful. When he is bad he is a waking nightmare.

* He is always right and everyone else is always wrong.

* He will not accept criticism of any sort.

* His public image and how he is perceived is extremely important to him. Far more important than genuine interactions and relationships.

* He can get angry in an instant - often for things he has imagined or for no apparent or reasonably valid cause.

* When he is angry for something that he has imagined or misunderstood, you can try to prove the facts to him, drag in a hundred witnesses - he will still not change his mind.

* He twists facts to suit himself and sometimes "rewrites history" to match what he wants to believe.

* He has a natural tendency to believe the worst about people.

* He is an extremist and fickle. He can be absolutely loyal to someone, sing their praises and defend them to the death - then at the slightest disappointment, turn on them completely and in an instant.
* His conversation is often about criticising someone else or running someone else down. When he does this, it is with an air of authority, as if he really knows what is going on inside that person - better even than they do. He knows exactly what their "problem" is, as well as the solutions.

* When not engaged in criticism and gossip, his conversation revolves around himself: his thoughts, his life, his feelings, his attitudes, his woes, his ailments, his achievements, his cleverness. Me, I and My.

* He will ask you how you are, then carry on speaking before you can answer, or cut you short and speak over you.

* If you speak loud enough and he is forced to listen (or because someone else who doesn't know the real him is around), you can see that he is not listening at all. He is distracted, possibly looking around and shuffling, or nodding his head too vigorously to speed you up. Perhaps he has simply gone glassy-eyed. You get the distinct feeling that he just wants you to shut up so that he can speak again.

* When he responds to something you have said, it is often either just a kind of grunt -- or it seems over the top.

* On the few occassions that he does praise you or acknowledge something you have done, it will normally be condescending, grudging, sarcastic or as a back-handed compliment.

* What he says and what he does seem like two opposite worlds.

* When he is with outsiders he is such a charming, friendly man. People tend to like him and admire him and you are amazed at how rational he is with them.

* He is very possibly a pillar of society and looked up to by those who deal with him but are not close. He may be in a position of leadership.

* He goes on at length and with quite some passion about things that he himself does. For example, loudly complaining about men who abusing or cheating on their wives and speaking about what harsh punishments they should be subjected to - then going home and abusing & cheating on his own wife.

* He knows how to do everything better. He could do that job better, run the organization better, run the country better…..

* He knows the answer to all of the worlds biggest problems... if only someone would listen to him/ finance him/ whatever.

* He is a victim of everyone and everything: those in authority over him, his family, his circumstances, his health, his past. He is a victim and a martyr, period. What other people accept as part of life, he takes as a personal affront, if not attack.