Trapped @ MindSay

someways I feel trapped by our love
walls inexplicably planted by unmentionable time
time summer moon spring sun winter clouds
sometimes staying is evening and leaving is morning
the promises of cities blacken and enlighten
light hallway bulbs tv shows nightstand lamps
somedays leaving is calling and staying is mourning
pressure catatonia paranoia months and months and
(months and months and months and years
and) number taking score keeping rule setting
avoiding the voice because the voice seeks to call
circumspect maneuvers acrobatic in nature
descriptive of the nature of bitter conversation
the hawk the field mouse blaming each
for conduct unsporting (dark corners daring
) somewalks break spirits without sweats
days make nifty cells, nights make blatant well
breakfast loves and unsporting suns
each day harder and harder to break
plant hammer summer sing drummer runner
somemorns come fast and some breaks come hard
walls inexplicably
someways I feel

-Thomas Hardy Mann III

It seems they are giving up on the rescue. I can understand why they wouldn't want to risk more lives when they are not sure if the miners are even still alive or where they are. That must be a difficult decision. I don't really understand why they don't know where the miners were working. Do they not organise the workplace in mines? They don't have set shifts? They don't know where the coal is? And even with all that...are there not walkie talkie/GPS/radios that will work underground? Even for a limited distance? Seems to me like there should be something that would at least work in the tunnels. So they would know where the miners are if nothing else. Is this too expensive? Did no one think about it? Have they tried?

Someone please explain this to me. Thanks.

swimming around my close confines

my nose pressed against the glass

ive searched my prison a million times

no hope for escape

 

i breathe in the water

though i know im drowning

i stop my struggling

and rest on shiny rocks

 

i see others walking around freely

happy in their own decay

they're eyes never quite see mine

and then they walk away

 

 

I have a migraine from last night, Cal's parents are pissed and said something about if I were to break up with or cheat on Cal that they would reposess everything of mine in the house and my CAR! (His dad got me the loan for my car, and the title is in his posession) I'm just confused on what to do...I feel trapped :(

I need to talk with Cal to see if that's what they said...it's extremely stupid.  I'm wayy too tired to talk angrily today, the migraine prevents me from doing so, I feel languid....-.-

Okay, talked to Cal and his parents were just blowing off steam, I feel much better now :)