Toothache @ MindSay

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Today, my dad bought me a black ink cartridge for my printer.

Today, my mam bought me a tube of PVA glue for my Textiles coursework.

Today, my nana bought me a four-pack of Lovehearts candy.

Lovehearts are small fruit-flavoured candies that seem to melt in your mouth.

On each one, there's a message.

There used to be few messages in them, and you'd get the same message a few times in the same packet.

Between these four packets, I haven't had a single duplicate message.

I think the American version of these sweets are called Sweethearts.

Lovehearts are made by Swizzels Matlow, if you were wondering.

A great sweet company - very high in sugar content.

I'm going to use them to send a message to my special friend, whom I love.

Emily:

"I love you." "Hold me." "Be happy."

"It's love." "Forever." "Trust me."

My poor poor neglected blog!  Highlights to finish up my year:

• Went to my sister's house near Savannah for Christmas weekend.  My sister that lives in Germany flew in Sunday evening, and we had a great weekend catching up, gift giving and eating!  Well, I ate a little, slowly...of course my toothache began again and I was miserable and in pain. On a richter scale  of 1-10 I was registering at least a 12+. 
• Figured it out that it was a tooth ache and not jaw pain from the accident. 
• All dentists are in bermuda this time of year. I finally got in to see one on Thursday, a clinic of denture wearers, walkins.  I got there at 8 am, and was finally seen at 1145 am... for the dentist to tell me that I have one broken tooth on the bottom right, broken way down at the root, one broken tooth on the top way into the root underneath the gums...and my 2 wisdom teeth on the bottom are impacted and infected. Yep. Owie.
• Antibiotic is helping drop the pain level. Scheduled for extractions Thursday because of course 1-have to wait for infection to subside and 2-they have to come back from bermuda or wherever dentists congregate over the holidays. Together. All at the same time. Like we are all supposed to NOT have dental issues for 2 weeks.
• I only worked friday and one client this morning. The rest of the week I was a bear.  Hibernating on a heating pad and hot water bottle.
• I am DETERMINED that 2006 be a year of HEALTH. 
• I turn 41 tomorrow. Well, technically in about 2 hours. Happy birthday me! :)
• Hubby came home today with pink carnations ( I prefer carnations over roses actually!) and a balloon and took me to dinner tonite at Chilli's. I ate too much garlic. Funny most of my pain is not in my mouth, but down in my jaw and neck.

I miss chatting with you guys! 

Love and Laughter,

Dawn Marie

9:45 pm 11/08/05

after my chiro appt yesterday, I went and spent a couple hours with a girldfriend.. we talked, we laughed, we cried, we worked it..let me tell you.. then we prayed... I went home feeling encouraged, yet very tired.. and climbed into bed at 8 pm... She called me the next day..she too hit the sack at 8...

While our 'prayer' time was only about 10-15 minutes at the end, the talking, the breakthrus and neww levels of awareness were highly intense for me. Some revelations about my past, how its tied up with me now, etc... just incredible, and I feel like a baby christian.  But God says .. "Dont despise small beginnings" and something about not forgetting ones roots...

I had 3 clients today..pretty much my max lately, back was running about a "2" today.. arm and shoulders "2" and little to no hand tingling!  Toothache...was hovering all day.. and by 430 full blown throb, that even a darvocet wouldnt touch..

My husband was able to go to the support group meeting up at Lake Lanier.  Tonite happened to b a recipe swap... lots of tasty foods.. he tried them, I couldnt with this mouth of mess. 

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830 am wed 9, 2005

Up and ready to go to the ortho today for my test 'results'....I elept with my hot water bottle, did a few gargling treatments, but not even the combination of ambien, tiredness, and darvocet x 2, could keep my teeth from hurting.  I know they are a mess from the last round of dentistry I had, in FACT the upper right one that is bothering me, is THE one I originally went to the dentist for...but he decided to go after the one on the left, cause it was 'worse' even though it only hurt when began poking and manipulating it.  I guess he made sure that I would have a reason to come back to him.

But alas...I have to put it in God's hands, my healing, our finances, my pain, the rent, I am simply taking it off of my shoulders and trusting in him.

He and I were talking this morning, He led me to read Joel chapter 2:13-14...I took it to heart. After W/we had worked thru that (til I felt a peice come over me) I glanced over at Joel 3:9  saying.. its time for war, prepare, let those who are weak say they are strong!

I said, ok, God I am choosing to trust in You.  And He revealed to my heart why I have such a struggle each time I have to trust Him:  I don't feel worthy of Him continuing to do good things in my life, I feel like at any point He is just going to throw up His hands and say.. ENOUGH ALREADY, I feel that He is just going to let me wallow in my own "bed" that I have made for myself over the years with the choices I have made.

He said, That is man, that is how men have treated you... I will never give up on you Dawn.

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Ok, off to the ortho.

Ended up getting a cortisone shot in my right wrist this morning, that stung, but he said it should bring some relief, begin to let my neck muscles relax and I should begin to see overall healing.

Probably, since I have had several pretty good days in a row now.. where my pain as far as my neck and back are concerned have been between a 1-3.  Encouraged.

I just got home, had my chiropractic appt this afternoon, after a 1 hour massage. The girl that worked on me, doesnt work as deep as I would like, but she has a good touch, and I feel good afterwards. 

My teeth are killing me, so I have begun taking an antibiotic, which is ok in the scheme of the gastric bypass process, cause I am scheduled for the Dr and the test on Nov 30th, so as long as I am off the antibiotic by the 16th.. all good to go..and she seemed pretty confident that if all systems go, Dr approval, psych eval, etc.. this actually COULD happen before the end of the year.. how about that?

I guess I am not going to church cause a: everytime I open my mouth, the whole right side throbs, and b: took a darvocet on an empty stomach and I am feeling woozey.. So going down to make some campbells chunky soup for my dinner, hubby is driving somewhere in Florida.

says the bad bug man, "I hope so" replies Gil of CSI.

I like this response, because I think he meant it.  My son's ex gf called me to tell me that he had been calling her and threatening her and being very very nasty to her. Each call escalated, til she finally called him back.

I told her that was exactly why he kept calling her cause he knew eventually he would wear her out, and she would cave in...whether it was 10x, 20x or 50.  My advice: Delete all calls, don't listen to them, go get a restraining order, tell her parents the truth, get copies of phone records where he calls multiple times and keep files.

Called hubby, just to ask him to call shawn, tell him to lay off of her, and tell him we advised her to get a RO.  He told my hubby basically to F' off..that we didnt care about him getting mugged, so why should we care about anything, etc.

I know why he is saying things such as we don't care, we are awful people, etc..'in my head' but it still hurts my heart.

Speaking of pain, my low back today was not too bad, after Physical therapy, it was a little stiff from all the stretches then the ice, but overall about a "2-3", my hands have been tingling pretty bad today..but no worse than others..so I will give that a scale of "4-5" today. Toothache that has been creeping in all week, top tooth and a bottom tooth on the right side of my mouth, will give that a whopping "9-10".  Go figure.

Hubby said he should be back from Myrtle beach area tonite, around midnite-2 amish.. I will be zonked hopefully...as I just took a lortab and ambien.. this time for my toothache not accident related at all.

The bariatric nurse called me this afternoon, asked me some questions pertaining to my application..and instructions for my next steps til the meeting on Nov. 16th.

-Allow for the meeting to last 2 to 2 1/2 hours

-They will take pictures that day

-They will give me a to do list

-An appt with surgeon will be made

-Meet with Dietician and they will get me started

-Meet with Sleep representative-apparently sleep apnea is a big issue BEFORE surgery and has to be dealt with. I dont think I have that.

-Meet with exercise representative

-I have to attend a support group of those who have had RY surgery before the actual surgery. They have 9 meetings a month, so I will be able to fit a meeting in I am sure. Maybe next Tues. They meet every Tues, every 1st and third Thurs and a Sat morning.

-I have to get a report of my wieghts over the last 3 years from my former physician.

-I have to get a letter from current primary care giver that they will support my aftercare, that they recommend the surgery, that with my back issues and diabetes etc that I am medically sound to withstand the surgery.

-Apparently I have to have some test that I cant hvae used antibiotics or antacids for 14 days prior, so once they call me with a Dr's appt date, to monitor that usage. If needed I obviously have to use antibiotics, but it would mean a delay in this test. Antacids-never take 'em... get heartburn occasionally, but usually burp my way thru it.. ( lol! Sorry for the visual!)

So it appears that this step is over with, I do hope my former Dr will cooperate and send me the wieght charts since I began attending there.  She is a persnickety thing. And one of the reasons I left her practice.  I dont think they can legally withhold medical records tho!

Ok, I now know every home remedy that is out there for toothaches. My left upper tooth began to throb after I got off the phone with my employee at 10:45 pm last nite.  By midnite, my bottom left was also throbbing, as well as the back upper left.  Ever since I had that deep scaling back in the mid of May, I have been sensitive to hot and cold, more so cold.. and they gums were supposed to be healing and moving upwards to cover the exposed nerve roots. Not happening.  Of course my bodys immune system HAS been busy fighting other things, like..erm.. umm.. the back surgery.  I sure do hate to even present all of my ailments, I physically sound like I should just be put out to pasture! LOL!

• Clove-Didnt try this one, as I didnt have any cloves in the house at midnite.
• Heat=OUCH! OW! OWIE!
• Oral Rinse=Using a qtip, just swabbing and putting pressure, gave relief as long as I had the qtip on the area...Did that for about 1/2 hour
• Salt water rinse=gag, but did it.
• Moist Tea bag=Put that sucker in my mouth, and thought.. ooooh.. who would have thought a tea bag could be so distasteful!  Did that for about 10-15 min
• Cold compress=ow as well, but I applied it to the jaw and the accupressure point, and it began to quiet down by now..
• Massage=Tender, but made me feel like I was doing something.  I did work on the Accupressure points, on my hand, my jaw, and my ankles..

Went to bed at 3 am, still in pain, but lessoned by now.. whether I shocked my mouth into submission with all the variety of stuff I thru at it... This morning, its there, threatening, but not full tilt and I am going to call the dentist and get an appointment. Would rather go see a murderer on death row.