Today Sucked Kinda @ MindSay

so, the only french teacher here at EHS got an offer in Wyoming to be an ESL helper.
and her son, Quintin, who's only four and has been having a lot of problems with speech and hearing, is the reason she took it.
they have more programs for him. more ways for him to get help. and less travelling and missing work for her. which is good.

but she's leaving for Wyoming. and she was really nervous telling us today.
and i think i kinda made it worse because i was going to be her aide next year and i asked her who i was going to t.a. for next year.
she kinda sniffled and said she didn't know.
D:

this is sad.
we're throwing a party for her.



in other news:
A's birthday. i got her a chai, 15$ gift card, and a cute hat.
or i thought it was cute. not sure if she thought so. its green and it says "earth day is every day". i liked it.

my "computer literacy" teacher is head of War Whoops. which is the longest running radio show in the state of Nevada and is hosted by students at my school. it's just a club, basically. but it takes 5th hour also. i'm like her favorite in first hour so she kinda forced this application on me. it's cool though. i actually thought about it and i think it might be fun. i think it'd be cool to learn about manipulating sounds on a computer or something. that'd be cool. :D

mr. long wants me to be head of video next year for yearbook. the original plan was to help tayler and ashlee do picture editing and layout stuff, but i guess we need someone to do video. i don't think i'd mind but that would mean spending the rest of my time this year in that class talking with ERIN.
and she's just a fucking ray of sunshine.

okay. so today. sucked. my parents found out i met jimmy on myspace. so im like....grounded. and dont get to see him. or talk to him. and it really sucks. so yeah. no more.

Hey whats up? Not alot here just trying not to scream.I found out some bad news today that kinda threw me.It was bery unexpected.Well any ways roxy is coming home sometime tomorrow and I hope to see her before she gets grounded again. Her internet isnt working anymore so it will be a whilr before she updates unless she uses my computer.Work is going fine I guess.I am a telemarketer again.lol. I think its a bunch of crap. I wish my life was just a little easier than it is now. Well thats all for today be back soon.

I HATE DRAMA!!!

 so today was nice...kinda. i have a problem though. Tim seems to think he could tell me what to do or who i could talk to. He expects me to go and tell him everywhere i go and every thing that i do. Which i think is bullshit because im not even going out with him. When we broke up he asked if i wanted him to pay my phone bill..and i thought to myself ..."more money for me" so i said sure if you want to keep paying for it. So, i discovered that he gets my phone bill then asks me who i've been talking to and what numbers are on my phone bill. fucken bullshit! For example, i've been talking to this guy i've known for quite a while but never really talked to him until now. he's really awesome. Eli's his name. We went out today...just dinner and the park. i wouldn't think he was that type of guy because he looks all tough and straight forward. But today i met the soft side to him. he was very nice and i had such a good time that i kissed him. So, you know i got to my appt (where richie is staying) and i get a call from tim...he says "where were you? i just saw you get home and some guy dropped you off" so i was like "yeah, so? i do have a life you know?" then i said "what the hell are you doing stalking me?" (imagine what he would have done if he knew richie was in the appt) so he gets Eli's number that he has on my phone bill from last month and calls him and says a whole bunch of shit to him ...he tells him that we are still together. Then, Eli calls me and tells me this...he was very understanding and listened to me explain. He understood the situation and left it alone. but tim kept going at it and he continues to call...right this moment. i just dont think my love life is any of his business anymore and he should back off!

  On the bright side of things...Eli told me lots of nice things ...he said how beutiful, gorgeous and stunning i was...at that moment i was like wow! but then again it's typical coming out of a guys mouth when he's on a date. We are supposed to meet for lunch tomorrow but, forst thing in the morning i'm going to go to tim's place and get this stupid thing he has in his head all sorted out.

  As for richie...he has been staying with me and it's been great. he has a job and helps me with the payments but i really dont need it...he still insists. nothing has been going on between us although i know it going to sooner or later. he's like my rooomate now and he knows the i go out on dates and he's fine with that and doesn't flip out. We hang out just us sometimes or with our friends. Sometimes i wake up and find him laying there on my bed next to me. but i dont mind... i feel bad because he sleeps on the couch. When he wakes up before me he kisses me and gets up ...i dont open my eyes or say anything. i pretend i dont know.

 

 

it's been fun though. i haven't talked to Shawn in a few days but that's ok...he'll probably call in a couple of days....he always does.  

I will let you guys know what happens with tim and why he's doing this.

        just let me know what you think of this.

 

 

 

I have an exam today. And two essays are due today. It's the final day to submit them. If I don't, I fail. But you know what? I'm not going to. I've just been so drained. Everything has this major suckyness of suckness to it. Like majorly. This weekend sucked. These past few weeks sucked. Uni sucks. That really really shit thing that happen on the weekend sucked. The shitty customer I had at work sucked (to the max). I'm just sick and tired and just want to go to sleep. I can't concentrate anymore and I just, urgh. I just don't know what to do.

 

It's just one of those days. I want to rewind the last two years of my life and live them a bit better, realise things a lot sooner, worry less and learn a bit more. Urgh. I suppose it'll all clear up after today.... I think.... I hope.... Fuck it all. I stab you with fork.