Today Not Bad @ MindSay

Today was a semi-good day. If I was a little more awake it would have been waaaaaaaay better. I was up from 1:20 am untill about 6 am...Sucked really bad!!!

I realized that Eric and I just ad a couple bad days...all leading off of thursday last week..Today was pretty good. So crazy...Friday will be 6 months. Half a year...I don't think anyone knows how happy I am that I am with him. There are so many people I could have had and I chose him because he is different from the rest. I love him and his almighty nerdiness!

GOOD DAY TODAY!

today was the mathematics exam. boy, didnt i go great. not!

i thought i was so prepared for it; i knew all of the formulas and had done so many past papers over the last few months. i was confident. but did all of my months of study pay off? no, no it didnt.

i cared about this exam too, so it makes it even more worse. i didnt care much about english and i thought i did really well in the exams. so do i not care for the rest of my exams and i will go well?

i did so bad today that i could of cried, and i did, i did cry. i felt so bad, because one exam could jeporadise my whole hsc mark and determine whether or not i get the needed uai. i am sure i failed, not doubt about it, so i doubt that did any good to my mark.

im sure now, that i will not get the required uai to get into wollongong university. im not so much motivated to study heaps anymore. why bother if i just fail?

but hey, i guess if i never studied i would have done worse then fail.

my maths exams arent over yet either. i have to do maths extention on wednesday and that should be a whole lot better, not! if anything it will be worse! so pretty much i am already screwed, if i didnt go well in 2 unit, how the hell am i going to pass 3 unit. the answer: im not.

i guess it is a sure fail, even before i step into the exam room. "i can fail before i even try."

but i will still study, and i will probably feel as confident with it all as i did for 2 unit, but that's what makes it hurt more; when i do go bad and i know that i studied my heart out.

people say "as long as you do your best." but you do your best and you fail. not much of a best if you fail. and not much of confident booster.

damn markee and kevin came over today and damn i already have to go to bed And i just barely got on the computer and markees just barely leaving but ive felt a little bad today since i got that message from shelbi. And I Dont Know Iam Just Tired And Damn I Need To Go To Bed So Night.

Hey all. What is cracking?

I mowed Mrs. Armstrong's yard today. Oh and she's no relation to Joel. But anyway it took me 2 hours to do her yard. And my calfs hurt so bad. Like REAL bad.

Joel was being really goofy today. It was really fun.  I love him so much. But it was funny. I got outta vball ready to kill somebody. Kristen was being all snooty and was back talking me and It was pissing me off majorly. So I walked up to Joel and I started to complain about how I hate it when people who don't know what the hell they're doing backtalk me. And I'm older than her....that really mad me mad. She has no clue as to what she's doing out on that court and I tell her and Then she makes me to look like the bitch. I know how to play the game thatnk you and she could learn a few things.

But other than that.....I went for a walk w/ Olivia. It was fun. Had conversations that were interesting. It was fun. I have to pick up mulch tomorrow and then we're going to clean Mel's.

I have field commander on tuesday. Kinda nervous....

TTFN

I love you so much........no matter what.