Talking To People @ MindSay

We must then begin to erase our old concepts and come ever closer and ever more critically to the people. Not in the way we got closer before, because all of you will say: "No, I am a friend of the people. I enjoy talking with workers and peasants, and on Sundays I go to such and such a place to see such and such a thing." Everybody has done that. But they have done it practicing charity, and what we have to practice today is solidarity. We should not draw closer to the people to say: "Here we are. We come to give you the charity of our presence, to teach you with our science, to demonstrate your errors, your lack of refinement, your lack of elementary knowledge." We should go with an investigative zeal and with a humble spirit, to learn from the great source of wisdom that is the people.

-Ernesto Che Guavara

I worked a double last night and it never fails, with a full moon comes full moon calls. Have you ever spoken or watched someone that was a little touched, or off the on ramp. I take their calls and as with as people are to label them as crazy I often ask myself what if we are wrong and they can ACTUALLY hear voices. What if they can actually see people that we can't see and we tell them they are crazy, they need to take their meds and be honest about what is going on.

I can count a million different ways I would rather go than to go crazy. Now I don't mean dementia or bipolar, my grandmother has dementia and some days she has a lot of venom and her words can be a little hurtful, but I convince myself her attacks are not personal and I simply need to accept what I don't understand and let her go through it hoping the next day she is back to her normal self. I also don't mean bipolar, I think that there are way too many people that are diagnosed with being bipolar because a doctor doesn't want to deal with the problems instead of the symptoms. No I am talking about the mother that kills her child and said the voices told her to. I am talking about Son of Sam and that stupid dog. What if they really see this stuff and here I am telling them to go past the ghost and open the door for the officer.

Last nights call was one that occurs every couple weeks and I know why I find it hard to look past, the caller sounds and acts like grandmom. Well over 90 this woman calls at least 4 times a month and her concerns can range from someone ringing the door at 2 am and her not being able to see them, to a man on the top of the house trying to come in through the roof instead of the door or window. You can hear the fear in her voice and when she first started calling you could hear the pity as she said you think I am crazy don't you. I try to calm her down until we can get a officer to the house as well as one of her children.

We are not supposed to have relationships with callers that have the appearance of being unprofessional. We are not supposed to pray with callers whether they ask you to or not. We are not supposed to make false promises like "we are going to take care of this.

We are not supposed to do a lot of things that will make them feel better that may cause the situation to worsen, but like I said WHAT IF

i'm kind of getting tired of people talking like they're above others. and of people that think they're smarter than others. and also of people that get off on insulting people with differing opinions.



just my thought as i'm cruising all the forums. i'm seeing it everywhere. it's really disgusting. and not to mention incredibly annoying.

I forget when my last actual update was. That's kinda sad. I think I shall remedy this right about now.

I quit my job about a week ago. I put in my two weeks about a week ago, expecting them to give me about the same hours I've been working for the full two weeks. But apparently, I over estimated them. Apparently they treat their employees like dirt. Ooh the fun. The first week wasn't bad, cause the schedule was already made and then for this week, they put me on for 5 hours. 5 HOURS!!! And on a new pay period. So I said screw this, you guys suck and told my manager I wasn't coming in for my shift. He understood. It was just the store manager that's a total idiot. Seriously. Thank god I left.

I left for good reason though. Even though I was sick of working there (which personally, with the way they were treating me, was enough) I quit for good reasons. I got another job. Good hours, three dollar an hour pay raise, some holidays off, benefits, more raises in 6 months, steady job, ect. Good job. I'll be working in the Deli at Raley's. So whee!

Yesterday was a bit like torture. I wasn't paying attention and forgot to eat. And that leads to bad things. I got a bad headache, ate, took some aspirin and then a hours later, I had another headache because I forgot to eat again. Sometimes I hate having to eat every couple of hours, but things like what happened yesterday showed me why I eat so often. So I was feeling like utter crap and B reminded me that we had special tickets to go see the Bourne Ultimatum at the new Galaxy theaters. We went off to do that even though I was still feeling sick.

The new theaters are shiny and we got to sneak peek their 3D movies. We even got free 3D glasses! They weren't the cheap paper red and blue glasses either. They're made of some dark lens that makes the screen 3D using certain film. We got to see the trailer for Beowulf, which is going to be in 3D as well as 2D, and OMG *orgasm* It looks like it's going to be great. Not to mention in 3D. And they're also doing a 3D U2 concert movie thing there as well and I told B I want to go to it just cause it's 3D. Well, that and I like U2. But really, the new theaters are awesome. I want to go see more movies there. I'm so happy dinky ol' Carson has something cool like that now.

And then Bourne started, and I don't know if it was because I was sick or not, but I really didn't like it all that much. The handcam was REALLY annoying. I know they want it to seem more realistic but do you really need a handcam when people are talking to each other at a table? And don't even get me started on the action scenes...you could hardly tell what the hell was going on. And since I was sick already, I spent much of the movie hunched over with my eyes closed. But the sound in the new theater is awesome. Except I had that whole headache thing. But the people are really nice. However, the movie, personally, wasn't that great. Maybe I'll enjoy it more when it comes out on DVD. *sigh*

I got the coolest underwear the other day but you really don't need to hear about that. I can be a bit of an underwear fanatic at times. It's an addiction, really.

So I spent some time over at Cristyn's and we got to talking. That's one of the main reasons I go over to her house in the first place. To talk. She listens or I listen and we get all of our gripes about money, love, relationships, friends, ect. Anyhow, talking to her made me realize that I'm not sure about B. I mean, we get along but as I was talking to Cristyn, I'm not sure he's the one I want to be with forever. I mean, we're going on our year anniversary and we're definitely good to each other but I don't know if we're good FOR each other? Like, I was talking to Kaley and I really think that when you're with someone and they really care about you, they should work with you to make life better for you and them, that they should work to make you better and not just the same. I want someone who'll take me out to have fun but also get out and excersise. Someone who cares about being healthy but not torturing themselves. I want someone who pushes me to be a better person and to get through school, to let me explore the world around me with me, who wants things I want. And after thinking about that, B isn't that person. I'm not saying this is grounds to break up right now but I don't want to feel old with someone. I want to travel still and I want someone who wants that too. I want to hike and kayak and get fit. I want to get an education and eventually, I'd like that person to settle down with me. I want someone who wants to marry and to have kids. But I don't need to feel old at 21.

I've been in a real funk lately with writing for my RP's. Like, I know I should but there's so much to do that I'm not sure where to start. For one thing, I'd really like the chance to grow Ali's powers a bit more. Though I've listed the hypnotizing lights as her powers, I've never used them so essentially, Ali doesn't know she can do that. It's a mix of her voice and the lights and she can make people stop, basically. And there's her holograms, which I've touched on, but I'd like to have her actually learn to make full body ones. And speaking of Ali, I think it would be awesome to have that little "Mutant Side effect" that's going on in New Excalibur happen to her. 'Tis awesomeness.

Blink needs to learn how to write in English or get a translator. Seriously.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do today. Probably clean a bit but I should call Cristyn as well and see if she wants to hang out. Might spend some weekend time over there. We'll see.

EDIT: I forgot! I finished Harry Potter finally! Well, yesterday I finished it. I cried for like the last 60 pages cause I'm a baby like that. I liked it a lot, but I think she could have done a better job on the Epilogue. It was just like "Okay, let me