Sweet Guy Friends @ MindSay

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

so there was a drive-in movie today, so a few of us went to enjoy. we were chillin there sippin on some champagne and wine, pretty sweet time...afterwards we headed to the stardust room, a local bar thing. we had a few pitchers, and some how i managed to not even get a buzz!!! awesome-ness... so i was walking up to the bar and this guy comes up to me

guy: (as he grabs my arm) Hey, didn't I have you in a class before
me: ummm, i'm not sure, when?
guy: a while back, my name is matt
me: i'm sorry, i don't remember you, i do have a familiar face though
guy: i'm pretty sure you were my student, can you picture me without the hair???
me: matt davis???
guy: yeah, vanessa right???
me: yeah, wow, i didn't recognize you
guy: it's ok, how have you been...

blah blah blah blah blah, then he proceeds to tell me that i was his favorite/best student of the class. I got an A, so that was sweet, i knew there was a catch. we talk about life, school, family, small talk...he was like "do you come here often, because i haven't seen you around" we ended it off with him saying "you should come around more often, it was really good seeing you."

the funny thing is that i had him 2 freaken years ago!!! I haven't spoken to him or ran into him since that last day of class, and I didn't even have to take his final, cause i got an A on EVERY SINGLE paper i turned in. I also turned in all my papers the week of thanksgiving, yup all at once, and i still managed to get an A.

So yeah, that was my night. freaken toots irritated the hell out of me, i clearly invited him to watch the movie with us, and then he doesn't answer his phone and pretends that i never did. but i'm not kissing his ass anymore, so fuck it.

this effing guy kept trying to grab on me, which was very rude. he's such a prick. i hate arrogant guys who think that every girl they talk to is gonna sleep with them. only cause i let you lite my cig doesn't mean i'ma sleep with you....

babe and i kept texting for a while, i miss him sooo much!!! oh how i wish i had saturday off, so i could be at his place instead!!!

So I was walkin it out last night and I fell over...well this guy grabbed my arm and saved me from completely falling down. It was so wow...I just kind of looked at him and got lost in his eyes. He had gorgeous brown eyes. After that we just kind of talked and got to know eachother. He is a really sweet and nice guy. He asked me out on a date, but I had to deny him because...I have a boyfriend...He said, "Why don't we go out for lunch sometime and just not call it a date?" I told him I would get back to him on that...I need some major advice on what to do....AHHH...I am like pulling my hair out right now.

 

Someone please help me...What to do?