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Life sucks so much
Man things have been going so bad lately.
Life sucks so goddamn much.

First there was my mom dying.
That sent me into a depression spiral for at least four months.
Honestly I would've killed myself if i hadn't found the inspirational stories of endearment on this site.

And then i ran away from home.
Gosh that was a good idea. Nobody in my house understood me. Why the hell should I stick around anyway?!

Things were rough out there for a while.
I spent a couple of months out in the rain and came down with pneumonia.
They had to do emergency testicular surgery on me because some sort of infection spread to them.
The right ones ok though.
I don't even feel like a man anymore.
Was I ever a man?
After I got out of the hospital my aunt finally decided let me stay with her.
But shes a bitch.

They think that I'm gay just because they caught me in bed with another guy in our boxers before.
But we had just had a water fight and fell asleep on the bed.
We didn't want to soak through my covers so we had to take off our clothes.
And when i sleep i have to hug something and he was just there.
I didnt MEAN to do it, but yea....that makes me gay....god.

Then they started making up shit about how i have gay porn on my computer.
I DONT look at gay porn anymore,
That was just a phase,
My bastard uncle probably was jacking off to it and saved it in my settings or some shit,
Because he hates me,
I know because the other day when he walked in, and I said hi,
He didnt even say anything to me.
I mean, when I say hi to someone, they usually respond,
Unless they HATE YOU!!!!

And my cousin is such a bitch too.
She's always lording her boyfriend with the beautiful eyes over me.
Like yea, i can't get with anything.
She would be pretty hot too.
She would make an awesome girlfriend.
Does that make me awful?
Shes like a second cousin I think.....so that makes it ok right?

My girlfriend of 6 months broke up with me too with a restraining order.
She said no more hiding outside her house, or in her room,
And no more sending her vials of my own blood,
I can't send pictures of my penis anymore,
Or call her house and just breathe.
Her name was Sammy, but people call him Sam.

But its ok, im just glad to be alive.
Its so awesome, I just glory in the fact that I'm allowed to spend another moment on god's beautiful earth.

PS...my balls still hurt.
PPS...to any good looking guys out there my email is sfano345@aim.com
PPPS...my dad used to molest me in a spiderman costume and claimed that he got his powers from me and if he didnt do it then he would lose his powers and would never be able to save the day again.

I know this is rather unbelievable, but honestly, could I make this all up?
 
 
   
 

Smoky ...... ***coughs***
Smoky day in the neighborhood.  Burning eyes and throat the norm anymore.  Its going to be a long miserably smoky summer ..... craziness.

This mornings conversation with mom:

Mom:  Did you call Mary about bingo?
Me:  Not yet.  Where is her number I'll call.
Mom:  Second drawer.  Be nice.
Me:  I'll be nice.  **sighs & rolls eyes**

Me:  Done.  Told her I would not be back.
Mom:  You are not coming back?
Me:  Huh?  Yeah, mom, not going back.
Mom:  But you said you would if Betty N. apologized.
Me:  Yes, I did and she won't ..... so I won't be back.  Ever.
Mom:  Ok.


Will in ever end?  Or will she continue to rain guilt over my head?  Only the bingo gods know for sure.


Laundry today.  Petey is not his normal pain in the ass self yesterday afternoon and today ..... but he is not one you can poke and prod to see if he is feeling alright.  Its a good way to get your lunch eaten.  Sleeping now.  Hopefully that old energy level will return without having to haul him to the vet.

Looks like Thursday will be the day of return to the claim.   Dave has to work down river tomorrow on someones generator.  Lets hope they pay.  Wow that would be different.  Grrrr!  I drive B. tomorrow.  And will get paid.  Yay.

Ok ..... off to see whats up in the laundry room ..... exciting, no?

Peace.  J.



 
 
 

   
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Taxes totally take the fun and excitement out of a paycheck.



Especially the first one (which is already a lot smaller than any forthcoming, because of starting work halfway through a pay-cycle so we're only getting paid for working one week when we usually go two). Smiley
 
 
   
 

So Far..
    So far my summer has gone on in spiral of good, the bad, then a long period of depression. That jerk Josh dumped me. He left this summer to hang out with his mom till school starts again. But now, my mom has let my off of punishment from trying to run away.  I hate it here. My whole entire family makes fun of me. For my readers, I would love it if you can help me escape this sadness taking over my soul. It's so boring and annoying here. My dad wouldn't even listen to how I can help around the house for a new camera. I'm just so bored. I mean, summer is so "lazy to poets." I haven't even written a poem in 3 weeks. Also, if you can, check out my youtube page.
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