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PA free speech case reinstated
Topic: Political Correctness
Source: WorldNetDaily
A Christian evangelist's lawsuit against Philadelphia over police actions to restrict his free speech and religious expression has been reinstated by the 3rd U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals, which expressed in its opinion yesterday a grave concern about an "imbalance" in the jury instructions provided by the judge. [Ed.: if gays have free speech, then so should evangelists. Indeed, everyone should be able to speak freely.] (04/03/08)

UK, 1st human animal embryos bring opposition
Topic: Abortion
Source: Bloomberg
The creation of the U.K.'s first part-human, part-animal embryos may increase pressure on Parliament for tougher regulations on stem cell research. Lyle Armstrong and colleagues at Newcastle University made embryos using human cells and a cow egg, the college said yesterday in a statement on its Web site. Debate in the U.K. over the so-called hybrid embryos increased after Catholic leaders, in Easter sermons, attacked the technique used for making stem cells. (04/02/08)

  i thought this shit was over, but no, here i am again...missing him...wanting him...n i thought i was finally over it!

in the process of getting back into this blogging thing, here is a story i sharted w/ emo jimmy tonight on myspaceIM about a party that a few of us went to last weekend. I swear to you guys this is all absolutely true.

"Emo" Jimmy: umm so what's kim up to right now?
"Emo" Jimmy: have u talked to her?
me: probably fucking her bf
me: i have not talked to her yet. basically my way of talking to her is giving her that letter
me: cuz if i just straight up talk to her it will be DRAMA
"Emo" Jimmy: omg that reminds me... a couple days ago u posted a bulletin that said said "OMG, i just saw people fucking!" was that them?
me: its like i told u yesterday about how i can't say to her everything i want to cuz there's so much
me: no it wasn't
me: lol
me: let me explain
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god! who was it?
"Emo" Jimmy: this is interesting... LOL
me: well
me: me, ryan, gabby, n sarah 1 were at this party not this past saturday but the saturday before (the 17th)
me: n at first everything seemed cool
me: n then the four of us went outside for a bit n it started raining n we were all really stoned
"Emo" Jimmy: ok... go on.... lol
me: n we stood in front of the door to try to stay dry, n every time someone opened the door we noticed that the ppl in this one group dancing in front of the door had less n less clothing on
me: kinda interesting, but not too bad
me: me n sarah 1 got tired of standing outside n i was kinda like, "if we're leaving let's go n if not let's go back inside" n gabby wanted to stay n i did too so we went back inside
me: n we were hanging out in a corner in the living room away from the door n there was a topless chick n a naked guy
me: kinda interesting, but not that bad
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god! how was the naked guy? a hunk?
me: n then in all the ppl dancing i saw this one chik who was completely nude except for a black G string she had on n there was this other naked guy behind her n he was grinding up against her
me: n then i realized
me: he wasn't grinding up against her
me: he was grinding IN her!
me: he'd moved her black g string out of the way n was fucking her from behind RIGHT ON THE FUCKING DANCE FLOOR IN THE LIVING ROOM!!!!
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god was this like in full view of the living room?
me: yes
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god! no way! holy shit
"Emo" Jimmy: what was the reaction of the crowd?
me: n i guess one of the dude's friends pushed him over just to fuck with him (his friend was a guy) n then the guy went up to his friend n they started freaking face to face n the guy that was fucking still had a hard on!
me: well
me: the ppl that did notice tended to pretend it did't happen
me: unless u were super stoned like me n started freaking out, lol
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god how can ppl not notice a nude guy on the dance floor
"Emo" Jimmy: was the guy at least a hunk?
me: seriously, i was so shocked i was like, "THERE WERE PEOPLE FUCKING! I JUST SAW PEOPLE FUCKING!"
me: remember, there were two naked guys
me: n i did't think either were that attractive
me: but n e way
"Emo" Jimmy: LOL
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god that is such a trip
"Emo" Jimmy: lol
me: so i guess that girl put her clothes on n left or whatever, but there were still two other topless chicks at this point
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god were they like wasted or something?
me: n the other naked guy- the one that was naked when we first got inside- started fucking the first topless chick on the floor
me: the just layed down, pulled her pants down, n he started doing her right fucking there
me: i think they were wasted, lol
"Emo" Jimmy: WHAT! no way
"Emo" Jimmy: was this some kind of orgy party?
me: i mean i took only two hits off that fucking vaporizer n i was BAKED
"Emo" Jimmy: and when they started fucking ppl still pretended not to notice?
me: it wasn't when we got there! there was just a shirtless dude w/ a mohawk n then a guy wearing just jean short shorts! (he's the guy that ended up getting naked n did that chik on the floor)
me: i guess so
me: n it was weird
me: cuz this group was by the door
"Emo" Jimmy: was there alot of people at the party?
me: n we had to take our shoes off when we went inside, n it was scarey cuz they were closest to my shoes
me: lol
me: yea there were
"Emo" Jimmy: LOL "they were closest to my shoe"..... u afraid of any stray foreign liquid substances?
"Emo" Jimmy: lol
me: n george called me after the fucking broke out cuz him, john, n ryan's friend eric were coming n i was like, "George, there are PEOPLE FUCKING here, i DON'T think u wanna be here!"
me: XD
me: it wasn't that, it was more like the idea of having ass on them
"Emo" Jimmy: LOL
"Emo" Jimmy: im literally cracking up
"Emo" Jimmy: man that such a trip
me: cuz as we were leaving the naked guy who did the chik on the floor was bent over n u could see his ball sack hanging n everything
me: n the best part is that that guy is in one of gabby's classes
"Emo" Jimmy: after u told george that people were fucking did they hurry over or what?
me: so whenever she sees him now she thinx of seeing his limp dick flop around (cuz it was limp most of the time except when he was fucking. the other naked guy, tho, the one who moved that other girl's g string out of the way, had a raging hard on like the whole time)
me: i guess so, that's what george said
me: lol
me: i didn't think they believed me, but it was true
"Emo" Jimmy: did they see tho?
"Emo" Jimmy: oh my god i still stop thinking that this is such a trip!
me: i guess there was no more fucking after that, cuz we left shortly after n saw john, george, n eric coming up the street as we were leaving
me: but they saw the topless girls and the naked guys, lol
"Emo" Jimmy: oh ok
"Emo" Jimmy: haha
me: n i guess the topless girl that wasn't having sex started dancing w/ john n i guess he tried to make a move n she shot him down
"Emo" Jimmy: lol... sucker
me: n then some other guy started dancing w/ her n she apparently also has a boyfriend
"Emo" Jimmy: omg
"Emo" Jimmy: omg what drama
me: i guess
me: i dunno, i wasn't there for that, that's just what i heard from george
"Emo" Jimmy: oh ok
"Emo" Jimmy: well im gonna go cuz my sister needs to use the computer... but that story was a trip... thanks for the good laugh
"Emo" Jimmy: i needed it
me: lol
"Emo" Jimmy: and as a sidenote... dont forget to call bobbi twm... k?
me: i considered posting a bulletin explaining the situation but i figured that if ppl really wanted to know they'd ask, n besides we talked about it like all this weekend when we were out
me: lol
me: yes, i will do!

another interesting thing that happened while we were waiting outside was we heard a noice that sounded to me like a human skull bashing up against a wall, and it turned out that it was just this guy banging his fist/arm against a fence. (He was already REALLY fucked up when the four of us got there n we were there for at least an hour n this was after we'd been there for a while) he had a male friend with him who was apparently trying to comfort him, n then the fucked up guy yelled out in a very tortured voice, "Man it is SUCH BULLSHIT when i get SO FUCKING HORNY!" n then immediately and in a placid tone looked at his friend, held out his arms in an explanitory way, and walking towards him said, "I just wanna be your friend!"

far that is the oddest thing i have ever overheard from a conversation. Blow's Lewis Black's "if it weren't for that horse, i wouldn't have gone to college" right out of the water i think. (it would probably mean more if u guys could see me act out what that kid did rather than try to explain it, but w/e)

n i don't give a fuck if n e of u don't believe this story cuz i know its true n that's all that really matters.

oh, n apparently the guy who told me about the party told Gabby that the 1st guy i saw fucking is from Hawaii n "that's how they do it there"

whatever that means.

hope ur all well. :)

good night

laterz

i went over to Josh n Gabby's place n they were still watching Catch Me if You Can. (they is josh, gabby, john, ryan, and george) i asked when we were gonna to to Einar's, and originally the plan was after the movie was over. well, long story short, we didn't leave after the movie was over. some phone calls were made n then Ryan said he wanted to play another round of golf with Gabby on the Wii, n john called Nick n said he was gonna go to his house n then he was gonna go to Einar's. it was obvious that he was annoyed, but i kinda was, too. i was totally in a party mood now n i knew that all the jungle juice, (vodka n fruit bunch, n Einar makes the best possible mix of it in the world), was gonna be gone by the time we got there if we got there too late. Gabby got mad n said that John was an ass for leaving, n i wanted to say that i disagreed, but Josh spoke up instead. He said that he didn't think John was an ass for leaving n cuz he wanted to go n we weren't going. "But we're going to." "Yeah, but he wants to go now and we're not going now," i responded. i could tell she wasn't happy that i took john/josh's side instead of hers, but i have to agree that he wasn't an asshole for doing that. i wanted to go, too, n i considered leaving and going by myself. i'm not a beer drinker, n if i was gonna go to a party i wanted to get drunk n there wouldn't be n e thing for me to drink at this rate.

somehow it came up that there was some vodka in the freezer, n when measured out it came out to 2 and a half shots. i ended up making a mocha drink with it. XD it was milk, a hot coco packet, n then gabby poured in some coffee she'd made earlier that morning. she'd suggested pouring it back into the vodka bottle n shaking it, but it was too small n there was no way i was gonna get it in there without a funnel, so instead we poured it into one of those huge cranberry-rasberry jugs u get from Costco n i shook it in there XD it actually tasted really good! the mix was a little off, tho, it could have probably used less milk and/or coffee, but oh well. it was also really frothy from shaking it, but i thought that added character to the drink, hehehe.

once i was finished with that, we finally left for Einar's n i donated two bucks for a cup to get some jungle juice n then i saw this guy with an awesome bubbler n then he offered me some of the stuff in it, n who would turn down free weed? XD considering how stoned i'd been from that brownie Erin gave me the night before, u'd think i wouldn't have wanted to get stoned again, but i knew there was no way i was gonna be getting more jungle juice, (n i was right), so i figured i'd do this. what was weird, tho, is i wasn't feeling it n i figured that what was going to happen was because i was so fucked up the night before, that i could easily get fucked up this night and because it wouldn't be as much as the night before i wouldn't realize it. with this in mind, i figured that once the pot was out here even if i didn't feel like it, i was done for the night. ultimately i'm glad i thought of that because i was right. i ended up having a cup of beer later, which amazes me cuz i really don't like beer, n i might have had one more if i wasn't so full from the "Russian Mocha" that i'd had earlier, plus the Jungle Juice. sometime while we were outside i saw Ted, n i waved n said hi, n of course he pretended he didn't know me. *rolls eyes* he always does that- he's super friendly one moment, but as soon as he's around a ton of easier n prettier girls, you don't exist. w/e, see if i'll hang out w/ him this thursday, lol.

but our little group went inside for a bit, (josh had gone home early, so now it was me, george, gabby, ryan, n we ran into jon parker for a bit), n ryan kept standing really close to me. like, very uncomfortably close. n inside it was more understandable cuz it was kinda crowded, but he'd been doing it outside, too, so much so to the point that i started getting huggy w/ gabby, which usually happens when i'm really drunk, except i wasn't doing it now cuz i was drunk, i was doing it because it was the only thing i could think to do to get him to back off. n it didn't stop inside. at one point, tho, gabby touched my boobs again XD so this time i took Cindy's advice n i grabbed them back! lol. it was kinda funny cuz we did that for a while, n it was really interesting to me the way her tits felt. for those of u who don't know, i was a C cup by the time i was in 8th grade if not younger, and since then my breasts went all the way up to a 36D last year, n i think they're shrinking back down to a C now that i'm losing weight again. However, since i first reached C cup status, even when i got my weight down to 118lbs, i've never been smaller than a 36C. The only other girl's tits i've ever touched were also in the C cup range, but i don't think she was as big as me. I'm used to feeling large squishy breasts like mine. Gabby, however, is an A cup. it was weird, because in a way i liked the way small breasts felt in my hands. it was so different. i can totally understand why some guys like small boobs now, altho i am still quite happy with the size and consistancy of mine, hehe. i just wish they weren't so saggy :(

n e way, someone kept periodically turning the light off in Einar's n when that would happen i'd pull out my cell phone n start doing a light show XD the last one, which was when the light was off the longest, was probably the best one that i've ever done. it was so awesome, n Gabby called me a raver kid XD lol, good god, i wish! there was also a map on the wall behind us, n someone was looking at the map n pointing out where they were from, n then i saw the town "El Centro" on the map. i pointed at it n started yelling, "That's where Jimmy is!!" Gabby n i had been talking about how we missed n were worried about emo jimmy earlier that night before we went to the party, so seeing his tiny town on this map made me really excited. (even more excited than seeing the town we're in, Arcata, on the map XD i put a finger on each point n was like, "Wow, look at how far!" lol)

after a while that stopped n seeing as how none of us are really all that into hip hop, we left the party. we said bye to Einar n he gave both me n Gabby a kiss on the cheek, hehe. i kissed his back XD u all know that a year ago there is no way in hell i'd have had the confidence to kiss a hot guy on the cheek who'd just kissed me. yeah, i know, it didn't mean n e thing, it was just a friendly cultural thing, but i still hesitated on doing it back n figured, "what the hell, i have been drinking after all" lol. i always feel kinda nervous around Einar ever since i told him he has love handles, (which i barely remember doing) n i said it cuz i thought it was hot, but that's not the way he took it. :/ that was almost a year ago, tho, so he probably doesn't remember n if he does, it certainly doesn't seem like he holds a grudge. then again, i'm pretty sure he was pretty drunk at his part, too, lol. :P it still made me feel good tho.

on the way back me n gabby started talking about Ted again n how he'll be all nice to us one moment, but the second a prettier girl is around we become ignored. i'm actually not that offended because i realize that's just the type of guy Ted is and it only secures in my mind that much more that there's a goal he's trying to reach with me that i don't want him to reach. Gabby started telling me about one time when he was drunk right after her n Josh got together, they were leaving a party n then Ted came up to her, put an arm around her arm, n started saying crap about how they should have an open relationship n she should "come up to the Tedster's room" RIGHT IN FRONT OF JOSH. i told her about how i don't trust doing n e thing alone with him, n then she did another one of those little gabby things that drives me crazy, and not in the good kind of way. Don't get me wrong- i love gabby. she's so sweet and so caring, but she is a natural blonde. we've talked before n she's straight up told me that she feels bad that she can't understand my problems because she didn't have n e of the ones i had. she said she feels bad that she can't be there for me because she doesn't know how i feel. (to which i told her that i'm glad she doesn't understand because the only way one can possibly begin to is to experience it for oneself, n those of u who have been reading this for a long time know there are multiple "its" that statement can refer to in my life) she's admited to me that she's naive in all of that, so i don't mind agreeing that she is. and i've told her before that hearing the "r word" or hearing her talk about that around me kills me inside and destroys me because it makes me think about it, but what does she say?

"I heard he's a rapist."

Thanx gabby.

the thing is, i don't know if its because i was slightly drunk n stoned or what, but after the initial pang of the trigger, i was ok. i was able to brush it off n just carry on a conversation. "I wouldn't put it past him." she said she'd heard some rumors n i told her about some of the creepy crap he's done around me, n then the conversation was pretty much over. i started talking about how Ryan had been standing REALLY close to me at the party n that it was making me uncomfortable n she said she noticed. i told her that's why i was hugging her so quick n that i wasn't actually that drunk. i just didn't know what to do.

i was gonna walk home again, but Gabby told me that Josh could probably give me a ride since he'd offered to give us one from Einar's place, so i went back to their appartment n he gave me a ride. :) still being not sober, i made some mac n cheese, (not Kraft, Annie's) n watched three more episodes of Futurama, n then i fell asleep. (hence the, "i come home drunk n say, 'i'm gonna watch a DVD'" that i told to J when he came over Sunday night/Monday morning, hehe.) but sure enough, when i woke up later in the morning i realized that i'd been more fucked up that night than i'd thought at the time n i had a slight tummy ache, but it didn't last long. :)