Still @ MindSay

One day I will look back over previous entries and remind myself how fortunate I have been. Yes I would love to write that I have the house to myself, but I would be lying. I would love to write that I have kept a perfect attitude, knowing this is all going to be over soon, but that would be another lie.  What I have done in my absence is continue with the process of eviction, filled out more complaints of harassment and  made sure I protect myself, both physically and mentally.

So many things have occurred since my last entry that I don’t know where to begin, I guess I will simply give a list and be done with it.

Mr, Howard took the pleasure of urinating on a new sectional less than 10 feet from the bathroom

changed the locks to both his private entry as well as the door that leads from his bedroom to the living room

Finally figured out why the music was so loud, Mr. Howard decided to drill speakers directly beside the air vent in his room (go figure it of course go’s through the entire house).

Still no payment since May ( New Jersey has a cap of 3,000.00 for civil suits so don’t know if I will be able to get all money due as far as utilities/theft and damages done in he residence)

I could continue to go on, but no one reading this will be my judge and see in my favor, so I will do the only thing I can…continue to know that nothing stays hidden in this life and the truth always come out. Please continue to pray for myself and Mike Howard, our next court date is this Friday the 8^th. I am praying that the eviction will be enforced and this chapter in my life will be over.

FYI the Nina Simone and Smokey are great. I don’t take any chances leaving them loose in the house or the backyard after he let them out, but other than that they are great.

 

I thank you for calling out my name in times that I have wondered a little too far and my sight became blurry, there were no other guidelines or indications to point me back to my destiny.

I am appreciative for the countless moments I was forced to stand still and listen to lectures and speeches never completely hearing what your heart was saying until now. I was still a child then and as a child I thought I knew everything.

There are no words to describe the feelings as you held me when everything appeared to be at its worse.

A simple rub on my back or a smile in my direction or the words I love you.

I thank you Father, both here and there.

I thank you for being the ultimate father that will love me more than anyone else can imagine so much so that you gave me my own father

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Yep Yep!  I was varsety Jr high volleyball and basket ball.  And Varesity bball starting my freshman year, 1st string girls power lifting all 4 years with both sports.  Played on all the softball teams 2 years older then me when i was between 7-10 and we took districts and conference tournies and headed to state a few years too boot on the 16 and 18 year old teams:D  That is why I am having such a hard time dealing with my kids not being super jocky like me:D

Okay as a mom I want my son to have the best. I want him to have a father that is there for him and is in the house. But is it worth puting aside my morals for what I want from my partner? Okay heres the situation. My old man had feelings for another women and he was pushing me to have a 3 some with this person. Okay so him and this girl went out to a friend of ours property out in the middle of no where ( We were getting ready to go camping and we dont a have a car to take stuff out there). When they got there they unloaded the car and took things to the tent. It started raining so instead of walking back to the car they sat under the tarps that are up and talked. They got to talking about nipples and she told him that she had inverted nipples and he told her BULLSHIT and to prove it so she flashed him. He sucked on them cuz hes a guy and he LOVES boobs and they kissed but it was stoped. They came home and didnt say anything to me. She went home and told her partner(MY EX)but she had told him not to tell me so he didnt and I found out 3 days later from my Ex. When confronted with it he didnt denie it. My ex is trying to convince me that it was all his falt but it takes to to tango and I think that it is just as much her falt as it is his. I think that it is more her falt because she is the one who lashed him and why the hell would you do that to another womens man. But I just dont know what to do.

I'm really depressed. Saphyra, my tadpole, died. We had to flush her down the toilet.

The nice people at Grow-a-Frog gave me a new frog instead of tadpole. That would be cool. I'll name her Kelly.

When I'm done with my Grad Story I'll post it on here okay guys?

Rebekah