Soundtrack Of My Life Series @ MindSay

Even if it kills me
Motion City Soundtrack

I’ve got a lotta things to do tonight
I’m so sick of making lists
Of things I’ll never finish

I’ve lived here for the last 12 years
Since early 1995
all my shit has been in boxes

But if I had a little more time to kill
I’d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah you’d think that I would

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight

For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I wonder if I’ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for awhile
But then I kind of gave up

Winter is killer when the sun goes down
I’m really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I’m not saying that I’m giving up
I’m just trying not to think
As much as I used to

Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe I’ll get it right some day

For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But I’m learning to open my eyes

And the sad truth of the matter is
I’ll never get over it
But I’m gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

I sure want to get back on track
And I’ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me

~*~*~*

Almost autobiographical, if I may say so myself.

Nothing Without You
Vienna Teng
Dreaming Through the Noise

it's the quiet night that breaks me
I cannot stand the sight of this familiar place
it's the quiet night that breaks me
like a dozen papercuts that only I can trace

all my books are lying useless now
all my maps will only show me how to lose my way
oh call my name
you know my name
and in that sound
everything will change
tell me it won't always be this hard

I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are

it's the crowded room that breaks me
everybody looks so luminous and strangely young
it's the crowded room that's never heard
no one here can say a word of my native tongue

I can't be among them anymore
I fold myself away
before it burns me numb
oh call my name
you know my name
and in your love, everything will change
tell me it won't always be this hard

I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are.

~*~*~*
p.s. i have guitar tabs for this. want em? drop a line.