Sort Of @ MindSay 
i think i finally found mine.
...sort of.
My first blog entry in like 50 years! :o Holy crap!
Although I never got to have my Richard Preston bonfire (grr biology class), summer's been going well. :) I GOT A JOB AT DAIRY QUEEN THIS MORNING!!!! HECK YES!!! Sure, it doesn't open until roughly the 27th, but I'm gonna be the most enthusiastic employee they've ever seen!!!! ;P Oh snap!
Well, I've also been trying to rewrite my NaNoWriMo. I'm basing whether or not I decide to do it next November on how far last year's story progresses. I've got it printed out at Kinko's and all that. But it's a pain in the bum to even make a decent outline, since my first draft was sort of a make-it-up-as-you-go sort of thing. Yes, it's complete, but there are annoying little plotholes everywhere. Ahh well, I'll sort through it...somehow... Though rereading it is proving to be very interesting. Like the scenes I wrote when I was recovering from food poisoning...A talking pie, what the hell? XD The sad thing is, that ended up being my favorite scene. I don't know what that says about the rest of the story. ^^;
Oooh and I'm making a collage involving a large rainbow. I'm almost done with the green stripe now; I need more magazine paper pieces though. I'm actually really looking forward to the blue and purple stripes. I chopped up lots of cool textures for those. Yup. I'll be very happy once my job starts, yes I will...
Right now I'm reading Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman. I'm not done yet, but so far I'd totally recommend it. It's very inspirational/philosophical and sort of changes up your perspective on things. I also just finished Me Talk Pretty One Day (David Sedaris) which was HILARIOUS if not the slightest bit...innappropriate at times. XD Not for small children! Not to say that the whole book is like that, though. Just read it. And then there was Where I Want to Be (Adele Griffin) which needs to be returned to the library now, whoops! I liked the ending but trudging through everything up to the last few chapters just wasn't worth it. And it got confusing. Like people die and instead of telling you they jump ahead like a year and start refering to it in the past tense, where you discover that the last chapter (they switch perspectives) was actually written by someone not alive and blah blah blah. CONFUSION, AHHH!
Speaking of reading...I totally forgot about the pile of manga Ancha lent me....Whoops? ^^; I'm bad. Oh well. I guess I'll go start that now! Bwahahaha, manga...My long-forgotten friend...*evil grin*
That's all for now, I guess. :) Yay? You're all happy I'm done ranting, I'm sure. That is, if people actually read this. *assumes too much*
~Stephish
(P.S. I love comments!!!!! ^_^)
I'm in bed, reading a book. I glance at the clock, it is 6:33. Then, nothing.
Blank...Devoid. Total unawareness of the fact I've fallen asleep. I vaguely remember some sort of pseudo dream, nothing special.
It was when I'd almost woken up, there was nothing again, but this time a voice speaks from thin air.
..... " And That's Why Plates Don't Have Breasts" .....
After this, I was like... WHAT?!!?! This has gotta be dream!!
So I bolted awake and saw the clock said 7:33... Weird.
I wonder if it's a life's lesson or some sort of cryptic message.
I've got an idea in my mind to cheat on my now serious boyfriend, Garret. He's nice, too nice almost, but he is amazing, and i do hate to say it but, I love him. I wish i didn't because that would make things so much more easy than they are now. This is the first REAL relationship that i have been in that has that sort of all consuming, deep, want to see you everyday, fuck you every night sort of love. now dont get me wrong i have loved before, but not like this. Those were passive loves. But with garret, i hate it when he doesnt call me or touch me or something, i can barely stand not seeing him for two days at a time. and the reason i'm going to cheat on him? Fear, basically. What happens if it doesnt work out? of course it won't, i know this. I'm too young to think that this thing that i have with an amazing guy will last longer than a few months, maybe a year if i'm lucky, or should i say unlucky? If this lasts any longer, I'll get my heart broken, and i'm too much of a bitch already. there are only two ways it can turn out if we dont break up now:
A) I become a big, huge, massive bitch without any real emotions because i got my heart broken and who's to say it wont happen again. I'll become one of those women on movies that shelter themselves from people for fear of being hurt again. And i would hate that OR
B) i become some sappy, sad lonely girl who only thinks about things that could have been instead of what i could make of things now. I would hate that too.
So i find myself at a paradox. What to do?????
I think I'll cheat on Garret and get him to break up with me. Jack is definately willing to mess around with me.And i find Jack intriguing, sexy and he's a big asshole which has always been appealing to me. The only thing that could go wrong is i'll miss out on the only chance at love i've got. But i dont believe that there's only one person for everyone do i? and if i do is garret it?
On a completely different note, i found a sweet ass lighter, it's an ice cream cone.
Humid as hell out; it's supposed to rain all week here in Georgia; Melissa's out of town on business--this leaves me in charge of some of the decisions for the wedding such as...I don't know, I don't have the list right now. I'm better off not knowing at the moment.
I would love to focus on Mel and the wedding but work overflowing and pushing everything else on the backburner--sometimes even my meals. I can't remember when I ate last, still there is no way I could, I have no more space inside my head currently to inform myself that I am even hungry.
So...Can't talk about work. Not allowed.
Which pretty much defeats the whole purpose.
I can't focus anyway, let alone type right now.
...Sigh...I remember when ignorance was bliss--"government" meant just a bunch of white buildings up north.
Wrong.