Soccer @ MindSay

It's spring break. Spring break is always a hard time, cause I'm at home all day staring at the food. I just won't think about it. It doesn't deserve to be thought of. I'll just go make some tea..to fill myself up. And some water.

So my day started off like this; I woke up at 9, and then my friend called( I have a feeling she's anorexic, but I'm not going to say anything about it) to say that we weren't going to be able to meet bc one of my other friends has to do something family related.
OH SHOOT! I just remembered..my g-mas coming over for dinner, with easter candy, and I don't know how I'm going to manage to not eat. Anyway, I'll figure it out.
So then I woke up and had a 1)capoccino. about 100 calories.
2) about 2 bowls of shredded wheat. dammit. 550 calories.
soooo..about 650 calories. But then I have soccer practice this afternoon..always an intense workout,
Although I am afraid that if I lost weight too fast, I'll be too weak to play. Plus if I get mal-nurished. hmmm..
can't be helped.
I'm hoping to get my calorie intake down to 500 calories a day, with fasting in between. I can do it, because I have done it before. I know it.
So today I'm hoping to read this book "Cry the beloved country", and do homework, then go to soccer, then start on this huge history project. I'd also like to get in some core violin practincing, and piano practicing, and clean my room, and start writing a hymn for a contest( prize: 250 dollars; think about all the clothes I could buy with that! Of course, after I get down to 100 lbs.)

11:50 pm
Dammit. Shit. Stupid fucking grandmas and their stupid fucking Easter candy.

Group photo of last day of History before mock exams.

*By the way, my team won 4-3 against WAB yesterday. A little bit frustrated by the amount of goals conceded, but couldn't really do anything about them, as the coach hailed my performance as a "none of the goals were your fault."

Highlights of the game for me (in chronological order) was:
3-0 up when no.12 from the other team scored a spectacular top corner goal against me outside the box, think only Kahn or Cech could reach that, lol.

Clear offside not called by referee and I was beaten one on one by no.12, yet again.

Striker from the right flank (my left side) shoots from point blank range, I get my full right palm on the ball to stop it, but was powerless against the second shot as it bounced away from me, but another striker blasted the shot on the crossbar instead of tapping an easy goal in, got to thank luck and God for that one, lol.

Another attack from the right flank, another superb one hand save from point blank range, but this time, the defence were sleeping yet again and failed to catch up with the attack, and they tapped the ball in.

In terms of soccer, quite a frustrating week. Arsenal fell to their fourth consecutive draw, and guess what? Manchester United is sitting at the top of the table! What's worse is Arsenal is going to play Liverpool three times in a row for the two leg rounds of the Champions League and a Premiere League match. If Arsenal beats Manchester United, their going to most likely play Chelsea, and if Arsenal beat Chelsea, we might have a chance of playing Manchester United if they beat Barcelona :S Looks like the UEFA Champions League is going to be a one way ticket to the final by stepping on the dead bodies of fellow English clubs.

PSV drew, I still can't believe it. Farfan the man scored in the second half, and just when we thought PSV would withstand the pressure to win again, Roda JC scored an equaliser on the 92nd minute. So disappointing, because although Roda JC pulled everyone up for the corner kick (yes, that includes the goalkeeper as well), it was the defence's fault of not being able to clear the ball quick enough out of the box that costed PSV two points. PSV now only have a 4 point lead, and we're playing Ajax on the 20th O_o

Recently I've re-ignited my interested in lucid dreaming, and for a few occasions, I did realise I was dreaming in my dream. Failed in all the occasions to control my dreams as I did before (well actually I only managed to do that once, but it was a short lived lucid dream as the dream world crumbled under light of reality). It be cool if I can start to control my dreams soon, cause then I'd be able to extend my "working hours" while I sleep, since in my dreams, I, am the owner of my 4 dimensional world, being able to alter every single part of the dream, and have the ability to control time.

Went to the orphanage yesterday, was a fun trip as usual. Its great to know that the kids know know me, cause I get random whacks and smiles from the kids at the place. Yue Yue is still as jolly and chubby. We crashed the Korean restaurant after the trip, and I got my Vitamin B drinks :D It was also fun in another way, cause MC was with us as well. One interesting thing I saw during our trip was MC without her glasses. Last time me and MC were at the orphanage together, her glasses were off for a brief moment of time when a kid took it off, but she quickly re-gained possession, so I didn't get to see a clearer view. This time, it was kids instead of a kid, so she was kind of fighting for the glasses while having fun, and its probably the first time I saw her properly without glasses.

Its always weird to see people who wear glasses all the time to take their glasses off, cause in your memory you only treasure the image of them wearing the glasses. I guess I was a little bit shocked when I saw her without glasses, but nevertheless, she looked beautiful to me even without the glasses.

I think I'm out of gas and motivation to continue writing this entry :/ One thing I have to add, is that the last time when I was enlightened by Ms N during Regen, she mentioned that God wanted me to look up things related to "me" in the Bible so I could fully understand what God wants to tell me. Ms N showed me the passages where the name "Stephen" appears, and apparently, in the Acts, Stephen was a holy man who was filled with the Holy Spirit, but he ended up getting stoned by criticising those who condemned him for blaspheming with stories of the Bible, even though he didn't commit the act of blaspheming. It kind of gives me the creeps, cause is God telling me that I would have to sacrifice myself for something "big"?

I don't really fear death, but I'm not quite sure if I'm able to digest what I learned and actually become ready for what's coming up for me. Maybe that's why we are humans, cause we aren't actually afraid of the process of death and what comes up after we die, but it is the ties and bonds with the modern world that cause us to fear death, as we lose "everything" and cause people around us to suffer and cry.

Was just checking my e-mail, and then *kaboom*, there was an e-mail from Cauliflower. So I was like "first time she sent me an e-mail" and I opened the e-mail, and inside the email she said she would coming to China on a school trip, and wold visit Beijing for a few days. She asked if I could meet her up in Beijing, and I'm like "cool shizzle man!" Considering the fact I haven't seen her since Year 7, and that she's the only person I actually keep in touch with out of all of my friends who left Yew Chung, I'd probably would visit her "no matter the cost".

Its been such a hectic week, with an all out Physics test coming up tomorrow, a science test on Monday, a 6-4 win against BISS on Monday ( was a fun game, did an Oliver Kahn  diving save,  Van Der Sar reflex save against a point blank shot, and a couple of other fancy shizzle), essays, poetry analysis, being Stefen... you know, all the typical stuff that doesn't look like things that would actually make you busy.

Its funny how things are playing out with me and MC. We don't really actually talk that much, cause I seriously don't like using the phone, its like talking to a wall that talks back to you because your hallucinated or something. Once your done with talking to the wall and get all pumped up and sh*t, you end up suffering from post telephone depression because you simply don't talk that much once your back home. One thing I seriously don't enjoy doing, is probably talking to MC when satellites are orbiting around her. Maybe its an act of being selfish, but to some extent, all I want is just her, not accompanied with any satellites, debris, space junk, twin planets or what so ever. So now that I don't get many "chances" to talk to MC, she seems to be the one thats creating all the chances to talk. Every time I see MC walking by when I go to ICT while she gets out of Chinese (that rhymes :D), I usually only greet her when I see eye contact and when she's alone, but today when she was with her friends talking, I was like "yeah whatever", just to hear her greet me. Looks like I can't run away with the disguise of the people, lol.

Been receiving weird compliments recently, and the other one to join the party is probably "L" saying I should be a rapper. A rapper? For real? I'm not quite I would want to walk down that road even if I do actually have good rapping skills. One of my favourite rap song lyric lines from The Unknown by Mark B & Blade is "the industry is full of cut throats, false hopes, money controls, killing of many souls, anything goes", that pretty much answers why I don't want to join the entertainment industry. Another things is, my all time favourite rapper Eminem ran out of fuel after only a few years of stardom, and now the sh*t he's rapping about is the same sh*t he's been rapping about since the album Infinite came out, and sometimes I think he's rapping stuff that he pulled out of his ass just to earn some bug bucks. I don't want to be like that, so if I was to be commited, I'd rather make sure I have enough fuel to bring me into a path where I can constantly replenish fuel.

That being said, PSV knocked Tottenham Hotspurs out of the UEFA Cup after a thrilling 1-0 loss at PSV Stadion, followed by a penlaty shootout. Just a note before I get into the penalty shootout, is that Gomes did a fabulous OMFG save in the dying moments of extra time, when a shot that was doomed to go into the top corners of Gomes' goal was denied by Gomes himself as he accelerated off the ground to make that finger tip save.

Pretty cool week so far, let's just hope I bang that A* for Physics tomorrow :P

Went to the orphanage again to receive my "spiritual enlightenment". It was fun, considering that I love the kids there. It was also weird as well, since out of the 6 people who went, I was the only guy going, but I was fine with that, since one of the people in the orphanage said to the kids "Go play with the older sisters!"

... Guess I'll pretend I'm female for a sec, since Sop-Ah said I had beautiful long and thin fingers. Weird compliment for a guy, but I'll accept it nevertheless :P There were only 8 kids in the orphanage when we went, because most of the kids went on a field trip, and many of the kids kept on crying cause Almighty Sushi and the rest of the gang kept freaking out the kids. I managed to get one of the kids to like me though, and it was nice to see the kids on field trip coming back, cause I got to lift Yue Yue up and down again, lol.

Lots happened this past week, and one of them was a break down in relationship between me and Linc_31. Looking back, whatever happened in History class on Tuesday seems so fuzzy, but I was seriously ticked off that day and remained silent unless I had to talk, which in the process freaked two teachers and a few friends out. Not a bad tally, but that wasn't the point, cause the point was, this was the first time that I ever became this angry. Took me the remainder of the week to recover, and during that time period I did not speak to Lincoln at all, ignoring his questions, comments, or conversations starters. Think it was my talk with MC on email that helped me finally see through this incident, as the negative emotions eventually evolved into me feeling constantly depressed and frustrated for no reason, and becoming not myself. I'll see how things work out naturally.

We lost 1-0 yesterday in Soccer, and although it was a huge improvement considering we lost 6-1 last Saturday to TEDA International School(Tianjin Economic Development Area) and 7-1 to Harrow on Wednesday (wasn't goalkeeper that game, it was Rob's turn), I still felt disappointed, as to some extent I let my defence down since they were doing such a marvelous job. It was a great game nevertheless, as I was constantly encouraging my team mates and organising my defence through shouting and talking throughout the game, and making some fine saves during the process.

I'm certainly having fun messing around with a new program I downloaded off Windows, which is called "Windows Live Mail", where I can manage all my e-mail accounts into one program. I still have to figure out how to send e-mails through the program, as both occasions it kept send me the error message, but now I can receive a message from msn and Windows Live Mail when I get mail from any of my e-mail accounts, so its pretty sweet.

Its a little bit late, and I guess I'll have to go to sleep soon, but I have to add one more thing, and that is, Arsenal beat AC Milan 2-0 at San Siro and PSV beat Tottenham Hotspurs 1-0 at White Heart Lane. Not a bad soccer week considering that both of the football clubs that I support won at the European football stage :P