Smoking @ MindSay

I haven't had a cigarette in over a month...

 

My quest to quit is well on its way!!!  whoo hoo!!

In less than six months time, I will be starting my third year as a diagnoised Type II Diabetic.  I really never had a chance come to think of it.  My maternal Grandfather died 7 years before I was born due to alcholic related Type II diabeties complications.  My own mother was gestional diabetic when she carried at least my brother and myself.  One of my materinal uncles is a Type II Diabetic and my sister was gestional diabetic with both her children.  After the over the phone via mother diagnoises and I rushed to the doctor with a fasting sugar of 280 and was diagnoised with Type II Diabetes, it finally came out with all my varying medical problems while pregnant I too was most likely a gestional diabetic and nobody caught it with the fastings or the sugar testings done to pregnant women.  At first I was highly upset that due to varying unknown medical complications all my doctors insisted I had my tubes tied at the age of 22 and recently finding out if they would have diagnoised me correctly from the start, I could have gone on to have my wish of four children.  Then I mellowed out and remembered I HATED being pregnant:D  And I am very happy and blessed with my two children.

 

Through these last two and half years, I have ranged from a very die hard diabetic paitent to a very lax diabetic paitent.  When a person has an uncurable chronic can live with an entire life time illness, one gets highly tired of all the regulations and testing that they have to do day in and day out to maintain a normal functioning life.

 

Currently I am what my RN Mommy who works the diabetic clinics and the Reservation Public School checks for diabetic chidlren calls a lukewarm diabetic paitent.  I actually monitor what I eat for the most part.  I get a lot of exersies compared to the majority of diabetics in our area receive and I am willing to cut bad habits from my day to day life.  Much to her dismay, cursing is not a habit I have yet to break:P:D  Sorry featherdawn 

 

The goal for this year was to loose the last 40 lbs I need to get back to my highschool graduation weight.  I have hit stale mate after stale mate.  Either time, family, or my own body has tried to prevent me from becoming healthier.  I am very slowly making progress.  I am loosing inches vs weight.  And I know in my body's case I will continue to loose inches for a few more weeks to months before my metablizim catches up and starts burning full on fat to loose the weight.  Simply because at 5'5", I am average height for a woman but I am not small boned.  I am medium boned with heavy muscle mass.  It is an advantage when people are attempting to guess my weight!  They usually guess 15-30 lbs under what I actually weight:D

 

I still have about three and half months left to get some more weight off.  I refuse to weigh myself until I can physically see myself not only loosing inches but fat deposits that will lead to weight loose.  And even then, I will still weigh heavier then I look due to the excessive loose skin I am starting to see through my abdomine, hips, and now more recently my arms.

 

So far, I have readded a daily exersise of either walkign or eliptical machine.  I have learned not to get bent out of shape if I miss a day or even up to a week or more exersising.  A part time single stay home mom, I do not get a lot of time to exersise.  Then I added a college class to the mix.  On top of my TKD and walking/eliptical, I virtually cut soda out of my diet completely.  Very rarely is it in the hosue and when it is I treat myself.  If we go out for dinner, I order water or ice tea.  And just in the last month, I have cut coffee completely out of my morning routine.  Yes I still drink hot teas in the morning and some do have caffine in them but not in the same degree that coffee has.

 

I have continued to research possible cleansing diets and between my lovely friends, atticsmouse and Teri, I have found a possible cleanse alternative.  When things settle down in my life I will give what they suggested a chance.  Plus why I think it will work for me is I don't have to stop eating and cause my sugars to go wonky!  Between what my food person says and what torridgirl posted, I have done research on avocadoes, and thanks to my girl Teri who was the initial guine pig for me, I am giong to attempt to add a half to a whole avocado to my diet daily for at least a month to start.  Avocadoes have been found to increase a person's metabolism rate and give an over all jump start on using your body's stored fat deposits!  We may eat like we are hunters and gathers but we sure do NOT have that life style anymore.  I have no need for all this stored belly fat!

 

In my next few days to weeks postings, I will also be giving periodical updates on my next habit I am attempting to break.............yet again.  Smoking.  Before we moved home, I was down to 3 cigs a day and I did well with my routine of smoking only on the hour for the first few days to a week and then moving the time between cigs further back until I am completely broke of cigs.  I don't care about the money.  I really dont' have a spendy habit when I smoke Tribal Smokes:P:D  But if I stop smoking, I have an arguement against my kids if they should start, I'll breath better, and I'll keep a lil more money in my pocket.  Even though we all know once I quit smoking, I'll end up dying some tragic death NOT caused by smoking anyway!  Oh yay!  I forgot, we all live to die in the first place so it really doesn't matter!:P:D

 

Well that is it for now.  Wish me luck on eating advocatoes and my attempt to stop smoking!

 

 

People like Bloomberg scare me. He is out for absolute power. For whatever reason, he thinks his job is to dictate to people how to live, what to eat, how to defend themselves, etc. This man has no place in a so called "free country." How about cleaning up that rat hole you call a city with a little less elitist bullshit and stop getting involved in people's lives?

Gates, Bloomberg pool riches to fight smoking

By SARA KUGLER, Associated Press Writer
Wed Jul 23, 5:32 PM ET
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080723/ap_on_re_us/anti_smoking_billionaires&printer=1;_ylt=Ahf66vIxzb9JnEEW3rnHX9RH2ocA

Microsoft founder Bill Gates and New York Mayor Michael Bloomberg are pooling their piles of money to pour $375 million into a global effort to cut smoking.

The billionaire philanthropists, who have a combined worth of more than $70 billion, said Wednesday that the money will help efforts in developing countries where tobacco use is highest. There are more than 1 billion smokers worldwide.

The $250 million from Bloomberg and $125 million from Gates will support projects that raise tobacco taxes, help smokers quit, ban tobacco advertising and protect nonsmokers from exposure to smoke. It will also aid efforts to track tobacco use and better understand tobacco control strategies.

"Together we can make a clear, measurable difference — not just for ourselves and our generation but for the generations that come after us," Bloomberg said.

Bloomberg, an ex-smoker, and Gates made the announcement together at a Manhattan news conference — an appearance that Gates noted was his first public event since ending his full-time tenure at Microsoft Corp. to spend more time at the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation.

Gates also hinted it might be just the first of "many things" he and Bloomberg will do together.

Bloomberg, who built his fortune from the financial information company he founded in the 1980s, is adding $250 million to an anti-smoking initiative he funded with $125 million in 2006. That money goes toward tobacco-fighting campaigns in low- and middle-income countries, most specifically China, India, Indonesia, Russia and Bangladesh. Bloomberg Philanthropies is also conducting a survey to better understand smoking in those countries.

The Gates Foundation has until now focused most of its world health dollars on fighting malaria, AIDS and other diseases. The anti-tobacco campaign represents a new direction for the Seattle-based organization, which since 2006 has also been charged with giving away billions from investor Warren Buffett.

Because of strings the Berkshire Hathaway Inc. founder attached to the money, the world's largest charitable foundation is now broadening its reach, most notably into agriculture development.

Bloomberg quit cigarettes about 30 years ago and has crusaded against smoking as a public official. In his first term he banned smoking in bars and restaurants and his health department has an aggressive, ongoing campaign to help New Yorkers kick the habit.

When Bloomberg first announced that $125 million gift, he said at the time that he believed smoking was a public health issue that was largely ignored by philanthropists. He said he hoped publicizing it would bring more attention from other major foundations.

Gates said Wednesday that $24 million of his gift will go directly toward Bloomberg's efforts that are already under way.

The remaining money will be used by his foundation to begin its own anti-tobacco work, including a focus on preventing tobacco use from increasing in Africa.

"The epidemic in Africa is not well advanced, and that means that we can catch it at an early stage," Gates said.

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Associated Press writer Donna Blankinship contributed to this story from Seattle.

So I've been trying to write more lately, and it hasn't really been working out very well. Until last night. I was feeling kind of cynical and angry, and I was outside, smoking (don't ever smoke indoors--bad bad bad!), and Nick called me Too-Much-Nicotine Girl. And that totally inspired me. I'm writing the screenplay for a Daria-type series called Roz: The Adventures of Too-Much-Nicotine Girl. It's largely based on my life and is very much my response to what's happening around me, while incorporating other opinions and beliefs into a story that's frankly more character-driven than plot-driven. I'm having fun. :)

Oh--and I'm out of cigarettes. I'm all twitchy. Bleh.

Fuck it. I’m totally just going to smoke. There’s no point denying it, especially with the people I hang out with. Okay, really only Nick. But Nick is kind of a big part of my life right now. I only smoke once or twice when we hang out, and he kind of gets that I don’t smoke in front of Natalie, without me even saying anything. He just gets it. I don’t know. He’s just wonderful. Why does he have to be wonderful? I’ve always hated those dumb girls who say stuff like that, but I’m totally there. He’s not presumptuous or anything. He walked a good 3+ miles with me, and from what I could tell, he enjoyed just walking and talking with me. He’s been very conscious of my unspoken rule of no contact and is only pushing it a little, and that little is way less than I would let him get away with. I have a weird thing about being touched. Until I know you fairly well and thus trust you, you don’t get to touch me. You just don’t. I love hugs, I love being touched, but I have to trust you a lot. He’s only just now started asking for hugs. He holds me close for a little longer than necessary but not longer than propriety or my hackles dictate against, lets go, smiles, and thanks me for spending time with him. I play it cool, thank him for spending time with me, and walk him to the door.
The sad truth? I’m thanking him a million times over for even thinking about me. I’m a total head case. I analyze everything in minute detail, both as it happens and in my alone time. And while I would totally LOVE for things to jump right to the steamy romance thing, I love things the way they are. I know a lot of people say this, but if it just stayed this way forever, I wouldn’t feel any loss. I’d still long for more (I’ll be honest—he’s a MAJOR catch), but if that’s not what he wants, I won’t ask for more. And that’s all I’ll say on the matter. For now. :)
Wow. I definitely veered WAY off-topic. Smoking. Yeah, I know. It causes cancer. It rots your teeth. I know all the effects of smoking, I know. Most of my family is either in the medical field or suffering because of their nasty habit. I get it. It’s bad for you. Ugh! And I hate it. I hate smoking with a passion. But I hate it in the sense that I obsess over it. I deny myself until I get pushed just a little too hard. And I’ve discovered that giving in to the craving makes the craving much less potent. I know, that’s called appeasing the nicotine fiend. But my cravings right now are MUCH less strong than they were last week when I flat-out refused to smoke. Last week, just the smell of someone who had smoked in the last few hours was enough to set off my cravings. Right now, I’m surrounded by smokers, and I’m wearing clothes that smell like cigarettes, but I’m not craving even in the least bit. So I’ve decided that smoking is my vice. I don’t smoke enough that it interferes with my life. I don’t even smoke every day. But self-denial feels way more destructive than allowing myself a dirty little habit every now and again.