Share Your Heart @ MindSay

Standing here, in the presence of God and man I vow to share with you all that I am...

because to do less would be to deny the desires of my heart. 

To be with you is all that I want...all that I'll ever want...

and so, I say to you from this time forth and forever more;

I want to dip my life into

   the well of you

I want to be adorned in the radiance of

   your love

I want to drip with you as

   the new day drips with the

   mist of wet dawn

I want to warm myself in the

   sunlight of your smile

I want to bathe myself in the

   circle of your gaze

I want to love with you

   and for you and because of you.

I want to caress your soul

   with fragrant wet sounds

I want to move softly

   through your mind

I want to be what you want and need

   for that time and place.

I want to thrill to the taste

   of you again and again and again

I want to melt all over you and then

   slowly seep inside to live.

I want to strew your path unknown 

   with the healing force of my trust

I want to shower your doubts

   with kisses

I want to wrap your dreams in velvet

I want to share all that you are

I want to be with you

I love you

I am you.

lovespirit

we've been here so long. we've loved, we've lost.

we read the art of truth, the art of stories and tales.

fiction and non fiction. who's to say its not real?

we've spoken for days on end. those days you spent sleeping, weeping. we were having a conversation. why else does a cynical heart wake up three days later, still tired, but tender and soft?

Why else does thast heart weep to read a beatiful tale?

those days have been treasures. amongst your promises to write every word, we laugh knowing that you'll forget. you'll carry it in your heart, and you'll see things and remember. but you wont be able to write.

like the trinket you have in your hands. theone that fit so perfectly, so accidently.

you remember, dont you?

do you, the one reading these words from our sister's fingers, remember? a time so much larger than yourselves, it frightens you away...

can you feel it in your bones?

you silly little humans. oh we love you, our brothers and sisters. times come near, and some feel it.

some know it. few see it.

like my sister here, she sees a future. she worries to share it, for even in its beauty, it would burden a weaker soul.

its not your fault you cannot bear it. it's not to say you are any less mystical or divine. or beautiful. some just cannot bear what would be heavy knowledge. as its been for a long time,

this knowledge carries hope. slowly, this race might avert war. if not wholly, it might change it. shorten its path, lengthen it. whichever it chooses.

but we arent here to speak of that, are we?

yes, with a human mind asking us, enquiring, we go off on tangents.

but dear hearts. rejoice in the creation of your hands, thoughts, actions.

rejoice in what has been deemed small.

rejoice in whats around you for you may not wake up tomorrow, and the soul weeps to find it cannot feel.

dont be afraid to love, to jump.

dont be afraid to succeeed.

there are things ahead of you, that we cannot say for it is yours to discover, not ours to say.

oh little sister you want a better answer even thoguh you expected nothing more than what we've said.

love what your hands have wrought, and the bellies they'll fill, the backs they will clothe, the skin they will adorn. there is so much to do, and you never were one for big things.

take the small and embrace your future, becausein your life there will be more rewards in small happinesses than there ever is in the large. do not fret, do not worry about the rest of your life. we'll deal with it when we get there, and you'll not be alone.

and the answer to your question... while you worry about it getting in the way, if you apply yourself, this year can be for more than just experience and growth on one level.

this is a time of opportunity, it is a lull in your young life. may you find good joy in hard work, and determination to make your space sacred. put yourself in that white embrace, and learn to focus, now that you have been assured of the skills you can reap.

overcome the matter with the mind.

you can do it as fast or slow as you please.

ah yes. what about love?

well my dearest daughter.

there is much to say, but you know it all. in your heart, you know it.

there will be one, there will be many.

if you accept it, it will come.

dont worry, your time will never be wasted.

and give all a fair chance. just out of love, if not desire to be in their place.

dont worry, there will always be one to keep you grounded.

dont worry about dying alone. don't worry about going on unloved.

paitience is important for someone like you.

i daresay you've had plenty these years ofyour life, but flesh speaks for itself.

oh dear daughter, dearheart. rest and glory in yourself.

do not worry.

all will be well...

all will be well....

If I had some popcorn

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

If I had some gumdrops

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

If I had some peanuts

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

If I had some wheat thins

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

If I had some muffins

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

I'd share them with you

If I had some butter

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

If I had some green tea

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

I'd share it with you

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I started singing this because I was bored and I wanted to annoy my brother, and wow did it work. All you have to do is keep coming up with two syllable foods and you could go on for hours. It doesn't even have to be food. I said napkins once.

I'm weird.

So this is how fate is. The guy that was my best friend and the one i fell in love with is now neither and this is by his choice . I was forced to sit and listen about his new friend and new first. It hurts and I don't want it to and I know you will say it will go away. There was a time when it was just us. A time when both our families would ge annoyed at our phones ringing because it was always one calling  the other. I never meant to fall for him. I always knew I was never his type. As the hours passed by there was nothing but silence. We shared everything for eight years, now we share nothing and he has gained all that I have lost. God plesae help me

I am sorry if you believe in God, but just as the tears were starting to form I decided to ask for the strength to again let him go and allow me to begin. I have nothing left in me. As of june both my parents will be moving from new jersey to mississippi and one of the persons I thought would always be there is already gone. I asked for this. I asked for anything not meant for my happines to be rmoved from my life. I asked for him to have his joy, but it hurts ..

I have had the opportunity to meet a couple of people hat say aww your such a nice person. You are so strong. Your heart is in the right place. I am a work in progress. As I am typing I am aware in my heart as he sits to my left I have to let him go so that all that is to my right is allowed to happen.

I have asked so much of so many of you . If you knew me before mindsay I would ask you for nothing. Please pray for my future and my joy. It will not take long and is an unselfish request

ty.

One day one day soon I would love to look back at this and be able to say " I remeber when" but for now simply pray and bless me.......