So all day, something felt weird to me. I felt like today was something important, but I couldn't figure out what about March 23rd meant something to me. And I knew it wasn't something GOOD, like getting my cat or my acceptance to the college of my dreams. I felt bad things when I thought about the date. I went home, and I kept thinking about it.
An hour later, I was on newsday.com, researching. This is what I finally remembered:
http://pqasb.pqarchiver.com/newsday/access/315904341.html?dids=315904341:315904341&FMT=ABS&FMTS=ABS:FT&date=Mar+24%2C+2003&author=Indrani+Sen+and+Joseph+Mallia.+STAFF+WRITERS&pub=Newsday&edition=&startpage=A.03&desc=2+Men+Die%2C+1+Hurt+in+Car+Crash
In case that doesn't work, today marks 6 years since THE accident. I remember I had been talking online to Lenny when we found out that Sean was dead. Sean and Billy...wow. And just how bad John must have felt being the only one to survive ... wow. That's still a hard subject. It was a Sunday when we found out, and then school the next day was AWFUL. Donna; I remember trying to be there for Donna and just failing miserably; she was inconsolable.
This past summer I went to a block party, and this guy came over to me and was like, "I know you" and we talked a little bit about how that might be possible, and it ended up being Danny Travers. Thank G-d I hadn't said, "oh, Sean" when he was telling me about where he lived (around the corner from me) and I was finally able to place him; I would have started crying just thinking that I had called this kid by his dead brother's name. Is that lame? I don't know how he reacts to things about his brother 5/6 years later, especially brought up by some girl who didn't know him ver well. I don't really know John, I ONLY knew Billy as Danny Lackner's big, tall brother, but the Travers'... honestly lived 5 houses away if you counted around the corner, and though we were never 'friends' they always offered me rides to school if they saw me walking. Danny at first, and then when he graduated, I guess it was Sean.
I wish I had taken it. I happen to know that I missed out on getting to know QUITE an individual.