Screen Name @ MindSay

I have finally found a gemstone that I can call my own. It is the ancient stone of my birth , and my zodiac. I have chosen bloodstone. Feel free to look up its history and meaning. Tell me what you think ?

 

Also, I want a new screen name. Something that is "me". I am open to suggestions. Or maybe I'll restore an old screen name, if its possiable. The Screen name that will be replaced will be EDMP88.

 

Although if and when I do, is still up for debate in my mind.

 

~ Peace

I have decided once again, to get a new screen name.

 

Therefore I'll update you all on my only active screen names. My screen names for aol & aim are , budmotorsport and edmp88 . My screen names for yahoo, are bud_motorsport and e_dmp_88 .

 

These are my ONLY active screen names online. If you wish to know if I am on, or chat with me. Please add these to your buddy lists.

 

~ Thanks

I just might want to log mine into yours...


What if I forget my password? Where do I click? ;)

I use it for everything. It's my screen name and I love it.
Where'd I get it from, though?

I've thought that it may be wrongly percieved by others as me trying to separate myself from everyone like I'm special because I'm so strange and different and "ooh, look at me!"

But really, it is me saying, "I am foremost human and honest." By honest I don't only mean not lying, but real, just because I am. This part is hard to explain. I guess you might say it comes a bit from the belief that things tend to be just how they need to be, and that anything is real just because it is, even if it is "fake".

Maybe in time I'll find a better way to explain that... but hopefully you KIND OF get it...

Basically... anyone that reads my blog regularly may recall my posts about beauty, for example. I said many times that I preffer someone that is honestly, naturally, beautiful (without makeup and such things). And it is not the "prettiness" of the person that is most beautiful, but the honesty itself.

So now you see what I mean when I say "honest." I try not to hide behind anything or avoid facing myself and the realities of the world I'm in. To search for truth, above all else, even if it turns out to be something I don't quite like. This is what is meant.

There is an "open letter to the next generation of filmmakers" by Ray Carney at one of my favourite websites. The fourth point in his "letter" is where I pulled my screen name from. The piece overall really got me and I've read it several times, but this is my favourite part.

Now that I just explained the "honest" part, this will explain the "human" part:

4. A movie should be at least as strange as life.

I don’t know about everyone elses experiences, but the emotional lives of myself and the people I know are stranger and more complex than anything I’ve ever seen in Hollywood films. Their characters are too logical, knowing, and articulate by half. They have clear motives and intentions and act in accordance with them. If they have problems, they know what they are, and have game plans for dealing with them. They execute complex courses of action in pursuit of a definite goal. I don’t know anyone in life who is this clear about things – including myself. I don’t have intentions, motives, and goals in this way. I don’t know what I really want most of the time. I don’t understand my emotions. I don’t know why I do or feel most of the things I do. When I am in real emotional trouble, I am the last one to realize it. Having a real problem is not knowing you have it. (Think of your former boyfriend or girlfriend for confirmation of this.) I don’t have a road map for where I’m going. I usually don’t even know where I have gotten to until long after I have arrived. The people I know (including myself) are more mixed up, more contradictory in their behaviour, more changing in their feelings than characters ever are in the movies. Who of us is a character in the Hollywood way? (Dear reader, what is your character?) Even the most ordinary life is stranger and less rational than these movies assume.

When Hollywood wants to present a character who behaves less “normally,” it gives us a hockey masked slasher, has Jack Nicholson turn into the Joker or a Wolfman, or has Jim Carrey do one of his wild and crazy impersonations. But these characters separate the weirdness from everyday life too much. They make it seem too exceptional and rare and fleeting. They imagine our strangeness too externally and superficially. Our casual remarks cut more deeply than Freddy Krueger’s razor-fingers. The masks we wear are much scarier than Jason’s – and not removable. Our animal natures can be far more savage and unpredictable than a wolf’s. Our emotional lives are much spookier and more mysterious than anything in a John Carpenter movie. You can’t pound a stake through this aspect of experience. You can’t lock it up at the end of the movie. Everyone I have ever known – landlords, bosses, businessmen, parents, lovers, and friends – has an interior life that is knottier and more out of control than Hannibal Lecter’s. Capture some of the real strangeness of our emotional lives. If you don’t think it can be done, look at a tape of Cassavetes’s Faces or Tom Noonan’s The Wife. The kinks and twists in their characters’ psyche put a horror movie’s to shame.

-Strange As Life-

So I want to change my AIM screen name. I've had the same one for years, and feel like it is time for a new identity. I have a couple registered (including arrrgylesocks) but I'd like to present a new identity to my non-Mindsay buddies. So do I go with our family nickname that so many know us by? Or the silly nickname that my boss calls me? I could use my real name or my wannabe business name?  I'm leaning towards the family nickname, because we already have that registered, and when people see it, they will know it's me (or Shiny). I probably won't get rid of my current name entirely, because I have quite a few people on there who I haven't spoken to in a long time, but I'm not quite ready to let go yet.  But then how do I let everyone else know - do I just send them an IM saying "Hi! It's me! Please note my new screenname! Thank you!" Hmm...what to do? what to do?

Just thinking out loud...