School Year Heck @ MindSay

thinking of colleges takes a lot of work. it's very stressful and it decides so much. i finally know that i either want to be a journalist or a massage therapist or both for that matter. it's just getting there that stressing me out. i mean really, how the heck do you figure out what college to go to. i haven't even taken the act or sat yet and i don't know how to go about doing so whatsoever. i feel like crashing and burning, however, i did that last year and that had a bad result. i ended up missing over 40 days of school and now i have to retake a few classes. so far, i still have all a's so everything's good. but i still can't  redo last year. it's terrifying me. and then the whole concept of going out into the real world instead of our safe little high school. also the concept of convincing my dad to let me go to college. yes, i have to convince my dear old dad to let me go on to college. but if i get a grant from SSI maybe that would help. i really don't know what to do. any advice from anyone would be great and much appreciated.

I don't know why I'm actually joining school-run extra-curricular activities this year--it's odd.  First golf, then this newspaper thing, plus there's AP English, and who knows from here.  I was hoping to get to the debate meeting (I just plain like arguing once in a while :p), and who knows what's next.  Maybe a burnout.  I'm not quite sure why I'm doing this all of a sudden, I just realized last night that for the first time in a very long time I'm comfortable in my own skin.  No, I'm not going to go into lame butterfly/caterpillar analogies, because I'm quite the same crawly little caterpillar that I have always been, but I'm okay with that, and I guess I wasn't before?  I don't know.  I will cease trying to explain the inexplicable, and accept this positive--well it's not really a transformation, is it?

Okay, so some actually serious discussions about my potential exchange today with my mother.  Well, it's her that I have to win over with the plot, and now she's afraid of terrorism (honestly, I'll be spending a year in Europe, not that I'd know where until I actually applied.  Well, I'm excited!  Will keep ya posted!

f.r.i.d.a.y!!! <333

i love fridays. actually, i love fridays after 2:30. mmm during the school year, i live for the weekends.

...so there's a pretty hot guy in my math class.

and geo.
and science.
;)

science is pretty awesome. if you took away the science part, it would be perrrfect. french is...french. math is bo-ring. gym kicks your ass [<3♥3>]. loves it. geography i don't prefer. english is okay, it's in my top 3 for subjects, but i wish i had the other teacher. religion's okay. better than last year. last year the teacher was, "believe what i tell you, because that's what i believe, if you don't believe it, you're wrong". thank god this year my teacher is more like, "believe whatever you wish, i won't try to change your mind or say your wrong, all i'm going to do is teach you what we believe to be right." it's grrrande because i hate it when people tell me i'm believing the wrong thing, because what i believe it what's right to me. art also kicks your ass [♥x♥]. it's my second favourite, i alway love gym more.

but i still wish is was summer... <3

exes&ohs.

school, school, school... what can i say...

this year was the first year i've ever been in the electives building...it's computer science...woo...it's so fun. *cough* scarchasm*cough* yea... well, i have mrs mc neel and mcginnis and mrs scoggins...they're all pretty good. mr allen is awsome...except for the fact hetryed to scare us off the first day. but he made up for it with that skit that he made us do. it was kinda fun...but it was easy. i enjoyed it. band is going to be a little harder this year since we have to play off our music. but it'll be fine. that's all for the scedule!!!

today was ben and mine's 6 month anniversary.!!! today at school hebrought a presant with our pictures all over it...random pictures that he had my mom take...the sneaky little freak...but it's really sweet. then i was going to give him a rose like he did on our 3 month, but i couldnt' in the morning. so i decided to do it afterwards while he was practicing, but i didn't do that either. so i figured (with a little help from my mom) that i could leave it in his car while he was at church, and he could get it afterwards.  so i did that...and it was funny, cause i drove up in theparking lot and turned off my lights so that they wouldnt' see me just in case. i could see because there was enough light. then i left the rose in his car. i ran away laughing...i just couldnt' help myself. but in this bag he made me, he put a bunch of hershy caramel kisses and a box with a cute little necklace  in it. it's a flower that's red and has a yellow center. i like it. i have to wear something that goes with it tommorow so i can wear it.

Victoria and Heather!!!!! I LOVE YALL!!!! i just keep forgetting to save a spot for yall. but i will from now on. victoria can either sit by me, or diagonal from me. catherine has to sit in fornt of me so that she's be chris. lovce you  all! muah!!!!