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LAST.NIGHT.WAS.SO.GOOD.


I don't know if I slept after I got home at 1 (note to all:  NOT a mature decision to stay out until 1, even if you were driving like mad to get home...when you have to get up at 6); I just kept thinking/dozing about having to drive around to get people/places.  Not very restful.  And the WORST Sunday possible to not sleep, as I am about to embark on a 4-day/3-night overnight trip with my 5th grader and the rest of the 5th grade at my school and probably should have been in bed at 10:30.... but SO.GOOD.

They were so on last night.  And I loved every minute.

Pictures of this and hopefully my excursion into nature when I get back.  I 'ope, I 'ope.

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I've had so many chances
turned my back and I ran away
I've (not) had so many chances
to. see. you.

I always seem to have a hard time sleeping when night falls.

 

 I enjoy having the to time to myself, alone with my thoughts without any interruptions. In the late hours of the night approaching morning is when you'll find me wandering through my mind, going through my day. In the dark comfort of my room you can find me whispering to the shadows, telling them about my day. It would later advance to deep confessions about my past, revealing every dirty little secret and the dark moments that have scarred me forever. I would make plans about my life in the future, make commitments to myself and the shadows that tomorrow I'm going to wake up and I will change for the better. I will reach my goals and outline every detail of what I'm going to do to get it.

 

Finally satisfied, a smile would cross my lips accompanied by a satisfied sigh before falling into sleep. In the mornings, scared awake from my semi-coma by my screaming alarm clock. I'd wake up groggy and ready to kill, forgetting everything from the night before. The carefully laid out plans and whispered secrets of the night would fall behind to the far end of my memory cabinets and abandoned forever.

 

Onward with life.

Today was a wonderful day. I woke up a bit on the tired side (I'm an insomniac) and I didn't quite want to go to class, but my policy is that if someone close to me hasn't died or nearly died, I go to class. So, I got up and sleepily went to class until lunch (when my classes get out), when I had a doughnut and a very yummy smoothie. I then returned to my room and did some work and had a lovely nap ending when Richard (who lives next door to me) tried to unlock my door instead of his. Their lock sticks a good bit and he was very confused as to why his key did not fit into the lock right. My roommate had also had been sleeping and was woken by this loud attempt to break into our place of residence (geez Richard, what's wrong with you?).
None of this had anything to do with how wonderful my day was, though. Today I just felt extremely close to God and when you are close to God there is no way you can't feel joy. I could have had a horrible day in regard to circumstances, but that joy would have killed all my unhappiness. I was able to go to my college equivalent of a youth group, which was great, and I got to do some serious studying of the Bible, which was even better. One of my friends had borrowed my study Bible, which has a lot of historical notes and the like included in side notes, and gave it back the other day, so I have really enjoyed getting to use it for studying. If anyone is considering buying a new Bible, I HIGHLY recommend The Quest Study Bible (NIV). It is the most helpful study Bible I have ever used.
Most of what I read/studied today was from 1 Samuel and when I sat down and really read through it and looked up different things (I am also very fond of the internet, being a bit of a geek and all) I learned so much. There is something highly satisfying about studying the Bible, ironic, considering that sometimes when I am struggling I avoid reading it, even though I know I am substantially happier when I read regularly. Man, God is awesome.