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River City Construction, L.L.C., East Peoria, Ill., was awarded on Feb. 15, 2008, a $74,210,000 firm-fixed-price contract for changes to the U.S. Transportation Command and its Joint Intelligence Operations Center. Work will be performed at Scott Air Force Base, Ill., and is expected to be completed by Feb. 9, 2011. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This web solicitation was announced on Nov. 1, 2007, and one bid was received. The U.S. Army Corps of Engineers, Louisville, Ky., is the contracting activity W912QR-08-C-0007.
Arviso Construction Co. Inc., Fort Wingate, N.M., was awarded on Feb. 19, 2008, a $66,475,280 firm-fixed-price contract for replacement of Wingate High School and Dormitory. Work will be performed in Fort Wingate, N.M., and is expected to be completed by May 2, 2010. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. There were 10 bids solicited on Sep. 18, 2007, and three bids were received. The U.S. Army Corps of Engineers, Albuquerque, N.M., is the contracting activity W912PP-08-C-0002.
Oshkosh Truck Corp. Oshkosh, Wis., was awarded on Feb. 19, 2008, a $48,906,410 firm-fixed-price award ceiling price modification for family of heavy Tactical Vehicle systems. Work will be performed in Oshkosh, Wis., and is expected to be completed by Dec. 31, 2008. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. One bid was solicited on Oct. 23, 2006, and one bid was received. The Tank Automotive and Armaments Command, Warren, Mich., is the contracting activity W56HZV-07-C-0248.
Combat Support Associates, Orange, Calif., was awarded on Feb. 16, 2008, a $30,926,621 cost-plus-fixed-fee contract for contract modifications for expansion of postal operations support. Work will be performed in Camp Arifjan, Kuwait, and is expected to be completed by Sep. 30, 2009. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This web solicitation was posted on Oct. 30, 1998, and four bids were received. The U.S. Army Sustainment Command, Rock Island, Ill., is the contracting activity DASA02-99-C-1234.
General Dynamics Ordnance and Tactical Systems, Inc., St. Petersburg, Fla., was awarded on Feb. 15, 2008, a $20,552,074 firm-fixed-price contract for small caliber ammunition. Work will be performed in St. Petersburg, Fla., and is expected to be completed by Aug. 23, 2010. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This web solicitation was posted on Jan. 18, 2005, and two bids were received. The U.S. Army Field Support Command, Rock Island, Ill., is the contracting activity W52P1J-05-G-0002.
Alliant Techsystems, Inc., Mesa, Ariz., was awarded on Feb. 15, 2008, a $6,972,000 firm-fixed-price contract for 30mm ammunition. Work will be performed in Radford, Va., and is expected to be completed by Sep. 30, 2009. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. There were two bids solicited on Jan. 16, 2008, and two bids were received. The U.S. Army Sustainment Command, Rock Island, Ill., is the contracting activity W52P1J-07-C-0035.
Woodward Governor Co., Rockford, Ill., was awarded on Feb. 15, 2008, a delivery order amount of $6,427,580 as part of a $28,879,222 firm-fixed-price contract for fuel control equipment for the Black Hawk helicopter. Work will be performed in Rockford, Ill., and is expected to be completed by Apr. 30, 2012. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. There were two bids solicited on Jan. 8, 2007, and one bid was received. The U.S. Army Aviation and Missile Command, Redstone Arsenal, Ala., is the contracting activity W58RGZ-07-D-0174.
Purcell Construction, Watertown, N.Y., was awarded on Feb. 15, 2008, a delivery order amount of $66,100,000 as part of a $150,532,382 firm-fixed-price contract for design and construction of three 624-person barracks. Work will be performed in Fort Lee, Va., and is expected to be completed by Sep 30, 2011. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. There were three bids solicited on Dec. 7, 2007, and three bids were received. The U.S. Army Corps of Engineers, Norfolk, Va., is the contracting activity W91236-08-D-0014.
Global Security and Engineering Solutions, a Division of L-3 Services, Inc., Chantilly, Va., is being awarded a ceiling value $326,318,075 firm-fixed-price, indefinite-delivery/indefinite-quantity requirements contract to design, fabricate, install, and test the Tactical Video Capture System (TVCS) for various Marine Corps bases worldwide. The Marine Air Ground Task Force Training Command (MAGTFTC) staff and personnel will use the TVCS for Real-Time Visualization (RTV) and Situational Awareness (SA) while Marine Units are conducting Military Operation in TVCS to conduct After Action Reviews (AAR) of the just completed training exercise. The contractor will perform system design, development, integration, installation, logistics, engineering, and training of the TVCS. Work will be performed at government sites worldwide, and the work is expected to be completed Feb. 2011. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This effort was competitively procured as a full and open competition procurement, with one offer to the solicitation received. The Marine Corps Systems Command, Quantico, Va., is the contracting activity (M67854-07-D-8000).
BAE Systems, Land and Armaments Group, Ground Systems, Santa Clara, Calif., is being awarded a $33,938,132 cost-plus-incentive fee contract to provide engineering support services. This contract contains options which, if exercised, would bring the total cumulative value of this contract to $109,497,949. Work will be performed in Santa Clara, Calif., (24 percent); Brea, Calif., (23 percent); Plymouth, Minn., (18 percent); Aberdeen, S.D., (14 percent); Minneapolis, Minn., (10 percent); Nashua, N.H., (9 percent); Austin, Texas, (2 percent), and work is expected to be completed Jul. 2010. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. Strategic Systems Programs, Arlington, Va., is the contracting activity (N00030-08-C-0025).
Allied Pacific Builders, Inc., Honolulu, Hawaii, and David's Custom Roofing & Painting, Inc.*, Pearl City, Hawaii, are being awarded a not to exceed $20,000,000 (base period and four option years) indefinite-delivery/indefinite-quantity contract for roof repairs and maintenance for Navy, Marine Corps, and miscellaneous Federal and other facilities at various locations in Oahu, Hawaii. Work will be performed in Oahu, Hawaii, and work is expected to be completed Feb. 2009 (Feb 2013 with options). Contract funds will expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This contract was competitively procured with 11 proposals solicited and eight offers received. The Naval Facilities Engineering Command, Hawaii, Pearl Harbor, Hawaii, is the contracting activity (N62478-08-D-4014 and N62478-08-D-4015).
Lockheed Martin Corp., Lockheed Martin Aeronautics of Fort Worth, Texas, is being awarded a contract modification for $182,615,911. This action provides for sustainment of the F-22 Weapon System during Calendar Year's 2008 and 2009. At this time $258,763,747 has been obligated. ASC/YFK, Wright-Patterson Air Force Base Ohio, is the contracting activity (FA8611-08-C-2897).
The United Technologies Corp., Pratt and Whitney, of East Hartford, Conn., is being awarded an undefinitized contract modification for $101,168,373. This contract will provide CY08 sustainment for the F-22 Raptor F119 Engine. At this time $129,834,373 has been obligated. ASC/YFK, Wright-Patterson Air Force Base Ohio, is the contracting activity (FA8611-08-C-2896).
TAC Industries of Springfield Ohio is being awarded a contract for $34,450,420.50. This action provides for quantity of 68,750 each for top cargo tiedown nets; 137,600 each side cargo tie-down nets. At this time all funds have been obligated. 642nd CBSSS/GBZO-PKAC, Robins Air Force Base Ga., is the contracting activity (FA8533-05-D-0001-0010).
General Atomics of San Diego, Calif., is being awarded a cost plus incentive fee contract for $6,094,533. This effort is for the change to enhance the Maintenance Level Technical Orders, which are a part of the system development and demonstration of the MQ-9 Reaper Unmanned Air Vehicles. At this time no funds have been obligated. 658th AESS/PK, Wright-Patterson Air Force Base Ohio, is the contracting activity (F33657-02-G-4035, Order 002316).
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Seagoing Uniforms, Marshville, N.C.,* is being awarded a maximum $7,536,579.00 firm fixed price, total set aside, indefinite quantity contract for Navy utility uniform items. Other locations of performance are N. C., S. C., and Ga. Using service is Navy. This proposal was originally Web solicited with two responses. Contract funds will not expire at the end of the current fiscal year. This contract is exercising option year three (except for Item 0005 – Utility Trousers). Date of performance completion is Mar.31, 2009. The contracting activity is Defense Supply Center Philadelphia, Philadelphia, Pa. (SP0100-04-D-0457).
I'm sitting here listening to that graduation song. you know the one. and someone's gonna reply with the name, composer, and some other trivial bullshit that makes me feel dumb. I can hear it from my dorm room, even though where graduation is being held is pretty far away. And it's funny, because all I can think about is "A guy I fucked is over there graduating right now." :P i've talked to him a lot and I've read through his myspace, and I'm proud. He hasn't been the happiest boy, so hopefully now he can get himself together. I signed on to yahoo really quickly last night. he was online but idle, and he'd left me a message the night before. He should have called me. I totally would have fucked him one last time. There's no way it would have happened last night, though, because of my neck injury. I was talking to Ryan online and he was like, "Just do it doggy style." LOL!
I feel like I should write something big and reflectful about my first year of college, but there's so much I could say that my thoughts are feeling rather disorganized. All I know is I am a much more independent, intelligent, brave and strong woman now than I was when I got here. I've discovered power in me that I didn't know I had, and most of all, i've discovered the power of just being alive. I've discovered how powerful and how much that means. However, I still get my suicidal urges, and I'm still worried about living through the summer. My parents are here for not even 30 minutes, and my dad was rolling up a sleeping bag I had outside in the hallway where there's other people and my parents start making fun of me. At dinner my mom was telling me how she learned why in theory Muslim women are supposed to wear a veil. Apparently it's because men have uncontrolable urges, but women can control theirs so they wear the veil to not distract men. My dad then makes a comment about something along the lines of, "So that's why it's ok for men to rape?" Thanx dad. Right in front of me. At the dinner table. I'm glad you think its wrong, but I'm even happier that you have no understanding of how traumatic this experience has been for me and you can talk about it in front of me like it's no big deal. So much for talking to him about it. That's right, you're both disgusted with me because you trusted that if we were home alone nothing would happen and things did. You're disgusted because I'm not a virgin.
I can still hear graduation. People cheering, people happy. I'm happy for Doug. And perhaps by the time that that's me, my parents will have learned. or perhaps they won't and I'll have made enough money somehow to be financially independent and cut them out of my lives. I just keep trying to tell myself that I can live through this. I can and I will be ok. Besides, if I die, then my hermit crabs die, and that's just fucked up. (Today is Bradjelina's first car trip other than when i bought him/her! :D) We also talked a little bit about getting a cat. My mom wants new furniture first. Ok lazy ass, it's been nearly five months. You were saying that before Shadow even died. You were saying you couldn't wait for Shadow to die so you could get new furniture. Good to know that it still hasn't happened. Good to know that nothing's changed. Nothing except me, and that's all I need. Hopefully that can be enough, and hopefully I can get my liscence and a car so I don't have to go to work with my dad everyday. That's going to be hell. This summer is going to be hell. At least I feel proud now.
I totally got an A- in English, which fucking rocks. That will bring up my GPA a lot, seeing as how I'm really worried about not passing my WS class, which means I'll probably have to take it again. I guess that could be interesting, but it's not something I really want to do and would greatly hurt my chances of graduating in four years. This is beginning to look really unlikely, though, because I was looking at the upper division courses and next semester they aren't offering one that's a pre-rec to another one. Things are getting scarey. My future is a complete and total blur for me right now. Like, I seriously don't know what the next few months are going to hold. Am I gonna see anyone from HSU over the summer? Am I gonna make new friends at work? And my worst fear of all- am I going to be unfortunate enough to see my ex by chance? Santa Clara is a very small city. Anyway, I think I may post up the pieces from my English portfolio at some point. In order to pass you had to get a score of eight, and I got ten! :D My English teacher was way proud of me for all the work I did on them.
I mostly just talked when I saw my therapist today. Talked about the last couple of days and what they've been like. I wish I wasn't transfering those quizzes over, because if you could read just the entries themselves it really has been an interesting last few days for me. One thing her and I talked about, though, is getting another cat in Santa Clara. My parents want to wait until July because we're taking a 10 day trip in June, but then in August they're gonna help me move back in here and then go camping for a week. Why not get a new kitten now? I know that they're not ready and Brian hates animals anyway, but this is really something that I need. No animal will ever replace my dear Shadow, which was one of the subjects of my English portfolio, but not having an animal companion that I could hold and play with and pet (which you unfortunately can't do with hermit crabs) really killed me when I was there over Spring Break. Yeah, I had other things going on, but those of you who were reading then probably remember that I actually reached a point of depression that I just posted an entry asking those who gave a fuck to tell me so cuz if no one did I was gonna kill myself. I'm scared that I'm going to reach that low again, and I think having a cat to care for agian will help me. I love animals and I love to take care of things, and I can't help but wonder if one reason I've been so depressed this year- even when Shadow was alive- is because I haven't had a cat. Studies have shown that cats have some strange theraputic benefit for people who suffer from depression. That, and I had Shadow since I was ONE AND A HALF YEARS OLD. I had a cat for basically my whole life, and to not have one now...it just feels like there's a black hole in me.
Of course, my parents won't go for this at all. They aren't ready. I need to quit being selfish, I'm always so selfish. All I ever think about is my needs. I don't really need it. If I want it, I can take care of it, and I'm leaving the last weekend of July. That's probably all I'll hear and there will be no way to convince them otherwise. If it comes to "if you want it, you take care of it," then fine, I won't go on the fucking trip with them in June/July. I know that I can damn well take care of myself. The only problem is that I won't have a means to get to work other than the bus, and, well, those who have been here long enough can probably guess why I'm not a fan of public transportation. To me, this is also another point of how my parents just don't understand how screwed up I am. I've talked about this with Jean before. I come home from a break, they'll give me diner, and they go right back to watching their episode of Law and Order with a rape victim which they started before they picked me up from the bus station. Thanx mom and dad. Couldn't have waited to start that until later. Is that selfish of me? To want my parents to wait 10 minutes before watching a TV show that will make me think of all the things that happened to me in a room, in a bed, that I'm about to walk into and have to live in for the next three months? I think one reason why they don't realize that my disorder is so serious, if they even believe me that any of it happened, and I don't think my mom does and maybe my dad does, is because I've been back and forth between therapists. They have this idea that they're all helping and so far the only one that's done shit is Jean. She gave me a sign of release form today incase talking to my parents doesn't go over well. Then they can call her and see what she thinks. She said that she sees my want/need of another cat as me being responsible for my own needs. I know I am capable of taking care of an adult cat because I did it for years, and if my parents were willing to help me then they could teach me how to care for a kitten. After all, I do want to have my own someday when I'm in a more stable environment. I guess we'll see how this next week goes. Just know that all of you who hate hearing me talk about my depression have all now been fore-warned.
There were other things I wanted to talk about, but I think this is long enough. I just need to stop thinking. I've been so tired all today because I didn't get to bed until 3:00am and woke up at 10:00am. Right as I was finished posting my entry last night, atashi sent me a message on AIM. Right as I was saying good night to her, Nam signed online. 2:45am. Yeah, you're schooling is so important to you and that's why you don't talk to me anymore, but you talk to all your other friends from high school. Immediately I could feel the high that J always gives that I felt even stronger last night thanx to his techno wearing off. atashi just told me to go, and so I did. Before I did, though, I sent Nam something saying, "Don't you have school?" and then I signed off. I did it because I wanted to piss him off that I sent him something. And today, I've felt pretty goo. I guess I'm really just tired of his emo pussy bullshit. In my WS class for the final projects, and asian "butch" (she's not really butch, but I guess idiots call her that the same way they call me goth) lesbian wrote a poem about stereotypes related to asian sexuality. Asian women are submissive little sex kittens, and asian men are seen as emo pussy bitches with small dicks who lack any sex appeal, and of course they're all straight. Well, Nam may not have a small dick, but he's proving the emo pussy bitch part of that stereotype right every time he runs from me, and if he wants to prove it wrong, he knows how to do it. I'm still gonna send him those letters, just to see what he thinks, but for now I'm ok. Things wil probably change within the next week when I'm back in Santa Clara, though. At least as of right now I'm feeling good that I know I'm not the one who ever gave up on us.
Oh yeah, and I bought some chocolate. *moo.* a little bag of something called Hershey's Kissables and a back of Reese's Pieces with peanuts in it. I'll feel bad tomorrow, lol. I think I actually did start losing weight because all I had to eat for a couple days was yogurt, peanut butter, oatmeal, and cup of noodles. I ate an apple today. It had a bunch of bruises that I didn't even know were there, which totally sucked. I still have one more apple, two yogurts, one cup of noodles, and three packets of oatmeal. Because I've sold a few of my books back, though, I've had some money and I've gotten a sandwich and a burrito (as well as water) out of the Depot these past two days. It was nice to eat something different, but it actually made me sick. :( Tomorrow I'll get another meal from there from whatever time of the day it is, then steal more plastic silverwear so I can eat the remaining things I have. Which reminds me, I need to do dishes...which means I need a new sponge...shit, I hope I remember that. Those who have read this far, leave me replies that I'll get tomorrow morning reminding me to steal more plastic silverwear from the Depot and to buy a new sponge while I'm in town! It would be greatly appreciated! So um, yeah, please? lol. ugh I'm tired. I hope y'all are well.
Add: I moved my poetic piece about J's body to selfncreativity. I kind of explain why I did on there, but I just thought I'd let you all know for those of you who liked it. :) Seriously, I could just talk and talk and talk about sex with him, lol. Shit, I just overheard that my neighbor Grifin is leaving tomorrow morning. How crazy early, and I hear earlier that his room mate Andrew is leaving Thursday. At least I just heard that asshole John is leaving Thursday morning, haha. I hope fucking Mike leaves soon, too. My parents, though, don't have the time off until like, Friday afternoon and all of Saturday, so that's when I'm leaving. It's ok, I like being here. And you never know, I might be able to get laid one more time before I have to go back. Preferably by J, but I'd settle for Sean or Doug, too, if they they wanted to. Doug is graduating, so one more time with him would be nice. He said he actually has like one class he needs to take next semester, but they're letting him walk now.