My entire world has shifted gears. How does that happen so quickly? After giving up on being even moderately happy, some crazy person wanders into my life and I suddenly feel like being my Self.
We met during the tail end of the Fiesta del Sol festivities. He is the only person I have EVER met who knew who Saint Dymphna was - I only found out because he has a tattoo of her on his back.
He plays the bagpipes in strange locations, and a jerry can one string bass. I had the joy and pleasure of watching him and his ukelele playing friend jam together and play some of the most horrific and funny songs.
I was settled into my crabass ways, and then I get my feet knocked out from under me and Love creeps up from behind and gives me boot in the ass. She's funny like that I suppose.
I have never, ever, ever in my life been with a man who treated me like he does. It does not seem to be pretense, it does not feel like lying - that is what scares me. On guard, constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Our religious beliefs are a bit different. OK, a lot different. But we both believe in God. Our backgrounds are different, our skin is different, but our Hearts seem to be located in the same place (metaphorically, ya know).
He doesn't complain about my hairy legs or armpits - he strokes them. He doesn't get fussy about my coarse sense of humor, he joins in. He doesn't shrink away from tenderness, he pours it over me until my heart aches.
I know the initial love/lust/infatuation phase passes, I know that things can and probably will change. But for today, for Now, I am enjoying this and refuse to let the past or the future get in the way of that.
He notices things about me that most men in my physical life never did. He has a brain, a heart, a beautiful spirit, and the most gorgeous eyelashes.
I don't know what to do with myself, except cry sometimes just from the relief of how I felt before.
So, that's where I've been - in sappy la-la land with all the townsfolk rolling their eyes and giggling when they see us walking together in our dazed joy.
What'd I miss?
