Run @ MindSay

Eighty two videos completed. This latest video is one on my request list. It's "Run" by "Snow patrol". The full version. I've been asked

to sing this by a few people, and I couldn't recall it by name, but when I heard it I recognised it immediately.

I think the song is great. I have used pictures of roads, paths and lighting to set the mood of the video. It's just a slideshow again :)

I hope you enjoy it. Here it is:

My album page on CDBaby has had over 100 hits now, and the product has been delivered to 3 companies so far.

Amazon, Napster and Ruckus. I keep searching on a daily basis to see when it's listed on those sites. There's

nothing yet. There's also an online shop with T-shirts etc that will be up soon. If you fancy checking out some

of the samples from my album you can go to my CDBaby page at:

Sight Or Sound - Jeff Edwards

Here's the next installment of the extracts from my fathers life.

My Dad. Part 4.

My Mothers relationship with my father was not a very long one. They first met when she was dating a man called Michael. After the break up with Michael, my father just happened to make it known that he was around. They are so different from each other. I think you could only uderstand the union if you had met him. He had an irresistable personality. An absolute charmer. Just about everybody loved him, and a lot of them knew what he was like. Perhaps it's that old thing about being attracted to risk and danger. Very soon into the relationship I was conceived. I have asked her what it was that determined the end of their relationship. It ended up being more than one, due to my mother's tolerance. One of the times was when my dad robbed the electricity meter at the place they rented, and left my mother to take the blame. My mother would not take anything from anyone, and she felt so bad to be accused of taking the money. She knew it was my father that was responsible. There were only 3 people that moved in and out of the house, and she was sure that it wasn't the landlord. She could only deny what she was accused of. The landlord adored my father, and refused to believe that it could have been him.

The other event that helped to break the relationship was my mother's eighteenth birthday party. My dad came to the party, but not alone. They were a woman on each arm. I think that would just about do it for most people. I don't know if he did that deliberately to get her to end it instead of him. Knowing him, I'd say it was certainly a possibility.

So the relationship ended before I was born. My mother then had a relationship with a man called "Jeffrey". He is the man I am named after. He begged my mother not to tell me who my real father was. Instead pretend that he was my father. This was a wonderful arrangement until he had a child of his own. There was a noticeable bias torwards his daughter. My mother believed in fairness, so as a counter measure, she showed bias toward me. My stepfather was a violent man to my mother (unlike my father). So much so that I spent time in hiding as a baby with my mother. One such location was in the attic of a convent. The last time I remember living in the same house as him was when I was about 7. I didn't realise who my real father was until I was 18, and i didn't meet him until I was 21. So the things I tell you about his life are stories I've collected from him, and family. There's more to come. I can understand why my mother kept me away from him. She didn't want me to grow up with his habits, and I'm glad she made that decision.

To be continued.......

There's a big milestone around the corner concerning my Youtube statistics. A thousand subscribers looms.

I've had some good days over the last week and I now have 938 subscribers.

The channel views are also doing well at 21,815 and the complete viewing figures for all of the videos I have uploaded are 364,724. I'm getting well over a thousand a day at the moment.

That is the end of the cover versions and requests for a few songs now. I'm planning to upload a number of my original songs, to complement the release of my album. The ones I will put up initially, didn't make it to the album :).

I am having one of those bad days again. You women out there know what I am talking about, the kind of day where you are tired and your pants are fitting a little to tight, everything seems to be getting on your nerves??!! I mean, I have seriously had one of those days all day. I am feeling pretty down on myself. It seems like I have been having these days more often than not lately. I have been trying to lose weight that has seemed to stay glued to me since childbirth and it has not been going very well. I have not lost a single pound.

This is my pitty party. I get on the scale, look in the mirror or just put on a pair of pants and I feel so blah... blob...

I really need a support system. My husband is great man, but he does not see a need for me to worry about it. I know that is really sweet of him. I don't know what, but I need something different, like maybe, come on Honey you can do it just stick to it, you will lose it it takes time... Something. I feel like I am stuck in whirl pool of bad self esteem!

I love God with all of my heart and I have been praying about it. Maybe I am being to vain, maybe it is not His time for me to lose it... I don't know. But I am ready for a change. Have you heard that song by Run Kid Run called freedom? Man, it is my song!!! It describes me completely! I need FREEDOM!