
Roommates @ MindSay 
Why is it that when someone isn't happy with their life, they try and ruin other people's lives as well?
Personally, I don't understand this concept one bit.
Other than that it just mimicks the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' song "Misery Loves It's Company."
Or maybe it's the other way around.
Either way, it's no fun when people try to bring you down simply because their life is going to shit.
Take mine and Rob's roommate for example, Mike. Mike and Rob have been best friends since the 6th grade. But lately, Mike's life here hasn't been going so swell. He failed two classes, one of which he has to pay for out of pocket ($1,300) before he can graduate, he can't pay his bills on his own because he has no job, and pretty much can't help himself at this point.
Mike's taken the liberty lately to try and demolish mine and Rob's relationship by telling me things that he claims Rob has said, twists Rob's words around to make them sound bad, and brings up things about Rob's past that I neither never knew about, nor wanted to know about. For instance, today we all went to Wal-Mart so Rob could pick up his paycheck so we could pay bills. Well, when we got home, Mike kind of followed me up here and just struck up a conversation. We got to talking further and he casually brought up the fact that Rob had a past "relationship" with someone I find completely repulsive.
Now, I know Rob's been with other women than me, that's a given, but for Mike to bring shit up like that just angers me to no end, because he's sticking his nose where it doesn't belong and that's not right to me. If Rob had wanted me to know that he'd been with that person, he would have mentioned it. Or even if I had wanted to know specifics, I could have asked and he would have told me. But neither of those things happened, and it's not Mike's right to butt into things that way.
I feel like I'm in the right on this as far as how I feel, but I'm not 100% sure if it's justified.
Am I right or am I wrong?
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it's one of those feelings where, you just know, whatever happens, things will never be quite the same again
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but things aren't exactly perfect right now, either
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although, at least you know what you know right now
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i'm not going to lie
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i'm afraid
How do you know you've found true love? 'Cuz when you finally end it because things are awful for you, it kills you inside, and months later it hurts to find out that the one you loved now is in love with someone else and looking for marriage advice, engagement ring advice, etc. Maybe I'm just being moody tonight, but yeah. I feel like being all sobby and crying til my guts explode through my eyes. God. What an awful feeling.And now I am crying, in fact, though there's no reason for it. I just feel like cutting myself to no end right now, and that's stupid, because I don't even know why I'm crying right now, I just know I am. I'm crying really hard, and I just want someone to comfort me, and that person isn't calling me back yet, and he's in Arizona, so what the fuck am I supposed to do besides sit here and type and listen to music on the TV? Fuck this. I just want to know what's going to happen in the future and know that maybe someday I'll be all happy and non-hormonally or non-chemically imbalanced, whatever the fuck is wrong with me. I'm just crabby as shit tonight, and I was soo happy, well, happy as I get, earlier hanging out with Cortney.
By the way, Cody apologized for cheating on me and being an asshole, but it's way too late for that I realized. He spent the night here and it was like all those feelings came rushing back, and so now I know that I can't get involved. Oh, ps of sorts, the one looking marriage advice is Nate - the one who came over no more than a month ago to fool around, so how can he be looking to get married when we just fooled around not too long ago and he texts me to hear about my sex life, and says he has fantasies about me? I'm just really confused because I shouldn't have any damn feelings for Cody or Nate, but I do, and I think I'm leading Aaron on, he calls me his "princess" and flirts constantly and acts like he did before we "dated" and I broke his heart, and I know, I think, I don't want to start anything up with him, besides friends. At least until I figure out what's going on with Matthew, and so I guess that makes me a cold-hearted bitch, but what am I supposed to do?? Christ.
Also, my damn roommates haven't been home to sleep here in over a week and a half. They've been here to change and get toiletries like hairspray, etc, but I don't see them because I'm normally asleep when they come in the early am, or gone at work. Whatever though, kind of? It's just that, it's like I'm living alone. And if that was what I really wanted I would get a one-bedroom apartment and actually BE alone. But I don't know I guess. So, now that I'm done ranting and raving in my fit of tears, I'm going to go peruse the internet and see what I can find, assuming my internet isn't a dick and closes on me 50 million times again....
Xo Whitney Marie oX --tears--
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