I have been out from blogging because of going to college. I don't know why, but I am starting to hate it. I don't know why, but it's getting to me. Anyhow, last night I had a meltdown. I cried my lungs out, because of how depressed I am, and because of how lazy I feel like I am. I just really haven't felt motivated, but there is one thing I have to say. When I was talking with Erin, a.k.a.
demonchild , and I talked with her about how depressed I felt, and how my life is a constant whirl of positives and negatives. I started to give her an example, saying such: "I was able to sleep downstairs since God knows when, and the next morning..." I cried on the phone, feeling an uncontrolable amount of grief, stress, and depression that I bit into the local box that had linoleum tiles, my teeth almost being too weak to take it. I was able to calm down after I thought about how my teeth might not of held up to it, and I calmed down slightly, and said: "Biscuit died." I kept on giving examples, but there was one that could barely be touched. My person, me, having her for a girlfriend, friend, and love. I was able to cheer up almost instantly, and calmed myself down. I felt so happy that Erin was able to help me with how depressed and how horrid I felt. We went from talking about going to sleep to feeling like hell to talking about what was going on later on in the week. As well, at the end of the month, on Oct. 27th, Erin and I are going to go to Wellsboro and watch Saw 3. Yes, I said it. SAW 3!!! I loved the first two movies, because it was more of a suspense than gore movie, whereas Hostel (by Quentin Tarintino), is exactly the opposite with too shallow of a plot line. Anyhow, that's beside the point. I felt happy by the end of the night, even after watching ROBOT CHICKEN!!! It was hilarious! "F@#& you!", I think, is Buck Rodger's new catch phrase. As well as the rest of it. Heh.
adult swim
