Roads @ MindSay

This summer, as I may have vaguely mentioned before, knocked me flat at times.  Oh, you wouldn’t know it to look at me, or even when talking with me.  My world is primarily an inner one, so when I am struggling and wrasslin’ with God, that’s where I do it.  Quietly and alone.

So it was a rough summer.

Somehow, though, I kept on truckin’.  I’m not sure where the joy and laughter came from, but it was there.  “One foot in front of the other,” “find the beauty in today,” “choose joy.”  Those are just some of the mantras I’d remind myself over and over and over and over again.

Lord, you are good and your mercy endures forever.

Faith is what gets me through.

Note present tense.

Yes, the summer is winding down.  But still I’m blind-sided.

I hate being blind-sided.  I don’t like being blind.  I like to see.  To know.  To be prepared.

But I don’t have the tight control I once did.  I once thought I did.

And, oddly enough, I’m ok with that.

Even… could it be? …happy about it.

Lord, you are good and your mercy endures forever.

I don’t know where this joy is coming from, but you can bet that I’m not spitting on it.  Whoever or whatever the cause, I am able to find joy.  To know that everything is going to work out.  To have faith that promises are real and they will be fulfilled.

Even when everything I see and know at the moment tell me different.

Sure, it may not look like I’m moving forward.  “One step forward, three steps back.”  That’s how my life has felt lately.

But maybe, just maybe, I’m moving forward.  Because maybe, just maybe, I’m being turned around.  Because maybe, just maybe, what I thought was the right direction, isn’t.

Lord, you are good and your mercy endures forever.

And maybe, just maybe, despite my faithlessness, my confusion, my anger, my frustration, I’m finding my road through life.

Even if, at the moment, I’m still pointed the wrong way.

We decided to go shopping before the zoo, my sister and I!  What a great day we had planned.  And it was going so well!  Out of the six major Thrift World Stores in the Metro area of Omaha, we hit two.  The two nicest ones with the Brand Name clothes!  One on the Northwest side of Omaha and one on the Southeast side of Omaha near the Zoo.

What a great way to end our mini camping trip that just turned in to being a mini stay at my sister's house due to the varying weather that kept popping up!  Instead of staying at the really nice free camp grounds we stayed at my sister's house for a few days, I wasn't going to chance being caught near a big man made lake that had extermly high levels near the banks of the camp ground!

Anyway, after a GREAT haul of a summer woredrobe for both kids from two different thrift shops and then treating the kids to lunch, we headed to Henery Dooley (sp?) Zoo for a nice afternoon.  It started out great!  We hit the Jungle, the Sea Lions, the Garden of Senses, the Cat House, part of the Avaiary, the Gorrila House, the Cat Complex, the feeding time for the smaller tropical birds, the Desert Dome, and the Giaraff House.  With smaller enclousers along the way of course!  Of course pictures are on here!  Enjoy!

While we were just ouside of the New Butterfly House and the Aquareme deciding which one we were going to go in first before we started heading to the town were my van was sitting so the kids and I could head home and my sister and her kids could head home, we heard the tornado sirins go off!  Now I know why so many ppl get killed in public places during storms!  The tornado sirns go off and the majority of the Zoo visitors head for the Goddess Dayum parking lots!  I kid you not!  Well being country girls, my sister and I herd the kids to the aquarememe (sp?) house under the canapoy and bust out our cell phones.  Each of us respectively calling our hubby's, asking them why the hell neither one of them called to tell us there was a storm system heading straight at Omaha!  We informed both of them that we were heading for the storm shelters in the Fish house and we would call once the storm passed.  Then we hearded the kids towards one of the Zoo Workers holding a door open to the basement of the complex leading to the exective offices and we were one of the first groups down. 

There were a few other ppl down there already but what we found the most funny out of this was that everyone single person down there including us, were NOT from Omaha persay but from the surrounding communities and areas!  We are NOT fools!  While the main secruity guy was telling us and the few zoo workers what the plan was, he was getting reports from the weather radio and the few of us that stopped and made calls.  Then he asked us to sit tight, while he and his other crew went outside to go round up the rest of the Zoo visitors and get them inside various zoo complexes till the storm passed.

We had a couple of upset kids of course, my daughter being one of them, and a lot of upset ppl, including ball players that stuck around after the College World Series before they went home.  Those of us from the midwest were laughing and joking and calming the kids down.  We kept telling everyone that we are in one of the safest buildings and don't worry about the animals they know what to do and the zoo workers were making sure they were safe also.  Once all the zoo workers got in the main secruity guy came back in to our basement and said it was pitch black out and winds up to 90-100 miles per hour and they would not know if a tornado hit till after it was clear out.  The lights did go out and thankfull the generator kicked on right away.

After we got the okay to clear out and leave the zoo, we got some pictures of the damage done in side the zoo.  Down trees and one of the heavy glass safety entrance doors to the Wild Kingdom Palliviallion was completely blown off and laid gently down in front of the Pavillion!  I missed that picture! There was hail everywhere!  We had to make our way out of the Eastern Side of Omaha back towards the I-10 exit so we could head to Freemont NE which is an hour Northeast of Omaha, where my van was sitting!  Damage everywhere!  While driving the news said, the Art Festival got hit hard downtown Omaha, there was a boat taken off of a dock in the Missiouri and was dropped on the roof of a house, trees blocking roads, and down electrical poles all over Omaha downtown/metro area!  We stopped on the outskirts of town to feed the kids and the Taco Johns we hit had running TVS.  The area heading to Fremont NE was hit hard also and a semi rig was entangled in electrical wires!  Cars of the road, rigs off the road, and major damage.  This system worked its way into IA and massive damage and two killed on the IA side.

We got detoured outside of a town between Omaha and Fremont due to massive damage and accidents.  Where I got a phone call from Randy when he got home.  My dog Spud died during the day yesterday!  Randy was upset and of course the kids and I were very upset also, but we also knew the dog was going to end up dying on us.  Spud was the dog with the unknown seizures.  At first Randy thought he somehow choked while he was outside on the chain but when he went up to examine Spud, there was plenty of slack in the chain and the collar would have slipped right off of his neck (we made sure that it could slip off if he was caught up when running or on the chain if something would have happened).  The way Spud was laying and his facial features, you could tell he had a massive siezure.  So trying to find our way on back country roads and county paved hiways we didn't know to get back into Fremont, we had upset kids and nobody was out directing the traffic.  My sister and I again being country girls said fuck it and got on a country road and started heading towards the sun because Northwest was where we wanted to head.  We picked up a truck in front of us from our home area just a different county and he had the same idea.  We got rerouted via the roads with no help from anyone due to big trees, silos, fencing, and other debries in the mushy gravel roads!  A normal 1 hour drive from Omaha to Fremont took 2 hours!

Once we got to a lil town Southeast of Fremont which would have been the quickest route we got denied by a State Trooper directing traffic.  Nobody was allowed into town where a small lake was surrounded wiht houses and such due to the damage!  They weren't letting anyone through not even family members of the town or land owners with no houses.  Ambulances and Fire trucks were all over the town and two of the rural fire trucks were making their way towards the other road leading to Fremont.  We just turned around and followed the fire trucks into Fremont.  Finally!  Fremont NE had no major damage.  Some trees down and some windows broken but no major damage.  Then we pull up into the truck stop where we left my van.  I got a lovely suprise!  My rear windsheild was blown out or a rock got kicked up in the storm!  I have no rear windshield now!  Nothing was stolen.  But everything was glass covered clear up to the front seat and everything was water logged!  Thank GODS I had what ever paperwork I did have in there in sacks and covered up!  My Leadership Manual alone would have cost me 100 some dollars to replace if it got water logged or damaged somehow!

So I called Randy yet again and told him we FINALLY made it into Fremont but I would be still a lot later because we had to clean up the glass and find places for the kdis to sit with out getting cut up!  Thankfull we were able to pull a couple of the pillows from underneith my tent that dind't have glass on it and give those to the kids to sit on.  My sister handed over one of her towels so I could sit on it while driving.  And then we rearrange the back so none of my Thrift shop finds, my tents, sleeping bags, blankets, pillows, or other camping gear would go flying out for my hour drive home!  I ended up pulling over twice on the way home to rearrange my back but FINALLY my normal two hour drive ended up being a 4 hour and 45 minute drive and we made it home at 8:45pm.  where we promptly unloaded the van and shop vaccued it out so I could get some plastic on the windshield due to more storms coming this weekend.

After we got that done, we gave Spud my Fat Man Dog a burial worthy of a King.  See we couldn't bury him.  The ground is too wet and his smell would draw the local wild dog pack and the local coyote pack.  Not to mention all the other wild critters int he area.  So we took my lovely burn pile Randy made up for me this weekend and gave Spud a Funeral Pry.  We didn't want any other anmals digging him up and eating on him.  Randy loaded him on the bonfire and I threw some sage, cedar chips, and sweet grass all over Spud and we said a lil blessing for him and said our goodbyes.

Now today, I get to call his old family and inform them that he is gone.  I am doing laundry from the back of my van and going to take the kids down to my girl's house because they are still stressed from last night.  A lil fun down at Aunties house and coming home about the time Daddy gets home from work will do them good. 

Now I am off to throw another sleeping bag into the wash!  Pictures to come after this post!

have you ever driven home late on a dark and rainy night?

when your car is the only one on the road

you are all alone

it is pitch black out.....

and one street light passes over you and its bright for a moment

then in one second later it is gone.....

this is my life

all alone

dark and sad

every once in a while a light will shine on me

but then it dissapears before i get time to even reconise it

Ha!  Your laid up lady!  And can't move that fast!  I am coming for you! 

I didn't mind the Chinook winds (thanks for clearing that def up-now I can go get into a weather debate with my dad!:P:D) but you dayum well sent the snow also!

What did I tell you about sending snow my way!  Especially during the spring!

I am soooooooo going to get you!  Run woman run!:P

And on that note..........even though my kids' school hasn't done a 2 hour late start yet.........my school district has and Randy said to take them in late regardless of if we have a late start or not.  The roads are nothing but slushy ice mixture and I don't do that type of driving unless I have to and in this case legally I dont' have to till the roads are cleared and our district school starts!

Dayum now I am goign to have to bust out the big diesel eating truck for the roads.  Oh and heat and defrost too!

Snow snow every where snow, oh I will be so glad when spring arrives. We have been traveling in Kansas and again through snow, we hit the bad roads yesterday just as we went through Dodge City and it went to pot real fast after that. The roads all ice and snow packed it was slow going. We finally made it to Syracuse Ks. to pick up our load and back through the stuff again but by this time the snow really started to pick up , driving at night with it coming down and the roads were terrible,  it was so hard to see,  The big truck in front of us almost lost it , almost jack knifed but didn't thank goodness, he finally got it going straight and that really slowed his butt down, I figured he probably peed his pants if I were a guessing,we finally made it to a pickle park(trucker lingo for rest area) around 8:30 pm. Got up around 5am this morning headed out, and hit Wichita Ks. at rush hour with snow pack, and crazy 4 wheelers(trucker lingo for cars and small trucks) always braking for everything , not good on ice and snow, lots of cars in ditches. Just about to Parsons Ks. the roads finally were just wet. Our destination this time is Bentonville Ark. Which is where we are now, so that is why I am on the puter typing away, I am hoping to get a pic of the eagles that I see around here, saw one flying in the sky high up on the way here but too far for a shot, hopefully when we head back I can get on in my camera sites.Hopefully by the time we get back to middle of Kansas the roads will be just wet tonight. Nothing to spectacular to write about other than I didn't get to vote in the Mo. primaries, we were going to vote early last time we were home but it snowed and the roads were too bad, and then we left out Monday so I missed it.Oh well either one on Dems side will do for me, although I do hope Clinton wins nomination, if not I will vote for Obama.

for what it is worth

blessings be, be a blessing

D.G