Revelations @ MindSay

I was thinking philosophically again - although there can be 'revelations' in the mind when it comes across a new idea, a large portion of it seems to be figured out and processed gradually, for all humankind. People may make sudden decisions based on something they've been thinking about for ages... but behind the scenes it's usually been building up (if it is a carefully thought through thing, and not an act of impulse on the shock of a 'revelating' idea).

I think though, even if an idea does shock, never rush - always be sure so as to not risk regret
I was just looking over my old entries and thinking how cryptic they can be lol :) - But I think I tend to speak generally, and philosophically

I know it is time that you knew the truth.  I am not the same as I was before and I don't see you the same.
I have moved past the place you reside and will remove the chains that hold me here. So I hope you just back off and let me go.  I am finding another way to continue on  and will not be under your control.
It is sad how everything happened, I should have left long ago.   Your anger does not scare me all that much anymore. Your problems are not mine to hold, I've already let them go. Your harsh words just fall to the ground as you so easily throw them around. I just stand there and watch them crumble as I don't even acknowledge you.anymore. 

So, I was "guarding freight" last night at work, outside about sundown after a massive thunderstorm had passed over. I was reading through the Book of Revelations (..hehe), the seven seals, the bowls of God's Wrath, the woman Babylon and the Antichrist. Scary stuff, that is, if you have a healthy fear of the Lord and the Judgement to Come.

 

Anyways, I happened to look up from my reading and the whole sky was, no joke, blood red. For a moment, panic seized me, my imagination winning over self-control. I thought for sure the Tribulation was upon us! Go on you can laugh if you want; I did, after the fact. Still I could not help but mavel at the beautiful, yet fearful, sunset the Lord had painted over Florida that night. The clouds, what remained of that day's storms where indeed blood red in the east and slowly working their way west they melted into oranges and yellows and finally-! right at the horizon, the clouds were molten gold! Like God had melted down the purest, solid gold and splattered it like paint across the horizon. I had never seen anything like it and words do not do this justice I fear. It instills in me the beauty and majesty of my God and how the things of heaven and He Himself are even far more beautiful than anything on earth. The earth is His canvas yes, but the artist Himself...it makes me long for Rapture. I don't understand how people can deny the existence of God when His glory and the Works of His Hand are all around us. Praise the Majesty and Power and Beauty of My God!

 

"For the invisible things of Him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood even by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse." Romans 1: 20

 

Ndosch

To live is Christ, to die is gain!

Phillipians 1:21

 

Prayers - mom, dad, sis, bro, wayne

   I was praying this morning – again, lines from a worship song --“I want to see the way that you see. I want your eyes.”

    I did realize, as I was praying this, that seeing the way that He sees would be totally overwhelming – I couldn’t handle it!  Yet as I pray and seek God, He does keep helping me to see things – He does keep revealing more and more of Himself , which is something that He does want to do.   

    We often hear the verse quoted: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”  (1 Corinthians 2:9) But, somehow, we seldom notice the next verse:  “But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God.”  God has revealed them to us! It is His good pleasure to give us the Kingdom!      Point?  He has so much more for us than most of us have so far received! Haven’t received, because we haven’t kept on asking, haven’t kept on seeking, haven’t kept on knocking. Let’s press in, saints, He’s waiting for us. And beckoning us, calling us. Today, if you hear His voice – pay attention!

I'm back....this time, for good.

Due to a number of unforseen circumstances that I care not to deal with, I have demolished my personal myspace page for good and all. I'm still keeping the Gorechestra page running for now but my own page is dead and gone. Honestly, it doesn't matter because I basically hate myspace anyway but now, I have a reason to blog here even more.

2006 was a learning experience for me, one that was unlike most other years that I can remember. I have plunged the depths of my own voyeurism and stupidity. Normally fairly interested in my personal privacy, I idiotically let my guard down a few too many times and found out that I don't like it so much. I guess the reason I've always liked Mindsay is that due to it's more intimate atmosphere, I have yet to feel like I've let my guard down since I started using this site.

So yeah, I'm back with a vengeance. I wish I had never deleted my original profile from this site but in a fit of anger or stupidity, I did so without thinking. Anyway, Mindsay is where it's at. I just had to learn so the hard way.