Retarded Family @ MindSay

Yay, Pantera! ...If you haven't noticed, the subject line has nothing to do with the actual entry and will not. I'd rather put a movie quote or a lyric or something.

So, what I was gonna actually write about was the fact that after I wrote that entry last night, I totally lost my motivation to write like I said I was going to. Instead, I watched Ghosthunters and stuff... I was talking to Justin for a bit until he had to go 'cause he was meeting up with a friend of his to shoot some pool or whatever.  But, a while after he left, he randomly sent me a text and totally lifted my spirits, so-to-speak.  It's amazing that he can send me a simple text message..not even 10 words long and make me smile like he does. That's what I love about him...he's the least selfish guy I've ever met and appreciates all the little things that people tend to not care about more than anything!

...When Bryan broke up with me for no reason (other than so he could get high guilt-free, I believe....fuckng assbag) I thought I was going to be alone forever. That once I fell in love with him and we spent the past year and a half together.. and he broke my heart, that I would never be able to fall in love again. I've always thought that true love only happens once. ...and I suppose that hasn't changed, because..if Bryan loved me as much as he claimed to, would he have broke up with me via text message because I confronted him for being an asshole? No. true love doesn't lie.. doesn't keep secrets. And most certainly isn't demeaning and lacking the balls to end in person. o_O He said to me...no, wait... texted to me: "good luck finding someone who can love you like I do..and yes. I still do." Hmm. "nothing will ever change that" ...if you say so, sweetheart. You wasted a year and half of my life leading me on, giving me a ring and promising all these things... Ha! Whatever.

..The point is: I believe now, that maybe I didn't love that boy as much as I thought. ..or that maybe I did and I just didn't know it was possible to love someone even more than that. Well, I can't explain it. ..words can never adequately explain such strong emotions, and that's why they're emotions and not words. If they were meant to be explained, they would be words.

...And believe it or not, that was not what I wanted to write about. WTF. Haha, I love hardcore side-tracking. All I was going to say was that my family drives me up a fucking wall. i went to make a turkey and cheese sandwich last night because there wasn't anything else that I could eat... I have a dentist appointment next week, but right now, I can't eat anything loaded with sugar.. It's killing me! I love sweets. Ugh. But anyway, I get so irritated because this is a HUGE pet peeve of mine. ..both the ignorance it takes to do it, and the actual issue itself. My mother always complains when she has to throw food away, which I understand, because I hate it too... but, seriously, don't even open your mouth if you put the turkey and the cheese in a DRAWER with beer and expect people to know where it is!! ....It doesn't belong there! And then, my favorite part, was how no one EVER keeps the damned bread tie...and doesn't even tie the bag to keep it fresh! My brother is the worst one.. he doesn't even twist the bag shut.. He leaves it flat and folds it under the loaf. >:(  And of course he's always the one bitching when the bread is stale. Mind you, he's 24 years old. Am I the only one in this fuckin' family with common sense/consideration?

..certianly seems that way.

At least the sandwich was good. I microwaved it and the cheese was all melty and..yum. :P I might go make another right now.

[Over and out.]

-Jess