Remote @ MindSay

this one's for you.


yes, i know what you're doing.

the remote control? the phishing? the mock connections and mock pages?

what i just do not know though is how could you bring yourself to do it? why would you compromise your sense of right and wrong for this unjust act?

you've already spent a lot of your time monitoring me so if  you would just call on your good judgment (and not the twisted voice of your de-mentor), you know that i don't deserve all the hacking and the stalking and personal, social and economic sabotage you all are doing.

have i done you wrong? have you seen me do anyone wrong? is it wrong to get angry because i am forced and pushed in a corner i don't belong in?

does it make you feel you  "belong" just because you are  "capable" of  playing god by controlling and seeing what goes on in my life?

why do you wanna "belong" with people who are doing what isn't right?

yes, i am angry because of what you are doing.

i shut in and our of painful reverie contemplating all the things, the acts,  you have done and are continually making.

but will i go against you?

no.

because you are just being used as a pawn in a game that you allowed your dementor to set before you.

you think you are playing god by forcing me into a game you wanna call the shots on?

analyze. who's really calling the shots?

who's really the pawn?

me, do i have any choice?

do i have the option of saying no to the bugs you so wantonly splay anywhere i go?

i have spent a good deal of time, a thousand different ways,   letting my voice be heard that  this  harassment - this violation of my right to privacy, my right to live a life - is unwelcome.

you, you do have a choice.

you have a conscious knowledge of what's being done.

yet you are a willing participant to this heinous act.

why?

and your subhuman dementor, what stories has IT created to convince  you that you  need to do this?

analyze.

who are the pawns?

whose game are you playing.

the dementor's using your ego against you.

against me.

IT knows that you need to convince yourself that you're good at what you are doing and IT makes you think that i am the canvas you can paint your heinous works on.

i know IT will attempt to morph my words into something i never intended to say. that IT will make you interpret the message again, calling on your ego, but hear me on this.

if you want to, don't listen to me.

don't listen to IT, too.

just listen to yourself.

and in your good judgment, listen to your inner voice.

naive as it may sound, i have always believed that deep down in a person's core, there's always that small speck of goodness. that goodness within.

and if you but listen to yourself.. or to the pure, unadulterated, unmodified profile you have of me... you'll know that i am speaking the truth.

please see who's violating whom.

I felt really hard yesterday.I hate illness,because it let me be not able to do anything I want.It is a devil,I wish it disappear in the earth.fortunately,I am better today.In fact,unless I still have a little headache,I will be a heathy human.

 

And I thought I should resume to read.So after toefl class,I sat to my writing desk,and picked a book to read casually(my books' setting are always disheveled.)And then,I found my remote,it was between two page of which I picked up.Why I didn't arrange my books when I cleaned my house the day before yesterday.

 

Now that I found it,I should watch TV for some minitues.Otherwise,Miss Remote may angry and escape out of my view.

 

By the way,today is not very cold in Shenyang China.

A ton of stuff happened this weekend. Sadly, the one thing I wanted to happen didn't. I just wanted to finish a game I've been working on for over a month. I just needed 5 hours or so with it. I planned for that to happen on Saturday night. The plan failed. I started playing the game and then proceeded to start to fall asleep while playing it. At 8:15 PM. What an exciting bachelor I am. In my defense, I had to be up at 5 AM to do the job I get paid to do as well as to set up a computer for someone. Why 5 AM? Well, my mother told me at 10:30 PM Friday night that the guy was coming to pick up the computer at 9 AM on Saturday. Just like my real job, nobody consults with the guy actually doing the work before picking a deadline.

I got a lot of other things accomplished, though. I was up in Appleton twice over the weekend. Once for shopping and once to visit my brother. I fixed his computer, which was a whole bucket of not-fun. There are many times that I wish I didn't have a skill that was so useful to my relatives. Just once I'd like to go to visit family and not be asked to look at their computer or stereo equipment. As for the shopping, I wanted to buy a new television remote, but couldn't find it at a price I liked. Instead, I got house things. I'm redecorating my living room and needed some supplies. Fun, but not as fun as a shiny new remote (which was ordered online this morning).

Conversation snippet:

Dad: Did you get her phone number?
AAP: No, she was only 18 or 19.
Dad: So? Get her number. She's legal and you're still single.

Uggg.

Introducing my new television remote. Okay, it's not mine. But it should be.


Click the picture for more info...

The worst thing just happened to me! My remote control doesn't work anymore. Now I have to switch cannels manualy!