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     Hi, this is my first post on this blog. I've blogged before but I think I'm actually going to use this one to speak what's really on my mind. For instance:  I really have no idea where my relationship is at with my boyfriend. I know lots of girls use their blogs to gush/complain/worship/rant about their boys but hopefully mine will not be like that. Anyways, other things that I want to talk about on here:  my friends, my family, my life, school, work... Just everything I guess which is really what the point of a blog is... Sharing your life with random strangers... Soungs extremly weird to me but here it goes.

 

     So... I will start with telling about myself, I guess. I am a senior in high school and I cannot wait for college. I am going to be an english major and I am planning to room with my bestfriend. She and I are like sisters but here recently we have begun to grow appart... It makes me sad to know that she wants space but I understand it... If we continue to be joined at the hip then come this fall when we have to live together we will probably be at each others throats so we decided to try spending time with other friends. Moving on, I live with my mother and father and I have a little sister. I was adopted when I was three months old and my sister was adopted when she was three years old. She and I are four years, six months, and two weeks appart. I do not know why I put that into such detail but there it is. I recently started working at a daycare near my home and I really enjoy my job. I want to be a teacher and so working with small children seemed like a good way to prepare myself. Anyways, I've got to run now because my sister and I are home alone and I need to get dinner started. I will most likely be back on here later tonight to continue my post and also to avoid my required reading for school. =]

I met this guy and I really like him, but ever since New years eve, I haven't heard much from him.  He doesn't really have much interest in me, well at least that is what I think, maybe it just he is busy.

He works a lot, and I sorta live a ways from him.  When I was with him on New Years Eve, I had such a connection with him, but how could all that change?

I just don't understand, maybe i'm just being too over dramatic about the situation.  I mean just want to get to know him better.  But sometimes when I feel like moving on, because he told me we were just friends, but then he said he wants to be more then friends.  I was just confused.

 

Guys make no sense...

Which make things really harder there are two other guys who likes me!!!!

I'm just not a patient person, I should be, but I'm not...I really should just wait or maybe just idk...

i need some advice...

~Megan

 

I hate when  friend left you just because she already have someone special in her life. Sucks.. this is  the lamest thing and reason one could ever do to their friends just because you already found that so called special person and now you are turning you back to your old friends? are you sick? sure that would be good if your old friends cause nothing to your life but darkness and that special someone is saving you.This is reasonable I think..... but  when you just left because you just want to devote your whole time to him, let me tell you ,  you are so unfair. A friend/s should be treated special too because you also have a relationship MINUS a romantic thingy. Being a gf anf bf is an uncertain thing, but friendship will always be there to listen your stories even if it doesn't interest them at all..If you were no longer together where you want to go?to a friend, right? So I think it is really a mistake to sacrifice your relationship to your friends just because you already have special someone so called boyfriend and gf.....

 

 

I just fnd this annoying...

Convo I had with a friend...I changes some things around though just so that things can't be figured out. Cuz a few of the ppl who read my bulletins would figure it out in a heartbeat if I left some things in...

 

Hey I have a question.

 

Ok shoot.

 

Ho do you know that you are ready to take the next step in your relationship with your boyfriend?

 

What kind of step? Like, you want to kiss in public and do more things together?

 

No, lhigher step than that.

 

You want to get physical?

 

Yeah. We have talked about it a little bit. I want to and he wants to also. I don't want his parents to find out

and then tem try and keep us apart. Do we do it or wait?

 

Honestly it is up to you and him wheather you do it or not. As for his parents finding out they can't keep you apart forever.

 

Yeah. I am good friends with one of his family members and I don't want him/her to think less of me.

 

That is understandable. Talk to him/her and see how they would feel if they knew that something like that was going on.

 

I kind of have the feeling he/she thinks something is going on already.

 

Is there?

 

Um, yes. We have already.

 

If you have already why didn't you say so instead of asking how to know your ready.

 

I don't know.

 

Well, I don't know your boyfriend or his family as well as I know you and your family. I know that when you parent(s) find out all your mom will do is talk to you a little bit and make sure you are safe about it.

 

I don't know his parents very well, but I know them well enough to know that they will probably freak out and find some way to keep us apart. We would still find away to be together. I am more worried about his brother/sister not wanting to talk to me anymore or him/her telling his parents.

 

Are you safe about what you are doing?

 

Yes!

 

That is good. I don't really know what to say. If his brother/sister knows and they really didn't like it they would have said something by now. So he/she either doesn't know or doesn't really mind.

 

I just want to know that if his parents find out that they aren't going to ground him and make sure we can't see each other.

 

If you are so worried about his parents finding out, maybe you shouldn't be doing anything. Maybe you should be waiting untill you are older to do anything.

 

I am worried ,but we don't do it everyday. We have only done it once.

 

Well, wait a while. Do you think you are in good with his parents?

 

Yes, from what I hear his mom loves me and his dad adores me.

 

Do your parents like him?

 

Yes.

 

So, why are you rushing into things right now. Just wait a little while and when it is truely ready to happen. It will happen again.

 

Thanks alot! You have been a big help.

 

It is no problem just know that I am here for you whenever you have a problem.

 

One more thing though.

 

What?

 

He is coming over today and we kind of planned to do it again, do I go ahead with it or do I tell him nevermind?

 

It is up to you. Question for you, Why did you decide to do it in the first place?

 

I love him and he loves me.

 

That isn't a good reason to do something like sex.

 

I know, but we really do love each other and I want to prove to him and he wants to prove to me that we love each other.

 

Well, it is up to the two of you. You both know the consequences. I know you, you get atatched more after something big happens in your relationship.

 

I know I do and I think he has become more atatched to. He seems to want to spend more time with me now. More than he did before at least. I like it.

 

*The last little bit was just saying good bye and all that good crap...Advice sucks sometimes, but idk...

these past two days have just kind of sucked.  ever since family class had the lecture from the lady from the rape and abuse crisis center i really haven't been feeling the same.  something has triggered something off inside me and now i am this well of unanswered questions.  well, not so much questions as much as topics in life.  the sick thing is the topic of relationships.  i feel like i do not need a relationship to complete me, yet it is something i waste too much time thinking about. 

 

i find it very hard to really like someone.  i like a lot of people as friends but when it comes to relationships it takes me a while to really like them.  then, for a relationship to work they would need to like me back and take things slow.  i guess i have turned very traditional this past summer when it comes to dating and PDA's.  right now i am in the middle of liking someone and them most likely not liking me back. wait, i know they don't like me back, yet i live in this almost surreal world.  during this time i really start to doubt my self worth--a lot.  i feel like the only question i can ask is why am i not good enough for them to like me? 

 

another part of me starts to wonder during this time of self doubt and deprication if it is this "sickness" as so many people have called it.  i have never needed medication before but maybe i should start.  i hate these days when i feel like my body is roting and all i want to do is cry.