Happy Mother's Day!
.... I got into the spirit... bought a lovely wordy card for my mother who lives miles and miles away and got one for my .... well "boyfriend" sounds so juvenile and well "significant other" so fake and "husband" so final and "common-law husband" is just to damn long... I always have a difficult time defining his status - well anyway you get the picture - a card for his mother.
Sometimes I feel as though I need to breathe... not like that exhale shit! But to reconnect with the me before I became connected with him! 
Either that or I am having a hard time coping with birthdays! Maybe I am getting old .... thinking old...acting aged!
Heck, I probably need to just go out and get on bad! It has been awhile! My girlfriend and I had decided that every month a group of us would go out, no men allowed! It was working fine... especially when she and her man was in limbo but honestly, come to think of it.... now that he is back (as if he ever really left) that concept has faltered by the wayside!
everyone is wrapped up in something and if I keep waiting for company, for commitment, for change... nothing is going to happen... it starts and ends with me afterall it is my life! The only one I've got and I might as well enjoy it.... make something of it... and leave a positive mark!
The lid has finally opened... Nike was right!
Now that deserves a vodka and cranberry juice or hell, I'll settle for a beastly cold beer!
Anyway.... thank you mama for the nine months you carried me!
And to all out there raising the future on your own (single father/mother) .... auntie or granny.... HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!
PS my sister is having a baby... due in October!
I'm taking bets .... boy or girl?
RELEASE ISN'T IT GRAND!
