Reality Check @ MindSay

            Did the hair stylist botch up your do at the salon?

            Somebody cut you off in traffic?

            Did the server mess up your food order at the restaurant?

            Not enough chocolate in your mocha?

            Just a little reality check, to help us stop grumbling and complaining (not that I would ever do such a thing!) and turn, instead, to thankfulness.  The Pulitzer Prize winning photo from about a decade ago, of a child trying to reach a food outpost during the famine in Sudan.

So, as you might have seen on josiejunk's  blog, I had gone out to visit her this past weekend and we had a marvelous time. We have been friends since I was 10 and she was 12 and my life would be a lot less happy without her in it. I always hate leaving after a visit since we live so far from each other. This time was particularly hard. But leave I did. The plane ride was uneventful, and we arrived back in the delightful Midwest, where it was in the 20's and snowing. I also don't fly well (motion sickness) and as usual had a headache. By the time we got in it was 8pm, I had eaten one lowly bagel for dinner, and I had to be up at 5:30 the next day to get on the commuter train to work because the car was in the shop.  I turned on my cell phone and saw that I had a voicemail message. I checked it, naively thinking it was my family or a friend. Big mistake. It was one of the higher ups at work, who left the following message "Hi! Hope you had a great trip. Everything is fine here, but we've been busy. Just wanted to let you know the secretary has resigned, we have three interviews set up for tomorrow I would like you to sit in on, we have a two hour training on how to use the new phones, and you have an 89 page contract sitting in your e-mail that you need to review tomorrow because the client needs to sign it tomorrow. Hope you're well-rested!"

Oh joy.

So, I walked my sorry ass to the El station (that what we call the elevated train/subway for those of you not from the Chicagoland area!) to catch a train home. My brother picked me up at the station and spoke to me in one word sentences and scowled at me while I tried to shove my suitcase in the tiny space behind the front seat of the pickup truck (not wanting to throw it into the pickup part since it was snowing!). I came home to a giant pile of mail and my bed had a mysterious stain on it from the dog. So, I did what any modern, hip, together woman would do - I burst into tears.

Never fear - a warm dinner and one giant reality check later, and I was back to normal (ok, well, normal is a relative term) and I did manage to get all those things done today at work. It's just that reality can be such a bummer....

I am single once again!

I haven’t spoken to him in about a week...not due to my lack of trying! I have called and texted him...not to an extreme like most of you are all thinking but I have tried to get in contact with him. It was just really strange because things seemed to be going really good and then boom he stops talking to me. And of course I start thinking what did I do, did I come on to strong in some way and didn’t realize it? So that’s been my life for the last couples days trying to figure out what I could have done, or was I just not good enough for him type shit! And oh god do I dwell on stupid shit like that....anyways I was talking with a good guy friend of mine and I just said to him I just cant believe that I was so easily dropped! He finally laid into me and said that I am one that should be pissed off here and that I need to stop throwing this flippin pity party for myself! lol I was of course pissed off at first....but then it sunk in. He is right I am the one that should be sayin "Your freaking loss not mine!" And that I am the one that controls how I let this affect me! You bet your ass I am freaking pissed...who the hell does he think he is...I have alot to offer someone and if he cant see that or chooses not to see that’s his problem! My problem is I have horrible self esteem and I know I need to work on it...because I honestly believe that if cant take pride in yourself then how is someone else going to? I know I have a long road but baby I am going to keep on walkin and see where it takes me!

I would like to Thank my wonderful friend Jaime for pissing me off enough to help me see all of this!

You need to grow up

stop living in 05

this year is 06

new year, same damn kicks

get up out the past

18 damn years

still livin in your momma's pad

I may be harsh,

but damn bitch, go get a job

stop whinin, stop complainin,

stop moanin

the eviction notices

posted on your door

somehow doesn't seem to wake you up

do you need water thrown on your face?

I didn't think so, but get your mind check

this is a reality check

this is a reality check

this is a reality check

1,2, this is a reality check

Who needs a ReAlItY cHeCk? Top 5

1. Taylor Hicks- He needs to understand he does not belong on 'American Idol'!! You are a Ray Charles wanna be that can't sing and has more gray hair than most people's fathers.
2. Drew Lachey- Jessica left you. The whole world knows. That doesn't mean that you need to make an album commemorating that.
3. Tom Cruise- You lost me when you made the placenta comment. No, as a matter of fact, you lost me when you and Nicole Kidman got a divorce.
4. Rasheed Wallace- You need to grow up with the guaran-Sheed's.They don't work. Your team is down 3-2, and you're going to lose tonight. Good luck Cavaliers!!
5. Jen and Vince- You guys make me sick. Literally

for the past few days my mother has been talking about an odd lump on her face thats been growing. she pointed it out to me, and i told her it was probably just a mole. well, she had a doctors appointment today. turns out it was pre-cancerous.

they were able to remove it, but talk about a heartless reality check.....