Real Nice @ MindSay

I had to un-Josie, though I don't think she ever saw the profile name--she's apparently off having a real life or something.  C'mon, Josie, cut it out!

Anyway, feel free to let me know what you think of my new userpic--better or not than the blue leaf?  I'd say be nice, but I know better than that.

And since Josie didn't get to see the profile....

I bought another hotel room tonight.  I will leave Friday afternoon and settle for the weekend in Kernersville, NC.  Kernersville is about 15 minutes outside of Greensboro.  I like the fact that I can get there, go and have a nice dinner and relax for the night.  I also like the fact that I can sight see a bit of the area the next day and get acquainted of where I am going to see Van Halen at.  I also like the fact that after the concert I can be on my way to a quiet place to sleep and be that much closer on my way home the next morning. 

There are some nice restaurants around the coliseum so I may try one before I have to go and get in line. Then it is on!  Finally, after all of these years I am getting to see the real Van Halen.  I bought some opera glasses that I got today which should do the trick.  I am actually going to see one of history's greastest bands play.  With their original singer.  I would never have gone through this if Roth was not singing.

Wow!

I have said my prayers for safe keeping for the trip and have no doubt things will go well.  Tomorrow I will check the oil and tires, pack and get ready for the road trip.  The critters will be set for the weekend and things should go as planned.  I will update when I sometime Sunday when I return.

Well, this time I'm for real. I found my new apartment!

It's small but cozy and nice. It's cheap. It's not in the area I was looking for but it is in a nice area.

I sign the lease on friday and I will begin moving in saturday and next week.

It's an upper flat of an old house. It's got a decent size bathroom and bedroom (nice) and the kitchen and dining room are in the same small room (I can deal with that).The rent is very good, $390 a month utilaties included.

The landlady is a nice old cat lady who lives in the first floor of the house. She is semi-retired and works a couple days a week.

However, it is way to small for all the furniture I enherited (is that how you spell that?). I asked the owner if she would have any place I could store it, she said she only had the garages (she also owns the house next door) and they are already full of her stuff. So I have to find a place to store that stuff. I probably will only have to find a place for the dining set. Maybe my parents will let me store it in their attic or basement, or at my father's shoe store. Either way I can work it out.

But here is the best part of it. I was at the shoe store when the lady called to tell me that it had just become available. My father called when I was on my way to make sure it wasn't a bad place that is about four blocks from the apartment (the place where the state put the sexual predators when they get out of prison). I, of course, said no. He aksed me where it is.

As it turns out that this apartment is the apartment that my grandfather on my mom's side first lived in when he moved to Lansing right after World War II.  That's kind of cool, huh?  

Any way, now I have to finish packing and move. I also need to look for a possible second job so I won't be totally broke (even though it's pretty much a sure bet that I will). This should be fun

Thanks for Reading,

Mark M.

I've got an idea in my mind to cheat on my now serious boyfriend, Garret.  He's nice, too nice almost, but he is amazing, and i do hate to say it but, I love him.  I wish i didn't because that would make things so much more easy than they are now.  This is the first REAL relationship that i have been in that has that sort of all consuming, deep, want to see you everyday, fuck you every night sort of love.  now dont get me wrong i have loved before, but not like this. Those were passive loves.  But with garret, i hate it when he doesnt call me or touch me or something, i can barely stand not seeing him for two days at a time.  and the reason i'm going to cheat on him? Fear, basically.  What happens if it doesnt work out? of course it won't, i know this.  I'm too young to think that this thing that i have with an amazing guy will last longer than a few months, maybe a year if i'm lucky, or should i say unlucky?  If this lasts any longer, I'll get my heart broken, and i'm too much of a bitch already.   there are only two ways it can turn out if we dont break up now:

A) I become a big, huge, massive bitch without any real emotions because i got my heart broken and who's to say it wont happen again.  I'll become one of those women on movies that shelter themselves from people for fear of being hurt again.  And i would hate that OR

B) i become some sappy, sad lonely girl who only thinks about things that could have been instead of what i could make of things now.  I would hate that too.

So i  find myself at a paradox.  What to do?????

I think I'll cheat on Garret and get him to break up with me.  Jack is definately willing to mess around with me.And i find Jack intriguing, sexy and he's a big asshole which has always been appealing to me.  The only thing that could go wrong is i'll miss out on the only chance at love i've got.  But i dont believe that there's only one person for everyone do i? and if i do is garret it?

On a completely different note, i found a sweet ass lighter, it's an ice cream cone.