Rambling @ MindSay

I've got a full week ahead of me and am excited to add blogging at MindSay to my To-Do list.

I'm going to get to bed now, but before I do I wanted to share a memory of blogging here within this extensive community. I'm not sure if anyone else does this but because webpages and online personalities don't have a physical space to occupy, I found myself building in my mind a map of important MindSay places and people. I guess it was a way to keep everything straight. Eventually, I put it down on paper which further carried my internal analogy of "this is my little corner of the internet". The people I knew best were closest to me. Those I got to know through other people or befriended around the same time were mapped together in cul-de-sacs and burroughs. As I met more and more people, my map grew. At some point, proximity to my "street" no longer indicated how good a friend was because the MindSay I visited and got to know kept growing.

I found the little hand-drawn map about a year ago. It made me smile and reminisce; recalling good people and interesting times. It amazed me to see how many people I met during my early blogging years. Some disappeared quickly after making a large impact on me. Other names surprised me with how early we had met.

Time is a funny thing.

My time away from this community feels like ages. At other times it's just a blinking memory. My time here felt like a lifetime. How can a lifetime feel like forever ago? It does and doesn't. It makes me stupid with contradictions.

I've missed a shit-ton of you, a lot. I'm also sad to see I can't come back to the way it was as this place isn't the same. I'm glad to be here for Reunion Week. I'm happy to have the place to meet up with those that've stuck it out or are revisiting ol' times.

Sometimes a good thing is a good thing for a short amount of time. Sometimes a time limit on valuable cargo makes it more precious. That' as it should be. For me, to try to hang on would have hurt the experience. But I'd never want to be locked away from it or deny anyone else the opportunity to have what I had.

So today is today.

 

Sorry for acting such like a school girl yesterday ... huh, that's what I feel like. Oh by the way,  he never called... no! We don't do the sane thing! He texted me at midnight (12:00 AM!) right when I was just about to go to sleep. Don't you just love when these insane things of fate step in and ruin your sleep?

 

Talking about insanity. I definately kept hearing someone whispering my name in church today. I keep trying to think I'm normal ... like yesterday I saw this guy's blog where he was complaining that he was just too normal  and I almost commented that I felt the same way, but I, my people, am anything but normal. I hear people whispering my name in church, of all places, and I just hear things all the time... which is strange because when people talk to me I never hear them properly, my hearing is so bad... but in silences I hear my name and this one musical line... so faint and calming, reminds me almost of Clair de Lune... but not. different. I MUST be crazy. Wow.

 

I saw Baby Mama last night, good movie... but you know what movie I love? Meet Joe Black. whoever came up with that idea is a genius! Well, maybe not because although the movie is amazing... it's not really that good ... (there I go with the crazy talk again) ... I guess it's the concept of the whole movie itself.

 

Well yes that is my rambles for the day...

 

 

The loveliest thoughts to everyone,

 

Aria

 

I don't know why I did this video. I sound like a rambling fool.  Plus, I couldn't figure out where to look on my camera which is why it doesn't look like I'm staring directly into it.  Blech!

 

 

• Everything I eat makes me nauseous. I know I'm not pregnant, but I'm wondering if someone close to me is.  Could it be my little sister?  Could it be Environgirl? *looks around*

 

 

• Everybody is urging me to take up writing during my hiatus from employment.  I still have a story that I should be sending around to publishing companies, but oh the rejections!  They used to be generic and cool. Lately they've harsh and gut wrenching. "You suck! I wouldn't wipe my ass with this story!"

 

• Speaking of writers, I just read a short story by Environgirl. It's a modern day version of the story of Hades' abduction of Persephone.  Why in Hades haven't you sent it around for publishing yet young lady?  It is FABULOUS!

 

• The funeral is Saturday. *sigh* It's about time he gets laid to rest, but damn it I'm just in a state of disbelief about him being gone.

 

 

• Why do men like making us mad? Why do they constantly like to get a rise out of us? Is it a turn on when a woman tells them off?

 

• The husband braved the elements and barbecued in the rain.  I guess they'll be no fireworks today either.  I'm so sick of this soggy assed summer. To all my fellow Texans out there, I feel ya.  Maybe we  can light some sparklers on the patio and stand under an umbrella.  

 

• As some of you may know I used to do the 80's Song of the Day, but I was thinking of starting the Classical Piece of the Day. Would anyone be interested in the Classical Piece of the Day?  Should I start up the 80's Song of the Day again?

 

Well here I am, in No Man's Land
Trying to set down the tracks,
Seeing the horizon line in the distance....
I keep walking my talk,
Making a ladder out of my dreams....
Then stumbling into pits
I didn't even know were there until
I fall ass over teacup....
Alice down the rabbit hole.
Then I look up,
To see so many helping hands,
And I dust myself off and keep
Reaching for that next rung...